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Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 12:40 p.m. I've recently been very tired, and just shared with someone how it is really tiring to have so many burdens for people that God put in my heart, without good Christian support. I realised that I really don't have many good (female) Christian friends that I constantly keep in contact with, particularly because most of them have other commitments, or are simply not in Singapore. I really do covet your prayers, and accountability to keep me obedient and focused on God! So I shared this with a brother in Christ last night, and this morning God pointed me to a passage in 2 Corinthians 4. 1 Therefore seeing we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we faint not; 2 But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handling the word of God deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. 3 But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost: 4 In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them. 5 For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake. 6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. 7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us. 8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; 10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. 11 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh. 12 So then death worketh in us, but life in you. 13 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak; 14 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you. 15 For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God. 16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; 18 While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. Thank You God for the refreshment and strength Your Word gives me (: <3, Krist PS. I've just realised how tiredness has been plaguing my life this year. Thank You God for strength indeed. Friday, October 16, 2009, 12:01 a.m. I hate it that I can't/won't/can't bring myself to do anything about it Friday, September 11, 2009, 12:10 a.m. Tired Tired Utterly Tired Don't ask me why, I'm too tired to think of why It's times like these you just want someone to be there to just be there. Friday, May 8, 2009, 10:40 p.m. You know, sometimes I don't even know why I try anymore. Why I even bother when nothing seems to be able to change your perception of me. To you, I'll always be the daughter that went wrong, that is terrible irresponsible and unloving and uncaring. And each little thing I do goes unnoticed. I know that they are naturally insignificant to the lifetime of being irresponsible, and not being at home. But do all these things really just not matter. As much as I want a relationship that is full of love, care and pleasing to God, I feel like a fish swimming against the current, just that I'm not a salmon, and was never meant to be one. When will you see me for the person I am, and for the times I've tried, and the times I've shown love, care and concern, instead of the person you think I am and always will be. Tuesday, April 7, 2009, 11:49 p.m. I want to tell you how painful it is, but I don't think you'd care, or even try to understand. And I want to tell someone, anyone. But I've said it so many times before, I don't think it'd make a difference. Only to remind me of the shocking intensity of the pain after all this while. Monday, February 23, 2009, 12:36 a.m. Too many goodbyes. Monday, February 16, 2009, 11:10 p.m. Interesting thoughts (: And a very timely reminder & comfort ! Insult to Injury For a moment I was completely confused. Wincing, I bent down to remove what I thought was a thorn between my toes when a bee crawled out of my sandal. My immediate reaction was one of indignation. I hadn't done anything to warrant this. But this train of thought was immediately derailed by a second sting on the opposite foot. The next thing I knew bees were everywhere. They went after my head and continued to chase me regardless of how fast or far I seemed to run. By the time I made it home, I had been stung repeatedly. I can't remember the last time I had been stung by a bee. (I was probably five or six years old, and my mom was immediately there to medicate and console me.) By the time the adrenaline stopped rushing, I was overwhelmed with throbbing limbs. I had forgotten how painful a bee sting can be and I had no idea how to soothe the hurt. My husband gave me a bag of ice and set off to the Internet for information. What we discovered was half-helpful, half-maddening. On every website that offered information on treating bee stings, there inevitably seemed to be a few thoughts on what I should have done to prevent them. The lists were always very similar: Avoid wearing perfume and bright colors. Don't work or play around bee hives. Don't provoke them or disturb them. Remember that bee stings are painful and can be dangerous. The words almost seemed to make the stinging worse; the burden of fault was unbearable. Religious people sometimes make use of similar teaching opportunities. When a person is crumbling under the weight of his or her own sin, crying out over a life of brokenness, or agonizing over a certain sting of consequence, someone inevitably steps in to offer some after-the-fact instruction. This person’s objective may be well-meaning. There may even be nothing wrong with the words or wisdom offered. But there is undoubtedly a wrong a time to offer. Before we give a lesson on all that makes us bleed, the wounded need to know there is a physician. Jesus came onto the religious scene of Jerusalem with a method that bothered a great number of people. The experts of the law were proficient in the commandments of Scripture; they wanted people to know that sin bears great consequence and that the way to God is straight and narrow. The teaching of Jesus certainly echoed these truths, and yet he called out the religious leaders repeatedly as those whose "teachings are but rules taught by men" (Matthew 15:8). "And you experts in the law," he proclaimed, "woe to you, because you load people down with burdens they can hardly carry, and you yourselves will not lift one finger to help them" (Luke 11:46). Of course, the advice given to me about avoiding bee stings was obviously sound. And on some level, it seems reasonable to include these principles while discussing a treatment