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Saturday, June 30, 2007, 04:55 p.m. Haha back from my disappearing act (: I think I won't blog much from now on cause I've come to the conclusion that if you wanta know what's going on in my life, then talk to me. I really thank God for closed doors, and now especially for open ones (: I don't know how I'm going to cope with school cause I'm honestly quite scared of facing the workload and all that reading I'm going to have to do, but I know for sure that this is where God wants me now, and that He'll see me through this (: Every step of the way ! So one step at a time :D He'll see you through too ! Whoever's reading this (: Now I need direction to plan and prepare for next Saturday's workshop which I feel inadequate to do. Oh wells ! It'll work out :D God bless :D Thursday, May 24, 2007, 12:07 a.m. Everything's eating up my weekends I'm so UGHHHHH and I just wanta go to church thank you very much! Sunday, April 29, 2007, 12:37 p.m.  HELLO ALL ! Please support Sentio! Friday, April 13, 2007, 02:27 p.m. The very nice DVD rental guy said I don't have to pay the fine cause it's my first time :D Heehee so nice. Back to studying ! (: Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 12:47 p.m. I feel this overwhelming temptation to use the typewriter that's sitting just beside me. Haha, maybe I should get an electronic one too, so I won't have to worry about using up my film in that old school one. Lunch soon ! :D:D Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 09:58 a.m. Thursday, April 5, 2007, 02:00 p.m. See you later alligator. Gotta go change my pants at Paragon and maybe get some art stuff :DD I love cherry tomatoessssssss Monday, April 2, 2007, 06:19 p.m. Hmmm weird, but my links all disappeared. Haha, anyhows I need to find something to do. Finished watching Hanakimi in three days :D Haha, major loss of sleep but it's super super good and crazily hilarious. Haha, I'm considering watching it again, but I need to find Prison Break first ! Shall ask Piglets. Anyhoooos, one more application left and I'll leave the rest to God. Tuesday, March 27, 2007, 05:25 p.m. Hello world, I'm back from Chiangmai already (: Yes I know I just went there a month ago. This was an entirely different trip for me. Reflected on my life thus far, and prioritised esp with regards to my spiritual life. Been really distracted and caught in between about different things. But I thank God for showing me, through the reading of Luke and John (not the people, the Gospels) and all the stuff during QT that nothing is worth more than my relationship with Him, cause it's worth Jesus' death on the cross for me, and His unconditional love. Apart from that, I still don't know where to go for uni, still praying for direction. Also found out a lot more things about myself and about other things. Though we didn't do much this time, apart from teaching the kids English in the mornings with I thoroughly enjoyed, and the baking with Aunty Gin and Lisa, I really cherish the time spent with the kids. And also talked a little more to Aunty Dara. Thank God so much for them, and for their love for all these kids, and for being so hospitable. I wish I could do more. Anyhows, after alumni I'm giving up dancing for good. I'm still thinking about whether I'm going to do alumni. Slowly giving up dancing. Just gave up one dance, but I really didn't feel comfortable on that one. As much as I like it, if I don't see how it can glorify God given the nature of it, I don't think I wanta continue then. I shall stick to bowling, which I haven't really had the chance to pursue, but it's far more fulfilling for me. Now I need to start on my local uni apps. Thursday, March 8, 2007, 10:41 p.m. You know what, I don't understand why you have to keep telling dad all these stuff. Do you think it'll make hinm want to come back to church. Not that you should lie to him, but can't you at least be more discerning about such things. So much for wanting to bring him back to church. Sometimes I really just don't understand. Thursday, March 8, 2007, 10:35 p.m. Don't talk to meeeeeeee. Grrrrrrrrrr Tuesday, March 6, 2007, 08:22 p.m. I'm being a fatty now, positively sure that my period's coming. Where art thou period? I want it to come before I leave for Chiangmai !! :( Tuesday, March 6, 2007, 02:19 p.m. Thank God so much for safety, and for good friends to have lunch with. I think we really should pray for the people over at Indonesia, especially in Southern Sumatra. They got hit twice in a matter of hours, and we could even feel the tremors in the office. And Indonesia got hit thrice today already. And we're right smack in the middle of CBD. We really have so much to be thankful for. I wonder how the people there feel. Saturday, March 3, 2007, 10:46 p.m. Heart of my heart We sang these two lines today during YF, and it was then I realised how the simple words actally mean so much when put in this order. Power of my power speaks of complete reliance and dependence on God, and how it is only through God's strength and providence that we can achieve anything at all. And in the past few months, especially in the past few weeks, I've seen so clearly God's presence and His hands in different events in my life. And to have Him provide for me after just committing everything to Him is :D:D Blessed And then there's Heart of my heart, which simply means that God is the heart, the center of our hearts (: And this is my prayer, that He'll teach me more about Himself, and that as I grow, I'll reach that level of intimacy with Him, so much so that He's the center of my heart. Goodday ya all (: Have a blessed weekend. God will provide(: Just trust in Him to. Choices choices. Thursday, March 1, 2007, 09:32 a.m. Took a shower in the rain today, couldn't be bothered to go downstairs. But it was quite cool cause it looked misty, like on a mountain top. Hoho time's passing so quickly. Just yesterday I was there and I'm going back again. But it's really so easy to love these kids, and to integrate into their lifestyle. I think the lure of the countryside is greater than the city. I feel like some instant noodles and Tossz salad (: (: Birthday CAND >) I pray that God will continue to bless and keep you (: And I thank God for you, my sister-in-Christ. DOOD ! Haha Your word is my comfort, Lord (: Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 09:16 a.m. This morning's QT was from Luke, on how if God feeds the sparrow, what more us who are better than the fowls. And it was only after I read the entire passage that I realised how I should stop trying to run away from the fact that results are coming out, cause they're going to come out anyway. And that I shouldn't try not to think about it, but instead think about it, and commit whatever is to come to Him (: And I know that even if I don't do well, that it's all part of God's plan for me, and that I'll learn much more than if I do well. So (: Thank God for that reassurance, that I'm safely in His hands (: And that He will provide abundantly for me. Maybe not by the standards of the world, but in heavenly things (: Luke 12:30,31 30 For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. 31 But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Have a blessed & a fruitful day everyone (: Monday, February 26, 2007, 09:39 a.m. I should have been dead Showing on discovery channel Saturday, February 24, 2007, 01:27 a.m. A very nice man sheltered me from the rain today. And it was really a pleasant surprise (: Thank God for little & simple blessings such as these. Back to school day. I'm hungry and headachey and I think I'm falling ill. Which isn't such a bad idea actually, I like having the flu and how your voice sounds when it changes. Haha cheap thrills. Goodnight world. Wednesday, February 21, 2007, 09:38 a.m. SLEEPY ! This is our ongoing conversation on what to get for Dee. Haha, Blessed Birthday Dee ! May the Lord continue to keep you, and to open your eyes to His plans for you (: Take heart & be strong ! Clare LL Leong/... we get her something Clare LL Leong/... like to hang her hp Clare LL Leong/... or something Kristine HL Koh/... YESSSSSSSSSSSS Kristine HL Koh/... Can we please Kristine HL Koh/... Haha and something retarded that she'll laugh about Clare LL Leong/... ok Clare LL Leong/... but i dunnoe where to get Kristine HL Koh/... Get which one ? The handphone thing ? Clare LL Leong/... yeah Clare LL Leong/... how Kristine HL Koh/... I think it's quite easy to find lah that one Clare LL Leong/... ok u find ! Kristine HL Koh/... Okay can ! Kristine HL Koh/... You want the wearable kind or the retarded kind Clare LL Leong/... retarded Kristine HL Koh/... Then what if she doesnt use Kristine HL Koh/... Then she;ll continue losing her phone Clare LL Leong/... she'll use it trust me Clare LL Leong/... its DEE Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA Clare LL Leong/... maybe we shld get her a sling waterbottle Kristine HL Koh/... She's retarded but not that retarded lah Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA Kristine HL Koh/... Whatever for Clare LL Leong/... she can put her handphone inside or something Clare LL Leong/... hahaha Kristine HL Koh/... Let's just get her a sling set Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA I'm sure arh Clare Kristine HL Koh/... Handphone capsule arh Kristine HL Koh/... Haha Clare LL Leong/... yeah cool what Kristine HL Koh/... Haha let's give her different options Kristine HL Koh/... Like one for every day of the week Clare LL Leong/... ..... Clare LL Leong/... like 7 different water bottles? Kristine HL Koh/... NO LAH Kristine HL Koh/... Haha as in seven different things to carry her phone in Alright, back to reading slides on insolvencies -.- Slumber here I come. My eyes can hardly opennnnnnnnnnn Monday, February 19, 2007, 08:55 p.m. I'm absolutely stressed about school day and my brain juices have run dry. Give me inspiration O Lord! I think we're having a meeting tomorrow but I don't know where and what we're going to do. And I need to finish this uppppppppppppppppp :((((((((((((((((((((( Goodbye world. Saturday, February 17, 2007, 04:52 p.m. Been planning for school day, and in the process, it's been reflection and thinking about what God has taught me through school. So many things, so many experiences, and most of all the falls. But in a way I'm thankful that it happened this way and not any other way, for I have learnt that only when my confidence comes from God can I lead my life focussed on Him. I still do struggle with having self-confidence, but I now know that I live to please God and not man. But I guess sometimes it's disheartening to know that the very people whom you'd think would encourage you in this process of turning away from a life of sin are weary of you. At least I know now I live for God, and I've learnt to live with what people say of me. Man faileth but God shall never fail. "He will not suffer thy foot to be moved; he that keepeth thee shall not slumber" says Psalm 121:3. Nonetheless, thanks Cand for loving me as a sister in Christ. No lesbo love please. HAHA, I read your blog. And for not being prejudiced despite how I used to be like, and you would completely know cause we were in the same school. Haha, I really thank God for placing you in my life dood. And LiyLiy in the valley !! Congrats on passing your basic theory ! Hoho, I still haven't signed up for mine, must drive me around kay :D Haha, kiddings. Lunch one of these day kay (: So back to planning. Take a look at this : 2 Timothy 2 1Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also. 3Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. 5And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully. 6The husbandman that laboureth must be first partaker of the fruits. 7Consider what I say; and the Lord give thee understanding in all things. 8Remember that Jesus Christ of the seed of David was raised from the dead according to my gospel: 9Wherein I suffer trouble, as an evil doer, even unto bonds; but the word of God is not bound. 10Therefore I endure all things for the elect's sakes, that they may also obtain the salvation which is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory. 11It is a faithful saying: For if we be dead with him, we shall also live with him: 12If we suffer, we shall also reign with him: if we deny him, he also will deny us: 13If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself. 14Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting of the hearers. 15Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness. 17And their word will eat as doth a canker: of whom is Hymenaeus and Philetus; 18Who concerning the truth have erred, saying that the resurrection is past already; and overthrow the faith of some. 19Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. 20But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and of silver, but also of wood and of earth; and some to honour, and some to dishonour. 21If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work. 22Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes. 24And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient, 25In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth; 26And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 04:33 p.m. You know what, I really don't like working like that. I can't stop thinking about that glass of wine I drank, and I really feel terrible about it. Sorry, I just need to get it out. Back to postal codes. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 03:46 p.m. Guess what, people puking now. Talk about being in the world but not of the world. Grrrr, and f words flying everywhere like it's free. Back to postal codes, the net is up again. Talk about the worst lunch of my life. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 03:35 p.m. Looks like department lunch wasn't such a good idea after all. Everyone's dead drunk, and I got forced to drink a glass of wine before I asked for coke. I respect your kind of "fun", but I need you to respect my decisions as well. I don't know, I really feel very offended, and I think that as much as you want to have fun, you really should still draw the line and start respecting people's decisions. So much for the corporate world today, back to postal codes. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 11:16 a.m. Hoho, just heard someone's alarm ring. And it's the exact same one that I heard every morning in Chiangmai. Haha, cause it's the one Christl uses. Doing admin work now, at least I have something to do :D And I'm not that sleepy cause the ice horlicks from the vending machine is :D:D:D Okay back to work ! Department lunch laters (: Sunday, February 11, 2007, 09:01 p.m. Heehee, I'm watching PCK now. Man, I can't believe it's the last season already :( Oh wells. Had a giant fondue today, which wasn't too bad. But the chocolate got abit jelat after awhile. Haha, new word from Liy. Anyways CAND & LIY ! I can't wait to meet you guys ! LiyLiy in the valley ! I gotta meet you for work lunch one of these days okay ! Hoho, starting work tmr actually. Vernon thinks I'm going to disappear from the face of this earth for a week :/ But please pray that I won't be lazy, and that I'll be a good testimony for God in the workplace. HAHA, FRANKIE FOO JUST CAME OUT ! I think I outta reflect more on my day, and what God wants me to see. I think Chiangmai has opened my eyes to more that I thought I saw. He has shown me what He wants me to believe about predestination. For all that struggling that I went through last year, it just took some listening to Him. And I believe it's not coincidence that I could get along with the kids. It's really been a blessing living with these kids (: And He has shown me the abundance of His blessings (: Psalm 68:19 says Blessed be the Lord: who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Alrights, unsuccessful attempt to quote. Haha, I tried to memorise that just now. But yeah, I think that's life, and that's what each of us have to ask God to open our eyes to see, for He has blessed us with soooo much (: Alrightys, that's it for today. More reflections soon (: Praise be to our God and King (: OH YEAH, I forgot to mention something. Haha, this morning when I woke up, the song "I don't know about tomorrow" came to my mind while I was preparing to go to church. And so I was singing it while in the toilet and everything. And then, we sang it during service. And just yesterday my mum was talking to me about my results. And I keep saying "and" but I believe it's God's way of telling me that I should not worry for He will provide. Whether or not it's good by society's standards, God has a way for me, and I just have to trust in Him, and whatever the results be, be contented (: Haha, as I was telling my YD, one week would be enough for me (: Sooooo, yeah. But I think I'll still be affected nonetheless. So so, that's about it for results. I told Cand to only tell me the day before when the results are coming out if she knows. Haha so I won't think about it. Hoho, so don't tell me also okay ! May each of us lead lives that are a living sacrifice to Christ (: PCK has been around for TEN years yo. So long ! God's blessings huh (: So says Gurmit Singh. Goodnight (: Saturday, February 10, 2007, 10:26 p.m. Our God is with us now I think that pretty much sums up my Chiangmai trip. It really is so encouraging how God features in every aspect of their lives. And I think that feeling of me not making it back ? It really scared me a bit. Esp after that crazy car ride in Vernon's to fetch Kenji & Sebby. And the squeaky budget planes. And then on the trip, I learnt to say a prayer before and after every journey, every LORRY ride. And that feeling, I just forgot on the trip (: And I must really say that God has taught me not to take the simplest things for granted, and to seek Him in every aspect of my life. And through all this we really feel God's presence with us (: Thank God that my brother's injury was not as bad as the doctor thought it was. It looked really bad though, and I just felt homesick, esp after my mum told me about his injury while I was still in Chiangmai. But God has a reason for everything, and I pray that he will trust in God's sovereignity in all matters, no matter how hard it is (: So now it's back to work, all the planning and the proposals :/ I believe I'm more panicky now than for my exams which I have been constantly reminded about :/ Grrr, hope results come out after CNY, and in the meantime I shall just commit everything to God (: I think He says not to think too much , you have been a blessing in my life. Be it the bitching and backstabbing, or the love,rebuke and care that you've given to me, you've all been part of God's plan for me, and I'm thankful and truly blessed for all that. So I'll see you when I do, and much love to all of you, including the family, cause you are part of who I am (: , Really nothing beats the joy of having Christian friends whom you know truely care and love you in a very special and different way. Not to discriminate of course. Oh and they just cut the bushes by the tennis court. Sorry I just walked past them. Haha, anyways, God's work has truly been amazing, esp in the youth ministry. I never knew the origins of YD and YW, but now I know how much God has brought it up from that small effort that wasn't even sure it could last. So anyway I'm leaving on a jet plane tmr morning to Chiangmai, and I'm going to spend ten days there. Please pray for safety and guidance for the team, for all of us are first timers and don't quite know what to expect. Nevertheless, I pray that God will prepare us for whatever is to come. I have a very strange feeling that I won't make it back, and I guess it's pretty much possible since we know not what the future holds. But isn't it great to know the one who holds the future? Haha, if I really not come back, please know that each and everyone of Friday, January 12, 2007, 10:36 p.m. Just one last random note, heehee, I think we can't eat meat after new heaven & new earth know. But that I'm not sure :D I shall check it out yo Friday, January 12, 2007, 10:24 p.m. Yay (: I've submitted my UCAS and that's the last of my uni apps. Hoho :D Okayokay I know I said I was going to do it ten thousand years ago. But better late than never right :D Heehee Anyways, it's another rainy rainy day. Been raining non-stop since yesterday which really is pretty crazy. And they said it'll continue raining till 3AM tmr so we shall see. Anyways I think I'll be awake finishing my proposals and trying to sleep cause my bio clock is really quite wonky. I sleep on the average at 4AM every day/morning/night whichever you wanta call it. Welllll yesterday was another day of confrontation. Not with anyone else, but just me, myself and pristine Kristine. Haha I think only Cand will get this. But yeah, God really wants me to move on, He's been popping messages every now and then but it's been getting really frequent. From the phonecall before prelims which left me shivering, to the Read Pray and Grow (what I use for QT) being missing in action, and pointing me to Psalm 119 which is the longest chapter in the Bible if I'm not wrong, but also the most applicable, to me at least, and though it the shouting out at me. And now forgiveness, and love, and assurance. Sometimes I think I doubt myself too much, and more often than not, I let Satan undermine God's amazing grace, wonderful forgiveness and unconditional love. How could I ever ?! Thank you Lord, for showing me that you know, and that you understand, and that you've placed someone in my life who has a semblance of what I struggle with. And to that irritating someone: where's the blog lahh ! Haha, okay, off to do my proposals ! It doesn't look very professional, but heehee I don't know how it's supposed to look like. Sorry Wanjun ! I try my best :D Shopping for office clothes with Momma soon :D Hurhur Wednesday, January 10, 2007, 10:42 p.m. Had a good lunch/after lunch with Berts today just talking about life, mainly about God, and drank ALOT of chinese tea which was really really surprisingly good. Haha, but I had to shit after all of that tea drinking. Dood I'm going to miss talking to you and sharing about God and seeing all the amazing things that He does in our lives. And sometimes, it's when we talk about it that we start to realise God's hand in things. And it's really a :D:D feeling, that blessed feeling of assurance and peace. I thank God for you my friend ! Haha, and met Ann, or rather she came to look for me to get notes which was nice cause nothing has changed about her (: And she's one of my favourite juniors. Haha, too bad we couldn't make it to school in time for CCA feste. Hmmm, and I saw Cand's I-think-he's-cute-when-I'm-having-my-period guy for the third time. Haha Okay I'm off to find entertainment. Goodday people ! Wednesday, January 10, 2007, 09:31 p.m. The journey into Lydia's mind begins here, or should I say Lyddai. Haha London. says: YOU KNOW in japan London. says: when i didnt know you London. says: i called you heely London. says: HAHAHAHAH. Krist; says: Cause I wore heels Krist; says: Haha what a random name lah London. says: hahah cause i didnt know your name London. says: i wrote in my dairy London. says: *diary Krist; says: :// Krist; says: Haha so tell me what other names you gave to people Krist; says: Haha did you know that my brother was Bryan Koh from the start ? London. says: no London. says: haha he was the old guy with the little hair London. says: hahahahaha Krist; says: ?! Krist; says: Haha why is he old ? London. says: HAHA he looked old what! London. says: no cause that time when my mom talked to your mom i overheard London. says: something about j2 London. says: yeap so i thought he was. Krist; says: Oh you thought he was older than me arh Krist; says: Haha London. says: yeah haha heely was suppose to be sixteen London. says: hahahaha. London. says: max was called BALLY you know Krist; says: Haha good good, that means I still look young ! Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: What about my sister London. says: hahaha i didnt know her London. says: and she didnt talk much London. says: so i gave a her random name London. says: heely little London. says: hahahahaha London. says: your sister what! Krist; says: Eh ? Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: What about shaun London. says: hahaha stuart little lookalike London. says: hahahahahaha Krist; says: HAHA !!! London. says: really! Krist; says: He's really super cute right !!!! Krist; says: Hahahaha Krist; says: How about Eileen London. says: LOL i was like writing about what i thought of you guys everynight London. says: haha London. says: oh she was the tatoo lady London. says: donn was the weirdo guy Krist; says: HAHAHA Krist; says: Why weirdo guy ! London. says: cause he looked young London. says: but talked in an old way London. says: so i didnt know what he was London. says: hahaha Krist; says: HAHAHAHAHAHA London. says: jeremy was THE TOOT London. says: and tania was the DAO Krist; says: Tania ? Krist; says: Haha Tammy ? London. says: haha small ball London. says: hahahahaha London. says: so when i didnt know your names London. says: and i obsevred the ppl on my tour London. says: so you guys ended up with nicknames London. says: hahaha Krist; says: Haha what about the other small boy Krist; says: Haha London. says: the small one? London. says: the one with the nontalkalot parents? London. says: i didnt name him London. says: haha London. says: he was London. says: THAT ONE. Krist; says: Yeahh London. says: hahah i wrote alot of funny stuff about you people you know London. says: wheni read it London. says: i laugh London. says: hahahahaha Krist; says: Haha tell me tell me London. says: hahaha okay what would you like to know London. says: haha London. says: OH i wrote about how i thought that ice would break if max ice skated on it Krist; says: Ehhh about my brother Krist; says: Haha so bad London. says: haha what i wrote about your brother? London. says: OH RIGHT. London. says: you know the snowmobiling oart? London. says: *part Krist; says: Uh huh London. says: and then you and your mom and jean told me that bryan was 14 and could ride London. says: then i didnt believe you guys London. says: so i wrote London. says: HAHA THEY ARE TRYING TO CONSOLE ME. Krist; says: HAHA London. says: as if i'll belive the old guy with little hair is 14 London. says: i'm a loser if i believed them London. says: hahaha London. says: everyone's lying to me! London. says: injustice London. says: hahahaha Krist; says: And now youre a loser cause you have to believe us ! London. says: i realised London. says: yeah then after i found out he WAS 14 Krist; says: Haha it's okay London. says: i wrote again London. says: OH MY SHIT. i just realised that the old guy is really 14 Krist; says: Hahaha London. says: how come he looks so old!?! London. says: and then i wrote London. says: this is so weird Krist; says: SO RETARDED ! London. says: his sister looks so young London. says: and he looks so old London. says: i think they should swap ages Krist; says: I really wouldnt mind actually Krist; says: Haha London. says: hahaha then i wrote about how you people looked quite dao on the first day London. says: OH i also wrote howi thought your brother was a gay London. says: hahaha Krist; says: WHY ?! London. says: cause he carried a red crumpler London. says: so i wrote London. says: OMG ZANG! this guy is gay! London. says: must be some retarded gay jc London. says: where got guys carry red crumplers! London. says: GAY. tsk tsk. Krist; says: Dood that's my bad by the way Krist; says: *bag London. says: haha i know London. says: but he carried it what London. says: so i wrote down GAY. London. says: haha and i wrote about how he looks like a reindeer, London. says: hahaha Krist; says: Excuse me ! Why does my brother look like a reindeer ?! Krist; says: Hahaha London. says: he did what! London. says: when he was dying on that night? London. says: haha he did okay! Krist; says: Huh ? So sick people look like reindeers ?! And that's all I'm willing to post cause it's far too long and we're still talking. Haha, Lyddai is this girl I met on my Japan tour. And Shaun is this really cute boy who's ten turning eleven this year and he speaks like and adult, and does really kuku things. Like once we were having buffet, he kiaped the food he wanted with the tongs, walked to his table, plonked it on his plate and walked back to return the tongs. Haha oh my gosh, and when he laughs, he really cracks me up. Haha, and then one night I was walking with my mum, his parents and him to the minimart outside, we walked past this car and he went "WHOA ! What is this ! Lambourghini arh !" Haha, and many many other incidents. Unfortunately I didn't have to courage to ask him to take a photo with me for fear that he might think I'm some weirdo. Hoho Sunday, January 7, 2007, 07:16 p.m. Alrighteos, I'm going to finish up and submit my UCAS today. I don't care, been procrastinating for far too long. Message today was interesting, on the Apostles' Creed. At least we're doing something a little different, and I really hope that in the weeks to come that we'll do an in depth study, and really study God's word as a church and grow ! It's really about time huh. YD was such a refreshing change from one year in Cat Class. And it's like how the song goes "We're together again, just praising the Lord" that kinda feeling (: And I thank God for that, and for seeing us through these seven years. Haha, can you believe we've been together for SEVEN YEARS already ! And we're going to hit TWENTY next year ! Mymy, so old already. It's time to feed on some solid food (: YF was really good ytd, I'm glad I decided to go, and I think it's about time I started going regularly again cause I haven't since who knows when. And I never really pushed my mum for it cause I kinda got used to it after so many years, and that's BAD. But it was a good time fellowshipping, reviewing our goals and our theme for this year. And 'twas all good (: Praise God for that ! And talking to ever-crazy Mersa, the all-time big bully Vernon Quek (haha, I'm counting on you to read this again), and watching you two play with magnets, Justin and Edric (Aiyoh growing up so fast !), listening to the coldplay-sum41 mix which was really good ! And talking to Nicolette and not forgetting Maine (: It was good though we didn't talk much, it's like what your beloved Mr Ngiam would call a comfortable silence. Haha, I miss that little bubble feeling, being in the world yet not of the world, and for that little while, being apart from the world. Heehee, okay, gotta go do my UCAS, meeting up with the lovely classmates tmr whom I dearly miss, gotta register for driving cause I think I'm the only idiot who still hasn't, and study for those sickening SATs (so longgggg), and check out some logistics stuff for the charity concert. So long friends ! I'll be back ! Hurhur Thursday, January 4, 2007, 06:07 p.m. I love lotus soup boiled with pork and peanuts on a cold, rainy day. Off to Genesis class at FEBC :D Heehee Thursday, January 4, 2007, 03:30 p.m. I think all things to God. As I walked home from gardens ( Yes I did cause bus fares are not cheap now okay ! No more student fare :( ) I heard this woman exclaiming this in her garden. Haha, the simple joys of life (: Only if we stop to count our blessings everyday. Had a good talk with Sam today about church and God and everything. Which was good (: And felt at home. If only I could do that everyday, and live in my world with friends who could do that everyday. Haha, but that would be really selfish won't it. And I had a good talk with my mum last night (: 3hours straight man. She's opening up to the idea of me considering church work in future, but she still thinks it's a waste. I told her that if I worked in the corporate world after uni, I won't do so for long cause that's not what I want in life. We'll see how God's plans unfold (: Goodday people, I miss you all at school. Tuesday, January 2, 2007, 04:40 a.m. I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don’t bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok But that’s not what gets me What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I’m doin’ It It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do Not seeing that loving you That’s what I was trying to do Rascal Flatts What Hurts Most Wanjun ! This is the song that I was talking about. I think it sounds good for contemporary :D Heehee, goodnight & see you Saturday ! Tuesday, January 2, 2007, 04:21 a.m. Hoho ! I feel liberated :D:D Okay I still have UCAS to do but that's like ONE lonely essay. How can it compare man. Haha I don't even recall being this hardworking for school. Blessed new year everyone (: I'm going to miss school so so much when school starts for everyone else but the miserable 88ers. Oh wells ! I'm taking night classes at FEBC starting thursday :D I'm quite excited cause we're doing Genesis and that's my favourite book of the Bible :D Haha, and then I have a whole list of people to meet up with, and things to do. At least now my mum can't bug me to do uni apps anymore. HOHO, that's a big relief ! Haha I didn't dare talk to her for who knows how long cause I knew uni apps would somehow come up in the conversation. Okay Cand knows how long. Haha Okay I'm going to catch up on my deprivation of sleep. My sleeping hours are crazy now. I need to go back to 11pm yo ! Goodnight everyone. Much love from a very relieved girl (: AND LIY THANK GOD YOU'RE BACK SAFELY. CAN WE PLEASE PLEASE VISIT YOU :D I wanta soak in that festive fever. Haha, what am I talking. AND RYAN LAU, can you tell me when you'll be home please before your stuff rots or somehow enters my tummy. Haha Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 11:58 p.m. As the year draws to a close, I can't help but hold on so tightly to the memories of the past two AMAZING years. Somehow it's really hard to let go and move on. Cause I really cherish everyday of JC life, every memory, every fall, every laugh, every lame joke, every sleep, every training, every practice, everything basically. It just ended too quickly altogether. But at least it ended well huh (: And I'm glad to have made friends, friends that I wanta forever keep in my heart, and keep in touch with. Haha forever really cause God has really blessed me with so many Christian friends (: I'll see you in heaven yo ! Thanks for accepting me as who I am, for seeing me now and not in the past. Esp Cand, thanks for still loving me ! And for being a real trustworthy friend. And for Liy, hoho thanks for laughing at my not-funny-at-all-that's-why-it's-funny jokes. Haha and for being lame with me, and for crying and laughing with me yo. Really, I can never finish what I have to say. To each and everyone of you, you all have really been a blessing in my life (: Even that momentary smile when we bump into each other in school, really made me feel like I was home. I thank God for each and everyone of you really. I pray that we'll continue challenging each other in our faith, and encouraging each other in our walks with our Almighty God (: And I pray that we'll all grow spriritually, physically, and mentally together (: Onward Christian soldiers yo ! Haha Nonetheless there are regrets, or rather one big regret. But well I guess I can't do much about it at this point, and without your willingness. I was really hurt by your insincerity, but oh wells. Priorities change huh ! That's life for you. But no matter what, know that I'll still be here for you, as a friend, as that friend since the day we knew each other, only better and not taking you for granted. Take care yeah (: And you, I don't know where our friendship is going to go, but but I'm glad it's all still good. Cand I'll tell you in due time ! Haha when I'm sure. Right now, it's just uni apps and me, and not forgetting my beloved girlfriends. DEE we're coming soon !! Haha, and LIY GET YOUR BUTT BACK IN SINGAPORE DOOD ! I signed up for SATs already, haha ACJC :D And this time I really AM going to study. Haha, confirm chop stamp. And I hope that in this new year, God will use me in His Mighty ways (: And that I'll persevere in my walk with Him. Keep me in check okay soldiers. Haha and to the many who are going into army, all the best ! Don't chaokeng, go through it so at least you can say that you've endured, and let God work in you, and strengthen you for both the physical, spiritual and mental battles ahead ! Haha, grown men already eh. Hard to believe =p Haha kidding Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 10:15 p.m. Krist; says: Who stole the cookie from the cookie jar donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: ahhahahaa donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: cookie pot u dork Krist; says: Huh really meh ? donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: ya la! donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: u goon Krist; says: I always thought it was cookie jar ! Krist; says: WHAT Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: There's no such thing as a cookie pot can Awhile later, donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: dun be a pok lar Krist; says: It is !!! donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: it is cookie pot donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: try harder Krist; says: You go search "who stole the cookie from the" Krist; says: it's all jar lah Krist; says: HOHOHO Krist; says: WHOPPER PLEASE donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: stupeed. Krist; says: Haha what you arh donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: fine it is jar is pot watever from today it is cookie pok Krist; says: HAHA Krist; says: Okay Krist; says: But you still owe me a whopper donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: since we both won donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: u owe me whopper donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: and i owe u naan Seriously it's cookie jar lah ! 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Haha why am I not surprised. Anita you cheat my feelings lah ! Haha, you're still a girl ! 100% somemore. Blessed Christmas everyone (: Christmas this year was special with everyone, or at least most, FINALLY back for good (: Tuesday, December 12, 2006, 01:30 a.m. I really wanted to talk to you before I leave for Japan but haha oh wells, I think I'd better not (: Oh wells I'm super tired now, had 3hours of sleep last night doing the essays. My oh my -.