plan; prevention is clearly the best treatment. But each time I came across this "guidance" as my entire body throbbed in pain, I naturally wanted to scream. Of course I didn't mean to disturb the bee's nest; I'm still not even sure where the nest was. To be fair, I didn't see any of it coming. I wasn't wearing bright colors and I wasn't wearing perfume. I simply stepped in the wrong place at the wrong time and I was paying for those steps. Yet regardless: all of this was completely irrelevant at the moment I was looking for help. There are times when sin simply comes in and completely flattens us. In hindsight we may be able to see the wrong turns and reckless steps that might have brought us there, or actions that might have prevented the heartache altogether. But in the midst of our brokenness, Jesus isn't the one pointing this out. To the wounded, he simply says, "Come." When we come to Christ asking for help, we are offered a person, not a list that adds insult to injury. To the wounded, he simply offers his own wounds. While Jesus indeed offered instruction that would load down the strongest among us, God was lifting him onto to the Cross to help us bear the burden. In his presence the stinging may at first seem worse, but the wound, he assures us, will heal. Jill Carattini is managing editor of A Slice of Infinity at Ravi Zacharias International Ministries in Atlanta, Georgia. Copyright (c) 2009 Ravi Zacharias International Ministries Monday, February 16, 2009, 10:45 p.m. So here I am, trying to finish my Public Law readings, but I really can't help thinking about it. So I thought, maybe I'll just have to write it down so that I can get it off my chest. Well, the verdict is more or less out, and I can't make it for exchange. I tried talking to Kumar today, but that really didn't change much, except that it left me feeling semi-crushed, and partly thinking of all the things I shouldn't have done in Year I. It's been a really long time since I wanted something this bad, and even though I only started working super hard in Year II, I really feel the pain of not being able to go on exchange. This especially hurts knowing that most of my friends will be halfway around the world, having the privilege to do modules that are not offered in NUS, and also the privilege of independence & the experience of living abroad. But on a positive note, this has shown me who truly cares about what's going on in my life. Some surprising, some not so. Thanks Liy and Cand for those little things you do that tell me that you care. And also my juniors in VCF (it's funny to call them my juniors cause I really don't see them as such) that cared enough to pray, and to take time to listen to me be :( about my application results. I guess I really appreciate it when people take the time to understand, instead of just brushing it aside as something that I'll get over (even though I will), or that there's something better that will come along (which I totally agree with and am partly looking forward to). And then there are those whom I really want to tell/them to ask, but it never does happen and I don't know why I still hope. So anyways, I guess my feeling that God wants me to stay in Singapore for my girls really was quite accurate. And I just had another thought while reflecting on LCF today. I talked to a few people, and seriously, I'm asking myself what am I going to do in future. Yes I have my interests, but I don't know if they're sustainable ones. And I really can't decide what area I want to/can do. I mean want to is one thing, whether I can excel in it is a completely different story. So I guess I'll just have to take the next two years to figure this out. Oh yeah, back to my random thought, I was thinking (wishfully) that maybe God's training me for the mission field. And then will I get to go overseas and live overseas! Haha but really, we shall see lah huh. That thought has not left my heart and mind for the past few years, and I guess the coming years will tell what's to become of it. Whatever the case, I'm thankful for the reminder (thanks ZX) that God gives and takes away, and in times like this, I still have so much I can rejoice for (: Okay back to PL before my tutor owns me tomorrow ! God bless everyone (: <3, Krist Wednesday, January 28, 2009, 02:52 p.m. I feel like I have too much time :(( Not good. Tuesday, January 27, 2009, 09:37 p.m. I thank God for keeping me safe the past almost 2 years of driving. Haha Bryz said something in the car that day that really made me think that I should be less aggressive and drive more safely. Yesyes, so here's to a blessed new year, and I think I gotta go read some Equity and Public Law :/// On a sidenote, I still haven't figured out how friendships can die. Not that it turns sour, but it just dies. Is it because there was never a friendship there to start with, but rather some lifebuoy kinda things going on, or are there strong enough considerations to just let the friendship go down this path? Sunday, January 18, 2009, 11:46 p.m. Matthew 5:14-16 I shared my prayer request at YAF yesterday, that I should live for Christ and not be too comfortable with the way things are around in school. I must confess that it was really quite an off-the-top-of-my-head sharing, cause I haven't really been thinking much in the recent weeks; much less about what my prayer requests are. But then I came home, and I did my QT, and this passage popped up. I once read that the wonders of structured devotional readings was that God can use it to show you amazing things in His perfect timing. And how true! I mean, the devotional wasn't even about these verses, but rather on the Beatitudes, but then this verse caught my eye instead. I guess sometimes we know certain verses, but we never think deeply enough about them. A few questions came to me head, one of which was 'Am I part of this light?' If I am, then how come it doesn't show. And if it doesn't show, does that mean that I'm not part of this light, or that I'm hiding under a bushel? Yeah so anyways, I think my challenge this week is to be mindful of the life of Christ, and to constantly seek Him and His ways. Sometimes all it takes is a little courage to change, and we all know where we can find that courage from (: Have a blessed week whoever still reads this semi-abandoned blog! Monday, December 29, 2008, 12:41 a.m. So here I come