- Haha, anyways my caree busted his ankle ! And I can't be there to care for him. Haha, but Edrics is going to help me. Heehee, and sorry I can't be a spy ! Wish I could stay longer for camp yo. Oh wells, off to my essays. Sleepy sleepy. See you all when I'm back from Japan (: Meeting Just at the airport and Wanjun in Japan. Heehee I can't wait ! I just heard about Cat's cool holiday ! Byebye ! Saturday, December 9, 2006, 04:53 p.m. PROM PHOTOS (: I will miss you all. Really. Actually I don't want to miss all you guys cause we must keep in touch yeah ! Thursday, December 7, 2006, 12:22 p.m. Man, it's really really over. Grad was good (: It's really heartwrenching that it had to end to quickly, but was telling Angie that at least it was a good two years (: I've made so many friends that I really wanta and am going to keep for life. People like Cand and Liy whom I've had some really crazy and retarded times with and yet we've been through the rough times and all those pms-y days (: I love you both loads. Like really really. And don't laugh at me for saying that lah ! Haha I really mean it okay ! And there are the bowlers, you crazy bunch of people. I'm so glad that I picked up bowling, and got to play for the school (: I will never forget all those smelly training sessions ! Haha Deedee especially ! Whoa, really the smelliest. Haha followed by Miss Samantha Png. And I'll never forget all the monkeys we had to do, esp when we got to see the J1 guys do it cause it was simply hilarious. And the nicknaming by Uncle Yong, and food/going out conversations with Uncle Jansen though he got annoying sometimes, and our very favourite UNCLE EUGENE ! Haha, and that crazy mini-dance thing he taught Sam and I. Haha and the dancers !! Haha thanks for tolerating my lousy attendance and crazy schedules :D And thanks for all the fun we've had though it was really quite stressful sometimes ! Haha, I'm glad I got to know you Wanjun, Angie, Huang Jing, Cheryl, Alicia, Yong Neng, Leslie, Nigel, Kohzy (Abit outdated) Haha but yeah. It's been good, it's been all good (: And not forgetting the lovely classmates ! Haha, I've had good memories with each and everyone of you. I really thank God that I got to change class (: And that I didnt get the choice of my class cause I ended up with an even better class ! Haha, not that the other class is lousy but I really appreciate everyone in 1D (: I've met people in my class that I'm going to still be meeting up with 10 20 years from now hopefully (: And all the people I study with and all those random people whom I can't really categorise. Thanks for making the RJ experience a great one for me. Sorry Im always getting bored and walking around and annoying people. Haha, but thanks so much for everything (: And thanks to all my teachers (: Haha, I may not be the best student but I really appreciate all that you've done for us. And thank you Miss Ngin ! For being ever so patient even though we let you down so many times. And to Miss Veera for all your crazy lectures and tutorials and consultations ! Haha, you rock Miss V ! Haha (: I LOVE YOU ALL REALLY (: Prom photos will be up soon (: Heehee, sigh such a feeling of loss and completion mixed together. So much to thank God for and so much to hold onto. Thank you all of you. I'm going to miss all of you. And I really appreciate each and everyone of you. If you're reading this ! Haha, please leave your email address and mailing address in my guestbook okay ! (: See you all around and please keep in touch ! With much love, Krist Sunday, December 3, 2006, 11:21 p.m. It was so... hard seeing you ytd. I don't know, I really am not used to this. And I feel like my heart gets all wrenched up when I think of the extent to which our friendship has degraded to. I really want to end this year well, and have some sort of closure. Okay I think it's just me again. Ah wells, post As has been fine (: Getting pretty boring though. And I think I'm reading too much into things. I don't know. Ahhhh Can't wait for bowling chalet anyways (: Haha we're finally having a chalet ! See lah lousy eddyho ! Never organise last year! Okay I'm sorry I'm typing in random spurts but I'm being pretty incoherent right now. All the best to Cherie "Cherry" Tan ! Hey climb all the way up that ladder okay ! I know you are well capable of it (: Just do the best you can yeah (: And I'll bring you to eat the chicken glutinous rice and we shall go on a food hunt after you get back from Doha ! And all the best for the rest of your races Lynette ! Haha, just remember to do your best for God and Singapore (: And be thankful for the amazing opportunity which only so few will have in their lives (: Friday, December 1, 2006, 07:43 p.m. 1. I thank God that I didn't wake up too late 2. I thank God that I realised that I was late 3. I thank God that the admin probs were solved 4. I thank God that I was able to take my test (: 5. I thank God that though I was late the people at pearson let me take the test 6. I thank God that I got there safely 7. I thank God for that taxi driver who was nice enough to return the lady her stuff 8. I thank God that I was able to get a cab and that the driver knew the place where I needed to go 9. I thank God that He has taught me how irresponsible and lazy I really am and I pray that I'll change 10. I thank God for letting me experience the little joys of life in seeing all the little children around (: Sunday, October 29, 2006, 09:32 p.m. Hey all (: Haha it's three days to the real big thing. Hope everyone's doing fine out there (: Thanks Cand for the yummy cake and dinner ! And Steve and Bran for the thing I don't know what it's called. Haha, and thanks for coming over you guys ! Haha, I was really surprised :D And thanks Liy for being such a great friend these two years ! I hope today went fine :D And thanks for calling ! And thank you Dee for coming out for dinner (: I really really appreciate it! And thanks to the rest of you who remembered :D Haha I was seriously pleasantly surprised cos I thought everyone would be so busy studying that they'd forget (: Thank you Clare, Zhizhong, Rach, Charmaine, Lois, Yaozhi, Poks, Jing, Just, Ajit, Cat, Wanjun, Eddy, Cherie, Ruth, Ying Quan, Tom, Bryan Lee, Yanqiang, Haan Hui, Shuming, Stacy, Anita, Pek, Andrew, Alvin, Alethia, Ryan Ho, Deedee, Bong, Weijie, Jem, Ziteng, Piglet, Roland, Weixian, Chenghui, Max, Debbo, Julianne, Bimbo, Boon, Bhavan, Kenny, Kenji, Michelle, Reuben, Nicklaus, Nat Ngoi, Val, David, Angie, Gao, Ann Tay the teddystar1, Junwee, Jason, Joel, KK, Siqi, Chris, Ping, Bert, Ivy, Sarah, Abel Tan, Mel Wong, Nemo, Tracie, Xavier, Travis, Tina, Jill Ng, Kwanie, Ding, Jon Ng, Desmond, Joshua Yee, Lynette, Vernon and lousy Samuel Tan! (: Haha, thanks for being a part of my life, somehow in these past 18 years and more to come (: You've really touched my life in one way or another, and been there for me some way or another (: So really, thanks (: I really thank God for all the blessing these past 18 years. So undeserved but yet He has given so richly. And I think it's time I give something back to Him (: Just a side note, haha, I bought Archie comics and pretty paper ! Haha, pretty's just so not my word but they're really pretty (: And not pricey at all ! Ooookies, back to work (: OHOH ! And before I forget ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIQI, MEL and JAIME who share the same birthday as me (: Wednesday, August 30, 2006, 07:39 p.m. Oh my I'm so bored. It really doesn't feel like the prelims are here already :( Yes they're here. I'm going back to my old addiction of freecell (: Goodbye , Oh dood, the sneeze which has been wanting to come out since I was in the library finally came out. Studying has adverse effects -.- This has been such a weird week. Goodnight (: I thank God for trustworthy friends Sunday, August 27, 2006, 05:49 p.m. Its been ages since I last updated. Haha, not like I've been studying very hard, but I've definitely been trying very hard too and my printer just died on me :/ An update on the weird happenings in my toilet. I think my brother has something to do with it though. There are cockroach parts all over the toilet lah. Okay not all over. There's the leg right outside my shower, and one wing and it's butt in the shower. Weird. Actually maybe it wasn't my brother. Maybe it was some picky bird trying to eat the cockroach and left the lousy parts behind. I wouldn't know. (My shower's open air lah. I don't keep birds in my locker.) Alrights, that was really uncalled for (: That's what studying does to you. But studying in the library can be quite fun. Less pressurising and there are always people around to help (: And it's not very conducive for sleeping so that's really really good for me. Haha, GP paper is tomorrow already. Sure doesn't feel like it. Kristine focus !! School aside, YW (Youth Worship) today was really good. Was a humbling time. At least for me it was. The words really cried out to me today. And I realised how broken I am inside, though I really don't look like I am. I'm falling apart when I'm so far away from God and I really don't like that feeling. I think I'm trying too hard to get back on the right track with QT and all but I left out committing my life and my everything to God. Which really defeats the purpose. I feel renewed now (: Although I feel so helpless and broken, I feel more secure, cause I knw I'm in His hands. Thanks Ding for a great time of worship today. And the message today was about "Living for God" by Robert Peh. He's really really funny in his own way. Haha, cause he's been working with kids and so the way he relates stuff to us is very simple. It's very mountainy. How do I describe it. Haha, but it was a really good message cause although how I've described it portrays it to be something very child-like, he really spoke from his heart and had a great deal of depth. He said to live for God, you must first L.O.V.E God. Which is of course very true. Everything summed up in one word. So using Genesis 39 (the story of Joseph), this is what he said. Background: Joseph was sold to Egypt at a very young age of about 17. He was from a rich family but was sold as a slave by his brothers. Verse 2 says that though we would think that Joseph was alone, he never was. Because the Lord was with Joesph. And he knew that. And Robert was saying how our friends influence how we live our lives a lot. Which is very true cause my mum used to tell me that all the time, and I never believed her, I thought I was better than that until I realised it for myself. And I think being alone with God in a foreign land not only led Joseph closer to God, but also led Him to want to emulate God in his life. And Robert used this container, dropped a stone, tissue and a piece of wood inside. And he asked us which we were. Were we the stone than would sink straightaway in trials, the tissue who would float (struggle) for awhile then eventually sink? Or the piece of wood that no matter how you try to sink it will always float on the water? So living for God comprises of these three things.. Love for God; Can you see God in your life? When everyone left Joseph, he knew that God didn't and he stayed strong in his love for God (: Obedience to God: Joseph was a goodly person (v.6) He did his best and was a faithful and responsible person. Though Mrs Potiphar (in Robert's words), his master's wife, tried to tempt time and again, he always rejected her. He knew that God is above him and was with him and he chose to do what pleases God even though no one was looking (He was alone in the house with her) And verse 10 shows that it wasn't just a one-off choice to please God, but everytime she tried to tempt him, he stayed obedient to God and never strayed or to be with her (be around her). And when she grabbed him one day and asked him to sleep with her again, he just ran ! Robert says, "God have us two legs, so run !" Haha, yeah (: (cf. 2 Tim 2:22, 3:12) Vunerable to persecution: So while she kept trying to tempt him, he never gave in to temptation. And the day he caught hold of him and he ran away, he left his garment behind. Mrs Potiphar then went to tell everyone that Joseph was trying to come onto her, and she even told her husband (who used to really trust Joseph). And Joseph got sent to jail. So when we try to do the right things and be obedient to God, the world may not recognise where we come from, and socially persecute us (cause I dont think we have physical persecution in Singapore, not that I know of lah) Robert says, Joseph run run run until he run into prison. Haha Enduring trials and temptations: Joseph, even after being sold as a slave (It must have been really tough on him), still stayed above the water. He never forgot that it was God who blessed him in finding favour with his master. He was promoted from being a slave. Before honour is humility. This is the part where we learn to be like the wood. So next time when people say you're a block of wood, take it is a compliment ! (: Haha So that was briefly what the message was about. Whoa, what a long post. Haha, just another thing to share (: I love the poem. And it's really a source of comfort and hope. And something that I'm going to stick to. Hope it speaks to you too. Cause the amazing thing about it was that it came true, and God really provided. A timely reminder Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, To have a deep soul relationship with another, To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively. But God, to a Christian says, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, With having an intensely personal relationship with Me alone, Discovering that only in Me Is your satisfaction to be found, Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship That I have planned for you. You will never be able to unite with another Until you are united with Me, Exclusive of anyone or anything else, Exclusive of any desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, One that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the very best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, Expecting the greatest things, Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM, Keep listening and learning the things I tell you, You just wait, that's all. Don't worry. Don't be anxious. Don't look around at the things others have gotten Or that I've gotten them. Don't look at the things you think you want You just keep looking to Me, Or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love Far more wonderful than any you would dream of. You see, until you are ready, And until the one I have for you is ready, (I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time) Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me, And the life I prepared for you, You won't be able to experience the love that Exemplifies your relationship with Me, And thus is the perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me; And to enjoy materially and concretely, The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love. Know I love you utterly, I am God. Believe it and be satisfied." All the best for prelims everyone (: And for promos for the J1s ! Haha, how I miss being J1 (: Alrights (: That's it for now (: God bless ! , Have you ever felt so alone at night, so helpless. Not able to fall asleep, can't stop crying over something people would think is small but means so much to you. Not knowing what to do next. Wanting to do something about it but yet not wanting to let go? I want to sleep. Tuesday, June 13, 2006, 05:36 p.m. Yo yo, I'm super bored of studying. And I've just spent a whole SIX hours on the computer searching for who knows what when I could have been productive doing my Lovely Economics and Mathematics. Ended up not going to school when I really should have. At least I wouldn't have been stuck on this machine for such a long time. Now I'll never know how to solve my math questions :( And my gum's bleeding. Those braces :/ That aside, I was super productive last week but I guess I have used up all of my studying power already. Now I shall be moderately productive. All this for the A'Levels. Why? Watched So You Think You Can Dance last night. The usual brilliance. I thought the guys hiphop was really good. And Nick especially was :D:D:D I really felt like dancing again. It's been more than a month. Thank goodness there aren't any bowling shows or I wouldn't be here typing this. Not that I'm any good at all. Bought Kaya Buns yesterday :D Reminds me of Camp Comm meetings with Serene and her Kaya Bun craze ! I'm alone at home now with my maid which probably explains why I'm slacking so much cause there's absolutely no one here to nag at me. Wish I was in Hong Kong right now. Ah wells, have to sacrifice something for the A's. Alrights (: I'm going to watch VCDs now. Have to return them tomorrow. And I'm sure I'll be productive tomorrow :D I wish you would try because you wanted to; not because I want you to. I'm not angry, just Disappointed because I thought you would cherish this more. Sunday, May 28, 2006, 05:29 p.m. please please will money drop from the sky :((((((( Saturday, May 27, 2006, 11:47 a.m. yesterday started bad. middle got much better. ended bad. congrats cherie for finally breaking your dreaded masters curse, and to travis for coming in tops in the masters events (: double gold for masters this year (: yay matt's gna help me upload my photos later. i hope my parents dont find out or im so so screwed. mummy i need my money please. Thursday, May 25, 2006, 09:52 p.m. oh yeah oh yeah we won :D:D i really thqank God for bringing us through (: and for blessing us so richly (: well done girls (: and the guys too cause you guys really put up a good fight (: and though i really didnt bowl well at all, i think ive learnt a whole load more (: our girls team <3 rj bowling 2006 <3333333 our challenge trophy (: hey juniors ! must make it stay within our school k ! girls team again (: aei we must take a j2 photo ! i will never forget this ! and many many thanks to cand & liy for coming down :D haha, i forgot to tell you i heard you cheer molerat ! haha, and thanks to all the councillors for coming down and all the supporters. ahhhhhhh. i hope this isnt the last time im bowling. or it'll end far too quickly. Tuesday, May 23, 2006, 10:52 a.m. i just want it all to end well. just once Saturday, May 13, 2006, 10:16 p.m. yes wanjun ! i dont care what anyone says even though i knw i screwed up. haha. after reading your entry i finally understood what made latin different for me :D the thing abt latin was tht it was personal for you, and for me too, i cld feel it (maybe i didnt portray it tht well cause im alwys laughing and stupid teaegg forgot we were supposed to be angry) but i still felt it really. so much of you went into the item, even the whole line up was you and the emotions you were feeling, and maybe still feel. and its so precious cause i feel tht too. so thank you (: and dont cry even though i knw im very touching. haha, KIDDING ! but yeah, i pray tht both of us will get past this, whatever it is for the both of us. at least you have the strength to close tht chapter. i dont. not yet. love you dear (: man, i really hope i do well for nationals this year ! bowled quite okay during training today hope i can keep it up. haha, uncle yong says i shd faint more so i can bowl better. cause im much more relaxed after that ! (i almost fainted during training today) haha. but at least i got exempted from the punishments for missing my spares ! heh :D went for yf today too, in a very long time ! and it feels good seeing all those familiar faces. havent been keeping up with the whole "gospel of judas" controversy so i must say today's bgst meeting wasnt too bad for me. i hope everything'll get better for you twin ! lovelove (: off to bed ! church tmr. and my parents are still outta town. haha, im quite surprised i didnt complain abt my adventures with sbstransit today. oh wells (: patience ! hello matt haha, you were not a noobcake at all ! esp during hiphop ! aei, i screwed up the solo :( haha, but we were good together :D cheer up ! shattered dreams, wounded hearts, broken toys. give them all to Jesus, and He will turn your sorrows into joy (: Sunday, May 7, 2006, 07:24 p.m. dance night is over :( what can i say. i really hope last night wasnt the last time i would be dancing or performing despite my pretty rough introduction to dance in sec one (i really hated it) im glad i did join in the end though honestly speaking i wasnt really joining for myself to start with. i felt friday's show was better. but im glad dance night was good. i kinda regret not being able to turn on the spot though, cause it really spoilt the whole effect it was supp to have. sorry wanjun and jem :( thanks for taking me into latin both of you. ive learnt so much and became better friends with some of you, and made good friends too along the way. im sorry my time wasnt 100% with you guys, but my heart was (though i had some mood swings along the way) thank you wanjun, angie, alicia, cat, nat, yijing, viola, jiayi, leslie, bryan, jem, matt, nigel, zul, chenwei, kenneth for making this dance night really really good for me :D and we did really well !!! (: (: im going to miss all of you, and all the pracs so much. at least i have something to look back on while im valiantly studying for my As :( and thank you too all the dancers for making this whole dance experience a pleasant one ! evelyn i still havent gotten my shirt !! and you made me pay for it lorh :( haha, and thank you to all tht came down !! esp cand, liy, dee and val !! and xav & alvin and yaozhi & co. and thanks for all the flowers everyone :D and most importantly, thank you TEAEGG for making it good :D sorry for all the times i got irritated with you or shouted into the phone (at the wrong person somemore; haha, oops ! but i paid the price, now your friends think im fierce !) but really, thanks for putting up with all my nonsense cause i know im not the nicest person when im irritated. and thanks for making time to come down for pracs, and for having extra prac tog even though you're so busy yourself. but i dont thank you for dropping me :P haha, and thanks for the present (: i hope you like what i got you too ! haha, and i think the drawing is REALLY REALLY nice ! i honestly thought that you cut it from a mag or printed it out or sth (: thank you so much (: im glad i made a new friend in you ! take care kay ! ill see you on the 6th floor ! im going to miss all of you really. Tuesday, April 25, 2006, 11:48 p.m. i realy dont wanta grow up. maybe thats why i'd rather spend time with older ones rather than people my age or younger than me. i wish i could have held on to that moment a little longer. it pains me to see you go cause now i knw its for real. goodbye my friend, here's to all the years we've shared together, all the fun we've had, you're such a blessing, such a joy in my life. may the good Lord bless you, and may all your dreams come true Sunday, April 16, 2006, 05:57 p.m. haha you ! i didnt knw you still read ! im still young okay. you're the only one growing old :D i refuse to change it ! haha :D there were so many things i wanted to blog abt but i just cant remember anymore. and now somehow i feel tht if i go, you wont be there. was just a random thought of who wld be at my funeral. oh wells. i hope things change. gym night was good. i especially liked the classroom item. and matt's cousin was sooooo cute ! message was good today. something tht struck me was the part on how God has the power over any past experiences and sins tht you cant get past. im glad im a Christian (: will update more on the message later. (: Wednesday, March 29, 2006, 08:08 p.m. you knw wht, im never good at anything i do Saturday, March 18, 2006, 11:12 p.m. i'm so tiredddd. been hooked on freecell since ytd. it's really challenging ! oh wells, studying's so boring and irrelevant. i pray for the strength to have faith and not study something mainstream but instead something i love :( yeah He makes it easy by telling us what we have to do. but to put aside all our struggles and start trusting and giving up what we love. it's hard. many thanks to radiance for the essay outlines. haha, i'll make good use of it ! all the best for cts everyone (: hang in there, it'll be over before we know it. can't wait for so you think you can dance? to start ! God bless (: i wish i was my happy self once again, the one who would laugh at anything and everything. i pray for you to love God one day. Wednesday, March 15, 2006, 11:50 p.m. everytime i look at my entries i see a different side of me. things i never thought i would have thought abt or been capable to think of. but there you have it, wht i feel at certain points in my life. so funny how remote yet how close it is to me. it really is weird. is this really me. but them again, who am i right? only few truely know, the those ones i have taken for granted. i knw im not truely ready. but i'll willing at least to try. i alwys say i do, but i never mean it tht much as i do right not cause it really means so much to me. dont ask me why. eeps, haha, kristine being emo. see, another side of me. i just realised i sound schizo. however you spell it, im just trying to snap myself out of it and go back to studying :( you never knw how much things mean to you till you finally lose it. do i really have to ? thanks liy (: i love you loads. im so sorry i didnt tell you earlier Wednesday, March 15, 2006, 07:14 a.m. morning everyone (: i seriously cant believe i'm up so early just to study :/ anyways, it's been a LONG LONG time since i've seen you man, okay, its really mostly my fault. but anyways (: thanks for everything kay ! you're 18 already so behave it =p haha, kidding. love loads (: see you soon kay ! Tuesday, March 14, 2006, 08:39 p.m. studying's so not effective today :( wanted to wake up at six but ended up waking at ten. haha, and i decided to test if my stomach's really lactose intolerant in the morning and true enough i ended up with diarrhoea after having half a glass of milk. haha, oh wells, at least studying ytd was not too bad. and had three hrs of dance and swam for abt an hour. not to mention tht i was dropped countless times by my partner. training tmr ! :D and we're going to study at the club after training before i go off for dance :/ im so going to die for zaki tmr man, i havent practiced the steps at all and im nt sure if i can remember everything. and there's ROLL OFF tmr !! ahhhhhhhh, please pray tht i wont screw up as usual and tht my average will miraculously shoot up tmr thank you very much :D oookies, im off to complete history. eddy ho is a chao mugger who is going to finish his studying VERY VERY soon. Tuesday, March 14, 2006, 04:32 p.m. I'm sorry that I hurt you I took for granted all you gave so freely to me I pray it's not too late To save you from a broken heart To promise you I'll make a brand new start x corrinne may; all tht i need Sunday, March 12, 2006, 01:02 p.m. i miss cartel, i miss dome, i miss tht chinese restaurant in lido, i miss may/june, i miss the time where i was in malaysia, i miss mosquito.. you were my angel in disguise but i took too long to realise it. now its too late. ahhh kristine snap out of it ! everything keeps coming back to me. decisions to make, so many things to do. and i shd really seriously stop complaining cause it's even getting on my nerves. ive decided not to try picking up the pieces anymore cause i knw it'll never be the same again. can we start all over again? Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It’s hard to say It’s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for You can’t erase You can’t replace it I miss it now I can’t believe it So hard to stay Too hard to leave it If I could relive those days I know the one thing that would never change Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh Every time I do it makes me Tuesday, February 21, 2006, 12:35 a.m. yay (: just finished my HOD essay. my life now revolved around work, bowling and dance. where's my time for God ? was just talking to cand last night and she pointed out something tht i havent realised for a long long time, that my spiritual life affects my life so much and thts proli why i've been feeling so down and depressed and what not. haha, i knw, very stupid of me. but it's so amazing that it was just last night tht i prayed (without falling asleep !) for God to give me the spiritual and physical strength to carry me through, that He'll sustain me. and today i just realised (okay i took one whole day to realise) that im not tired at all even though i slept past 12 last night. and i'm doing that again :/ i'm sure He'll carry me through :D He alwys does ! maybe He gave me the headache so i'll go nap and tht i won't feel tht bad thoughout the week ! okay, bedtime (: Tuesday, December 27, 2005, 01:09 a.m. d0t: my hamsters are retards says: it's lust that i didn't have ur msn that'sall d0t: my hamsters are retards says: ahhh a magnificent typo krist (: says: HAHA krist (: says: all the lust that's in you is coming out ! krist (: says: haha haha, something i'll always wanta remember Monday, December 26, 2005, 11:06 p.m. havent blogged in ages man. haha, i just realised. blessed belated Christmas everyone (: this year has whizzed by so fast, yet it has been my most fulfilling year i feel. i've done and accomplished soooo much that i never expected to manage at all (: i really thank God for all the strength to make it through, and for paving the way and for every blessing ! everyday should be Christmas :D well, even though you find out things you really dont like about people, many other things just make up for it. well, in life you do have to make wrong decisions to learn from them. disappointments, imperfections, tears, joy, laughter, fellowship. all part and parcel of my much cherished life, what can i say. man, ive been so busy my whole holidays and school's starting so soon ! j2, oh man :/ getting old. haha, i'll catch up with the people i need to REAL SOON kay ? i miss you guys ! tracie, charmaine, christl, sharon, serene, mersa, joel!, mosey, sam, vernon, daniel (the extra crazy one; thanks for the laughter you've brought into our lives) i can't wait for retreat !! (:(: hope i can stayover Thursday, September 22, 2005, 10:44 p.m. okay, so i just printed 18 pages of coloured stuff for nothing. and i lost my frost somewhere in school ytd, proli in the library. gahh !! if anyone sees it please return it to me. gahh, i hate losing the notes i need :( at least it's not only bad stuf happening to me lah (: sometimes unexpected things do happen in your life and gives you a reason to smile. of course, not forgetting that God's alwys with me. please let me find my frost :( thanks to liy, anita, james, barbie and akesh my study buddies. haha, i think if i werent in 1d, i'd proli be hating life in RJ now, but everything's worked out so well (: come to think of it, You have blessed me so much (: and also thanks to sarah and cand for being such great friends :D:D haha, for all the laughter, the joy, and the pmsing, and liy and claredear too, i love you guys (: Friday, September 9, 2005, 11:55 p.m. insecurities. havent felt tht for a long time, or rather i've been pushing it aside, but its all coming back to me now. yes, i do have insecurities. been studying quite often, thts a good thing i guess. glad we had time to unwind on wed (: really enjoyed myself, and it's been a LONG time since i bowled a 160-170. but i think i overstrained my fourth finger, it may be a sprain i think ? can you sprain your finger ? sounds weird. my wire's out, things are starting to go haywire. i'm off Monday, August 29, 2005, 02:44 a.m. another three am night/morning for me. PW is seriously killing my sleep. was using my other comp jus now before it hung. and it hung jus aft i finished saving the stuff on diskette. thank God for tht man, i dont knw wht to do if i hadnt saved it. life's all about making choices, its the crossroad for me now, if tht makes any sense to you. oh wells, i'm off to sleep. i'm seriously gna die tmr with the rehearsals and lack of sleep, nights (: oh another thought, on how i can never do things alone. ding said jus knw tht ure your best friend (: haha, makes sense doesnt it. conversations with tht old man are seriously thought provoking. haha, sam, dont tell ding i called him an old man :D nights (: Thursday, August 11, 2005, 09:25 p.m. corrinne may concert last night with maine, ding, matt, jieren, sharon and her friend, joshua, joe tee, sam and marvin. haha, sorry if i left out anyone ! BUT it was GREAT ! my goodness, i think she sounds FAR BETTER live compared to in her cd. thts quite rare considering we'r living in a world full of voiceing over and i dont knw wht else. and the 25bucks doesnt do justice to her at all. but the acoustics were great, her singing was the best, and she plays the piano and guitar really well too (: her lyrics are so meaningful, and they'r issues tht are close to the heart too. i dont knw, i jus felt it was truely a heartfelt performance. she has such a great personality, haha, she's so bubbly, and through her lyrics you can tell tht she's a Christian. haha, i dont knw, but i really respect her for wht she's doing and somehow i'm really glad i went for the concert cause it was far more than a concert (: haha, im gna buy her cds (: Don't try to hide away from me I know you're [ not ] by my side Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look at Paradise You could be next to an angel in disguise Everyday can be legendary Every minute, an endless surprise You could be the next angel in disguise thts from her song angel in disguise, i guess i heard the song too late, for awhile you were my angel in disguise and now you've gone away. well, here's all i have to say to you, you knw tht everything's up to you now You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be praying every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away Tuesday, August 9, 2005, 09:07 p.m. class party was really fun last night, though i got quite tired after awhile (: haha, thanks for coming guys :D haha, the cheesecake turned out horrible, i think the first one was so much better but only a few people got to eat tht one. haha, cause we had no time to buy the choc from the hotel we had to compromise and use hersheys for the fondue, and it turned out really chunky. haha, im never going to bake ever again, serious. maybe i'll try cooking and see how it goes, haha but i dont think tht wld be sucha great idea. it was great talking and walking cand ! haha, i really thank God for such a funky class :D and a class thts so bonded as well :D i knw ive said this a thousand times, but i really do mean it, esp after being in a different class for the first three months. my plans to watch fireworks fell through today :( had dinner at NUS, and i didnt get to catch any of the fireworks at all. and the festival wont have the same kinda feeling as the actual day itself. oh wells, there's alwys next year i guess. it's jus different watching it from my window and watching it at esplanade/clarke quay. gahh, oh wells. econs and maths test this week, i'd better go study for my econs man, and for promos as well, and finish my pc essays (: all the work, oh wells, kristine, take pride in your work i'm off Sunday, August 7, 2005, 08:20 p.m. in the process of baking my cheesecake now. haha, now i knw why i dont step into the kitchen or attempt to bake. my mum made me drink barley so it was beside me. haha, thinking it was lemon juice i poured it into the mixture. haha, thankfully i decided to bake two cakes so hopefully the other one will turn out fine. haha, the crust for the first one is abit burnt also. haha, now you knw why i need a husband tht cooks. haha, cause i'll either blow the kitchen or the food up. Saturday, August 6, 2005, 11:34 p.m. sth elder wee said today at yf (: haha, so many times we knw wht we have to do but we never ever get down to doing it. i think it's time this should change (: like how i, and we should start studying (: and doing my quiet time regularly, and replying the long overdue letters, and so many more things (: today's message/workshop by elder chia was good. on charismatic churches. now i'll knw wht to say on certain issues cause i didnt before (: it was also quite funny when he played us the recording of a sermon preached in one church which includes the speaking of "tongues". well, i still firmly believe tongues has ceased and its supported by verses in the Bible. teeth are still killing me, and i cant eat properly ! gahh, better go sleep soon for service tmr (: one last thing class party at my place on 8th august, 530pm please tell me if ure coming kay :D see you guys on monday ! lovelots Saturday, August 6, 2005, 01:54 p.m. finished my drq this morning, and i'm halfway through grapes. oh wells, haha, hopefully i can finish everything by tonight :D going for yf today for the first time in many many months, haha (: i had this dream last night tht i went to the US for my holiday and i spent 350bucks on chocolates to bring back. and i refused to buy starburst cause we can get it in singapore now. haha, how weird, i hope they import darrell lea and more cadbury and dove flavours soon :D Saturday, August 6, 2005, 12:31 a.m. krist (: says: den ill buy you krist (: says: durian milkshake krist (: says: haha its finally over! says: lol its finally over! says: i doubt they have its finally over! says: durains shells r too spiky and huge to be put into the blender krist (: says: haha krist (: says: i make for you ! krist (: says: lol krist (: says: you take out the flesh lah ! krist (: says: you knw they peel the banana before they blend it right krist (: says: haha its finally over! says: true thts joshua for you, haha, at 12:34am Friday, August 5, 2005, 11:52 p.m. someone stop the pain, please Friday, August 5, 2005, 10:27 p.m. left school early today :( and i missed maths !! oh wells, i hope she hasnt gone through section c yet. haha, i shall go do some work later :D tightened my braces today, and dr boey gave me an extra thick wire and she tightened it so much it hurts as much as it did when i first put in on. ahhhh, but it's bearable, jus tht i cant eat my fruits ( yay :D ), shhh, haha, and i cant eat meat tht much. hope it doesnt hurt tht much by tmr cause i really do wanta be able to eat normally. haha, i'm so glad our class blog is up and alive :D haha, and 1d's sucha a fun class. haha, it's like we'r one big family :D gp was really funny today when akesh and bhavan asked dee and clarebear to start all over again so they didnt have to present theirs. haha, and they really did :D lol, i think i shall complete all my essays by this weekend and the last part of my econs drq. miss ngin went to tell my mum tht teachers are complaining tht i havent been handing in my homework, gahhh anyways, sorry for telling you guys the wrong locker code :D:D haha, i seriously got confused cause i dont knw which is which. when i look at my lock it jus comes to me naturally. haha (: i remembered to stay up to watch oc last night :D haha, sometimes watching these shows makes me want someone to be here with me, you knw wht i mean. haha, oh wells :D:D went back to st nicks today and had orange bowl while waiting for my sister to end school before all three of us went off for dental. haha, i really miss st nicks so much. the nice big windy canteen with the nicest food and atmosphere in the world. it's only after i left tht i realised how lucky i was to be in st nicks :D haha, its good to look back sometimes. haha, i'm glad i have a funky class to make up for leaving st nicks :D Thursday, August 4, 2005, 07:06 p.m. went for a 20min run aft i got home :D haha, i'm so proud of myself, haha, i cant believe i actually ran non-stop. den i walked a few rounds to warm down. haha, and did my situps :D oohhh, vincent ng, jacelyn tay, the haoyi woman and the dad in king of gamblers are filming in my estate. haha, i ran past them a few times. it was quite interesting cause i saw them film a car scene (: i've never seen tht. haha, they sort of clip the camera to the side of the car. haha (: school today was really nice cause the weather was good :D haha, fell asleep during gp and cand and steve put nutella on my lips and i didnt even knw until i felt sth on my lips when i woke up. woops (: steve take care of tht back of yours kay ? (: i forgot to bring my loacker again today. i shall write a note to remind myself to bring it tmr. haha, IHC was good ytd, and the weather was so nice ! if only everyday in singapore was like tht :D haha, then i wldnt mind it tht much. not tht i dont love singapore, haha, i find it a blessing to be a Singaporean. the only thing i resent is the education system and how sheltered most singaporeans are. okay, the juice tastes weird. rushed off for trg aft IHC ytd so i didnt get to stay for the whole thing :( nevermind ! haha, trg was really tiring, haha, and i was bowling so badly i really have to start trg SOON. wednesday league at the club after tht, haha, i guess it was better. but i think my main BIG problem is my sparing. it's really horrid. oh wells, haha (: off to dinner now, im hungry (: Monday, August 1, 2005, 06:18 p.m. YAY :D haha, everyone's back in class already ! haha, onedee's back (: haha, i have this sudden craving for orange bowl guotiao mian gan jia tang :D:D and abit of chilli, haha, my favourite combination. i knw it sounds weird, the gan jia tang, but seriously, its really nice. haha, once you try it you'll never go for jus tang alone cause it'd be so tasteless. haha (: and i jus remembered, i forgot to add tht i bumped into joefats chiew tsin mum porkbun, haha (: and dinah !! haha, pleasant surprises, i really miss st nicks alot, esp the food and the uniform (: i can't stand our current uniform, haha, esp cause i bought my shirt the wrong size. haha lessons were okay today (: was falling asleep during PC but at least now i knw wht grapes of wrath's abt and i can go do it :D haha, and i shall attempt to finish both essays by today (: haha, james, go do your essays also ! we've got three now you knw. haha, and sarah :D:D go do hurry hurry :D haha, i knw you'll do (: talking to yingheng now, one of my long lost friends. haha, i havent talked to him in AGES. haha, it's so nice when you don't talk to some of your friends for sooooo long but you can still talk non-stop when you start again (: geri hey ! haha, i hardly took anything during RHD with you ! we have to take sometime kay :D haha, and i linked you :D haha, i'm glad you're back in school ! missed having you ard ! see you tmr kay :D haha, lovelove denise hellohello ! haha, i linked you too ! thanks for the advice/encouragement (: and for helping me realise wht i overlooked (: tht God will bless whatever's done and take care of the rest :D i really thank God for fellow Christians like you :D it makes things so much easier somehow (: see you in school tmr ! lovelove maine hello my dearest twin :D haha, where have you disappeared to over the past week ? haha, never come for service ! you went bishan ? haha, i love you and i miss you too ! haha, eeyer, haha, so gross and mushy, haha, stop acting les. haha, i knw you like me but i only like you as a friend. haha =p if people didnt knw who you were they'd really think we'r les lah ! haha, wht if joshua gets jealous ? haha, oh yay :D den i can see you every sunday without fail (: haha, it'd be so fun ! haha, so ure going for camp right ? please say yes (: haha, eh, you knw i love all you girls equally right ! haha, you arh, have fun in school and dont forget to think of me kay :D haha, kiddings, like some psychogirl. haha, thts you not me =p okayokay, see you on saturday ! i think im going (: loveyouloads i'm so glad to have a group of Christians in class, and not jus nominal Christians (: it's definitely not a segregation cause i still love each and everyone of my classmates the same (: haha, not in tht way though. haha, thank God for providing and leading the way all this while :D haha, it's amazing how things work out to be :D but i'm glad, and really thankful. God is good, you just have to trust in Him (: i jus remembered sunday's sermon was on things tht we cant explain or cant even understand. there are many things in life tht we'll never be able to comprehend, and only God knws, yet everything turns out find, cause we have a great big wonderful God who loves us so. it's jus too amazing to comprehend (: Sunday, July 31, 2005, 07:45 p.m. Lord, I offer my life to You Everything I've been through Use it for Your glory Lord I offer my days to You Lifting my praise to You As a living sacrifice Lord I offer You my life jus got the mail from wendi. i'm really glad tht technology has allowed us to communicate with people who are so far away, yet dear to our hearts (: wht she said is right, it is hard, with all the distrust tht has built up. i will try, i wanta be a good testimony for God. maybe God's using this whole situation to teach me sth, and to be a channel through which His Word and His Love can be spread. i don't knw, but i'm just going to try. sth struck me today when ruth was talking abt the Bible being a mirror for us. it helps us identify parts of our lives tht we'r going wrong. sometimes i feel tht within myself i have too much pride, please tell me if you see it. trying to get rid of it so i can focus on God's word, and truely recognise tht He's sovereign in my life, and not me. Humbly now before Your throne I seek Your ways to know Teach to me humility Forgiveness that You show Pure devotion, like an ocean I want my faith to grow So give to me an undivided heart Renew in me a steadfast spirit Remove my heart of stone Complete the work begun in me- This seed that You have sown My life I bring, my everything My ways to You are known I seek from You an undivided heart Faithfully the Lord obey The commands He gives today To love and serve the Lord in heart And soul in every way Lord, I thirst to know You more To walk in all Your ways A life that’s guided by Your word A heart that learns to pray And now my vision is in submission To You, and You always Please give to me an undivided heart Lord, give to me an undivided heart went down to watch dr william tan today, and to meet zhaoyu for a short ten min aft dropping my brother off. he really amazes me with his determination to go on. i think i shall start exercising and not take for granted good health. i remember i met dr tan in australia when we celebrated aunty kristine's wedding anniversary. haha, but i can't really remember wht happened alr, only tht the food was really good and daniel, melissa and david did a really beautiful job with the deco and all. it was really nice (: off to do my grapes of wrath and the woman at the zoo, haha, i like the woman at the zoo somehow (: Saturday, July 30, 2005, 02:18 p.m. For all I've been blessed with in this life There was an emptiness in me I was imprisoned by the power of gold With one honest touch, you set me free Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life, I was loved by you For every mountain I have climbed Every raging river crossed You were the treasure that I longed to find Without your love I would be lost Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life i was loved by you ; colin raye in this life Saturday, July 30, 2005, 12:57 p.m. i still have no idea wht im going to do today. and i finally remembered wht i was supp to do this morning, thanks to benny, like maybe 15min ago ?! haha, i was supp to go for ptm which i forgot to tell my mum abt and my appointment time is LONG over. haha, woops, i knew i had sth to do in the morning but i jus cldnt remember wht it was :D did the pw interview ytd in town and had a yummy dinner :D haha, i want to watch charlie and the chocolate factory ! and the truth abt love ! i almost watched it ytd aft the interview but my mum wont let me :( oh wells, haha, and the ice princess show, or sth like tht. i think thts the title :D anyhows, had a great time at pe ytd ! haha, and we beat the other class at floorball (:(: haha, it was such a funny game plus i really like playing floorball. haha, i still remember playing floorball at midnight during yf camps, haha, playing all the way till like 6am in the morning before deciding to go sleep (: haha, brings back good memories :D i feel like im growing old already. well, today's the last dance lesson tht im going to have :( i really like it but i think, and my mum too, tht its better for me to stop. oh wells, then there's interclub today so i shall go down since it's at sicc :D haha off i go, im hungry and i need to shittttt. sorry (: Thursday, July 28, 2005, 09:42 p.m. and so they lost, 24-0 :( i bet steven and james are super happy now, i knw bhavan is. haha, oh wells :D at least tht was acsi's lousiest win, the second is 27-0, so tht shd be a consolation :D i missed the WHOLE match thanks to the ineffiency of the pe department. i mean, who spends TWO AND A HALF HOURS doing five stations plus 2.4 ?! seriously, the five stations took TWO LOOOONGGGG hours to complete. seriously, they should learn from st nicks and set up stations so tht it's far more efficient. goodness, someone HAS to do something about it. and another thing, our chinese teacher wouldnt let us outta the class for napfa. i mean, if its the last day, and its tht urgent, and the principal approves of carrying napfa out at such a time, why cant they jus inform the various departments to release their students. grrr, oh wells, its over, and napfa was okay, i think i got a gold, if i didnt run too slowly lah, haha, i think i did a super slow 15min run. haha, i realised i slow down by one minute every year. anyhows, class is funfun :D i shall go try and do some of the genetic engineering shit for gp. boring man, so much abt trying not to be slack, its not working. sorry, im jus grumpy :( to kohzy i dont knw if you'll read this but thanks for dancing with me today :D i think we did great for crashcoursers, haha, whatever you call it. and it's a thumbs up kay (: you did good for napfa :D zheng and wj hee, you guys were superb :D haha, thanks for bearing with me and my nonsense, haha, but i had ALOT of fun ytd and today preparing for the thing :D:D haha, yay, lovelove Thursday, July 28, 2005, 09:19 a.m. haha, having gp now, the lazy teacher has just gone out to do something. haha, she's a slacker lah. the dance went pretty well. whew, i didnt forget anything, happyhappy :D haha, but my feet are full of blisters and i have to do my napfa later today. oh wells, haha, liyana jus asked me to say kristine loves liyana cause she's so nice. haha, so random, awwwww :D sarah is jealous now, okay sarah, i love you too (: HAHA, i seriously love my class man (: haha, i hope my brother's playing today, haha, i knw tht he really wants to play. hope they win :D it'll boost their morale. hi denise and liyana haha (: i look horrible in the photos too ! haha, but nevermind lah, it's natural (: haha Wednesday, July 27, 2005, 09:01 p.m. crash course dance lesson, haha, but at least it wasnt as bad as the first time i went for class. dont knw if i shd go this saturday though. my feet hurt real badly though. sometimes i really dont knw wht im waiting for anymore. i cant say my whole heart's into it but i want it to be, but there isn't any chance. im sorry i was too late, sometimes i don't even knw if we're even friends anymore, so much has changed. oh wells, there's so much going through my head i don't wanta think anymore, i'm tired. thank God tht cand's better :D and so is geri. please pray tht nick will get better soon ! and there's one less worry today (: Tuesday, July 26, 2005, 03:14 p.m. okay, photos here (: matteo krist and guilio (: guess who ?  class photo (:  sarah krist and liyana (: Monday, July 25, 2005, 04:50 p.m. went to meet the matteo and guilio in the end then mum picked me up from aunty doreen's place. haha, andre's so cute !! :D:D thts aunty doreen's son. haha, i havent seen alexia yet though, soon lah, haha (: and guilio's so funny. haha, he was wearing only one sock ! haha, found out tht in italy they have this thing called beach tennis, and they even have a special racket for it, so cool (: i wanta go try :D haha, i shall post the picture i took with them up later (: had the antidrug dance thing ytd youth park (: haha, i screwed up like so many times i think sarah got irritated cause i kept making noise, haha, as i was dancing. woops :D but the video looked quite good :D haha, i'm glad it's over. haha, went down to visit cand with sarah, dennis and sam (: steve came too and so did james and daniel. i hope we didnt make her too tired ytd :( hope she gets well soon. dinner at holland v with steve, james, daniel and sam. the food was quite good but it was SUPER ex, who pays SIX BUCKS for NASI LEMAK ?! haha, the guys ate more though, craziness. den they started telling stories abt spirits and how their personal encounters. it was horrible, i cldnt sleep well last night. i freaked out when my cushion dropped on me as i was falling asleep and this morning i heard wailing noises from some neighbour, and i heard them jus now when i got back again. freaky. anyhows, bussed back with steve and james, haha, and i was listening to the recording of "the fruit of the spirit" tht i took during childrens' camp (: i love the kids, haha, i miss them man, i think i shall help out next year if my mum allows :D school today was okay except i was really sleepy cause of last night :( i somehow lost my appetite. YES, i do lose my appetite sometimes. cldnt even finish a bowl of porridge and a cup of lemon tea. i dont knw whts happening to me man, having a headache too. screwed up my PC, haha, and i thought i did okay (: well, i think we didnt do well for PC lah, hopefully frost is okay, haha, thank goodness i passed :D decided not to go for maths remedial, haha, i shall go when miss chen's doing functions. i think functions is my worst topic. well, gotta go my cock-crow :( haha, its a horrible piece man, let's see how much i can crap out (: haha, photos are up (: now for the replies to the gbook entries :D cat hellohello miss dinosaur ! i linked you already (: you ! get well soon so you can dance kay :D missed you ytd ! see you ard in school (: lovelove wj hello my miss-help-me-do-my-eyeliner :D haha, thanks for helping me again :D hee, the purple's nice ! haha, anyhows, you did great ytd :D:D haha, i think we all did great despite the screwups (: send me the video kay ? loveyouloads (: see you ard in school ! i linked you :D clarissa helloyou (: haha, it was nice studying with you the week before cts. haha, hope all went well for you :D see you ard soon kay :D and i linked you already :D take care and God bless :D ping hee, im very indirect right :D haha, when are your hols ? if i'm not wrong it's like in sept/oct or ard then right. gahh, i'll be studying then man ! haha, how's school been for you ? haha, fun ? school's been pretty good for me :D haha, and i love my class (: haha, adverts are so cool :D haha, oh when did she see me ? haha, i didnt see her ! yes, let's go out sometime soon ! haha, havent talked to you in AGES ! take care and have fun kay ? love you loads dear (: God bless ruyu hello my exsittingpartnerrr !! haha, yay :D you gave me so many :D haha, how've you been ? hope ure doing fine :D must go out soon kay ? i miss fourhope :( loveyouloads :D take care k rach haha, hello dear :D sorry i havent really been around much, but i'm really glad we have the black book :D all the best for getting back your results kay ? love you loads ! and hope the peerleading went well :D im sure you did good :D:D hee, loveyouloads ! see you on sunday (: nick aei, haha, i lost your blog add, can you give it to me again ? sorry ! :D roland aei, haha, i still havent seen your new phone ! haha, is it still new and without scratches ? haha, dont tell me you have a blog too, anyhows, see you around in school :D:D haha Saturday, July 23, 2005, 02:43 p.m. this is from a mail tht wendi sent me which struck me the day which i brought myself to forgive you, so don't say tht i havent. Today's sermon:God's Forgiveness big idea: Forgive others, just as God forgives us...so we can be set free. Matthew 18:21-35 This passage was abt the evil servant who, despite being released from his impossible debt to his master, still tortured a fellow servant who owed him peanuts compared to his own debt. It also speaks of how the master harshly punished the evil servant for what he did. We are like the evil servant if we fail to forgive others and we'll face the wrath of God. God has a forgiving character. "By the death of Jesus we are set free-for the forgiveness of our sins, in accordance with the richness of God's grace which he has lavished on us." ~Eph1:7-8 The emphasis is on the word 'lavished'. God's forgiveness for us is overflowing, even though we don't and will never deserve it. He released us of our unrepayable debt and forgets abt our sinful past. If God is able to do that to us, why can't we forgive others who owe us something that's worthless compared to our own sin?? Think abt it...do you harbour any anger or hatred on anybody?? For something that you feel that its unforgiveable??? Stop...think abt what you have done to God. Don't you think our own doings are worse?? As i sat there in the sanctuary today, i felt ashamed. For all these years, i've found it really hard to forgive others, sometimes, hard to forgive myself. The need to seek justice for myself was so great that i forget all that i've learnt for Christianity. For a long time, i hated someone who took away my then 'love' of my life but i've come to realise that it was part of God's plan. I never got round to telling her that i forgive her. In fact i caused things to turn around that made it seem that i had my 'revenge' even though it was unintentional. I've regretted that ever since. This day she is still my friend and i pray that she is still keeping God closeby. Today i am not angry or hate anyone...perhaps i've just forgotten abt it. However forgiving is not forgetting. When we forget, it doesn't make the problem go away. When we forgive somebody, we are stopping the blaming and it releases that person and yourself of the hatred. If we don't forgive others... It'll lead to resentment, we'll end up hurting ourselves instead! This resentment will snowball into bitterness. It will: 1) Destroy our relationship with God 2) Destroy our relationship with others 3) Harm our mind and personality (depression) 4) Harm our health A story was told of this man. He has never been liked by the people in his neighbourhood. He never really did anything bad but people just stayed away from him. Even the children are scared of him. For his life, people didn't want to be near him. People figured that he must have a terrible secret like he had killed somebody. When he was on his death bed, he requested to see the pastor. He told the pastor that he had come to realise that his hatred had cost him his life. When he was younger, somebody did a grevious deed to him. He told himself that he'll remember that and hate that person for the rest of his life. At first, it started as something small but as the years went by, these thots of hatred filled his mind. He was constantly thinking abt it. He couldn't work anymore even though that had been his passion. His health deteriorated cos he was always depressed. Everyday went by with him thinking abt how much he hated that person. At his last breath, he realised all was in vain. He had allowed something small ruin the future he could have had. Are we like dat? Do we want to be like dat? If we forgive others... it'll set us free! Free from resentment and bitterness. Free to move on to better things! Free to enjoy what God has blessed us with. Forgiveness is giving that person a clean slate, a record wiped clean. How can we do that? 1) recognise that God is the Judge. He alone is worthy to judge others. 2) Forgive others as Christ forgives us. Make the decision to forgive. 3) Confess our sins to God. We are weak so we need God's strength. 4) Treat that person with kindness. Overcome good with evil. Leave room for God's wrath. Forgiveness is a difficult and costly task. But it'll be more costly if you don't forgive. Are you hating someone today for doing something bad to you? Are you just thinking abt revenge and justice?? I urge you to stop and think abt what Christ has done for us. Treat that person with sincere kindness, not with an ulterior motive. By doing that, you're heaping burning coals on his/her head. You will create a great impact on his/her life that will make him/her repent for what he/she has done. I know that this is something that's quite difficult to do. We can do this together by praying for each other, encouraging each other. This world is not easy to live in but God's with us. He sends his angels and He sends his love through fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. By being aware of this is actually the first step. Let's walk this path together. of course my extent of dislike is not to the point of hatred or tht it's affecting myself, but i dont wanta keep it in my heart proli going to meet the italian boys aft visiting candice cause their flight is like at ONE AM. haha, well, it's a thirteen hour flight anyways. haha, was talking to miss veera ytd and she said i'm much better in 1d or at least it seems like it is so to her. haha, i told her i am. honestly i'm really glad i changed class :D the environment here is really good and i think i can better my chinese grade :D and im starting to enjoy lit much more compared to when i was in 1e, haha, and history too, and i love my classmates :D haha, i'm off, Praise God for the blessings in disguise (: Friday, July 22, 2005, 10:04 p.m. today was okay (: haha, kinda odd and quiet without sarah and cand. BUT, haha, liyana kindly entertained clare and i during maths when we paid her 1000 ehhh, i forgot wht currency it was. haha, i cldnt stop laughing and ended up crying with a tummyache. okay, tht didnt quite make sense but you get the idea. haha, liyana's sucha funny girl. and sean was so entertained with our conversations. haha had a really slack pe lesson today, haha, all of us jus sat in the weights room ( which stank ) and listened to something about physical training. haha, wasnt really listening, but not like i'd use it anyways. and i have napfa next thursday, happynewyear (: haha, and daniel ! we forgot to ask about the articles !! ahhh, haha, nevermind, tuesday kay ? haha having the antidrug high on life thing this sunday, tht means i'll have to skip yd :( but i'll still go for service lah. haha, didnt go to sentosa in the end, and they'r leaving tmr already. i shall see them proli in a year's time ! haha, stayed back and talked to steven and then nick came along and they started throwing the rugby ball around. haha, was really funny man. and then i came home to watch love me if you dare :D:D cap pas cap Like? Eating ants, insulting the unemployed... loving you like crazy the show's really sweet, haha, some how i really like french films (: cried as i was watching, haha, i like movies tht make me cry and laugh (: haha, now i really dont knw wht im feeling, i feel like im forcing myself to stay out of love, but then again it depends on my definition of love. i finally knw how it felt for you, now it's my turn, or so i think Thursday, July 21, 2005, 09:48 p.m. yay :D it was racial harmony day today. haha, got my sair ytd at little india tog with cand and sarah. but cand's down with fever today. take care kay dear (: i missed you today ! and sarah's down with a really bad flu : ( why is everyone falling ill ? both of you take care kay ? (: anyhows, haha, sarah taught me how to wear a sari today (: it's seriously an art to wear it nicely, and also to walk up the stairs with it. i kept stepping on my sari :( haha, but anyway, it was really quite fun today. haha, and the malay singer during assembly was really good ! haha, he's so cute ! haha, lessons were boring today, haha, but econs was really funny. haha, especially with akesh and him covering his whole head. haha, it was really funny (: and it was really nice to see most of us in ethnic costumes, like sarah, liyana, geri, daniel, sean, akesh, steven, bhavan and edmond ! and we got third for the best dressed class thing :D haha, YAY (: 1d rocks my socks. haha, and we took nice photos today (: uploading them now. haha, i seriously love my class. but i dont like the school, haha, they'r so unenthusiastic about the whole thing. like how many times in your life do you actually get to dress up like tht and not be dismissed as crazy. right (: haha i still dont knw if i shd go to sentosa with matteo and julio tmr. haha, but they'r leaving on saturday alr ! haha, tmr's gna be another happy day (: haha, i shall update my links now. today's photos are here and the rest will be up in the links (: Monday, July 18, 2005, 06:52 p.m. watched Mounam Peseyathe ytd. haha, don't ask me wht it means cause i really don;t knw. haha, it was on central ytd. did i ever mention tht i really like indian movies. esp those love movies. haha, they are WAY BETTER than hollywood movies. haha, seriously. and the indian women are all so pretty ! i love their eyes. haha, my cousin married and indian and my niece ( yasmin ) is really really pretty with really nice eyes :D:D actually she has really nice features and she's really pretty and she's so cute. haha, well, i guess asian eyes are nice too. haha, those almond shaped ones. had listening today, haha, i think it went quite well. it was much easier than the ones tht we did during lessons. haha, but i fell asleep before the thing started. it took REALLYREALLYLONG to start. i think at least three quarters of the class were sleeping. haha, went for dance after that. haha, well. it was okay, the same old thing |