back to again, when I find that everyone is too busy to listen, or rushing elsewhere with errands to run, people to meet. Now I know how people feel when I don't respond to calls or messages, and maybe my mum is right about how I don't really show love to the people around me. I will try this new year though. So the results were not so good. And you'd probably think Ah, Kristine will get over it, or she doesn't really care. But I think this time, it really stings cause I worked so hard, but it has still come to this. I may not get to go on exchange, though I'm still secretly hoping that God will work something out, that maybe the profs will see something in my application. But worst of all I find it so hard to swallow. At the back of my mind, I know that this is all part of God's plan, and that I've got to learn to surrender everything to Him. That maybe I've been relying on my own strength and not His that's why the results don't reflect the amount of work I put in. But I need someone to listen, to tell this to me, or maybe I don't, maybe I have to learn to listen. And then there's so much on my plate, so many responsibilities, and growing. I don't know whether I can do this, definitely not by my own strength. I don't know, I really don't know whether I am where I'm supposed to be right now, what I'm supposed to work towards, where all this is going to go. I Surrender All; Clay Crosse I have wrestled in the darkness of this lonely pilgrim land Raising strong and mighty fortresses that I alone command But these castles I've constructed by the strength of my own hand Are just temporary kingdoms on foundations made of sand In the middle of the battle I believe I've finally found I'll never know the thrill of victory 'til I'm willing to lay down All my weapons of defense and earthly strategies of war So I'm laying down my arms and running helplessly to Yours I surrender all my silent hopes and dreams Though the price to follow costs me everything I surrender all my human soul desires If sacrifice requires That all my kingdoms fall I surrender all If the source of my ambition is the treasure I obtain If I measure my successes on a scale of earthly gain If the focus of my vision is the status I attain My accomplishments are worthless and my efforts are in vain So I lay aside these trophies to pursue a higher crown And should You choose somehow to use the life I willingly lay down I surrender all the triumph for it's only by Your grace I relinquish all the glory, I surrender all the praise Everything I am, all I've done, and all I've known Now belongs to You, the life I live is not my own Just as Abraham laid Isaac on the sacrificial fire If all I have is all that You desire I surrender all Saturday, June 30, 2007, 04:55 p.m. Haha back from my disappearing act (: I think I won't blog much from now on cause I've come to the conclusion that if you wanta know what's going on in my life, then talk to me. I really thank God for closed doors, and now especially for open ones (: I don't know how I'm going to cope with school cause I'm honestly quite scared of facing the workload and all that reading I'm going to have to do, but I know for sure that this is where God wants me now, and that He'll see me through this (: Every step of the way ! So one step at a time :D He'll see you through too ! Whoever's reading this (: Now I need direction to plan and prepare for next Saturday's workshop which I feel inadequate to do. Oh wells ! It'll work out :D God bless :D Thursday, May 24, 2007, 12:07 a.m. Everything's eating up my weekends I'm so UGHHHHH and I just wanta go to church thank you very much! Sunday, April 29, 2007, 12:37 p.m.  HELLO ALL ! Please support Sentio! Friday, April 13, 2007, 02:27 p.m. The very nice DVD rental guy said I don't have to pay the fine cause it's my first time :D Heehee so nice. Back to studying ! (: Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 12:47 p.m. I feel this overwhelming temptation to use the typewriter that's sitting just beside me. Haha, maybe I should get an electronic one too, so I won't have to worry about using up my film in that old school one. Lunch soon ! :D:D Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 09:58 a.m. Thursday, April 5, 2007, 02:00 p.m. See you later alligator. Gotta go change my pants at Paragon and maybe get some art stuff :DD I love cherry tomatoessssssss Monday, April 2, 2007, 06:19 p.m. Hmmm weird, but my links all disappeared. Haha, anyhows I need to find something to do. Finished watching Hanakimi in three days :D Haha, major loss of sleep but it's super super good and crazily hilarious. Haha, I'm considering watching it again, but I need to find Prison Break first ! Shall ask Piglets. Anyhoooos, one more application left and I'll leave the rest to God. Tuesday, March 27, 2007, 05:25 p.m. Hello world, I'm back from Chiangmai already (: Yes I know I just went there a month ago. This was an entirely different trip for me. Reflected on my life thus far, and prioritised esp with regards to my spiritual life. Been really distracted and caught in between about different things. But I thank God for showing me, through the reading of Luke and John (not the people, the Gospels) and all the stuff during QT that nothing is worth more than my relationship with Him, cause it's worth Jesus' death on the cross for me, and His unconditional love. Apart from that, I still don't know where to go for uni, still praying for direction. Also found out a lot more things about myself and about other things. Though we didn't do much this time, apart from teaching the kids English in the mornings with I thoroughly enjoyed, and the baking with Aunty Gin and Lisa, I really cherish the time spent with the kids. And also talked a little more to Aunty Dara. Thank God so much for them, and for their love for all these kids, and for being so hospitable. I wish I could do more. Anyhows, after alumni I'm giving up dancing for good. I'm still thinking about whether I'm going to do alumni. Slowly giving up dancing. Just gave up one dance, but I really didn't feel comfortable on that one. As much as I like it, if I don't see how it can glorify God given the nature of it, I don't think I wanta continue then. I shall stick to bowling, which I haven't really had the chance to pursue, but it's far more fulfilling for me. Now I need to start on my local uni apps. Thursday, March 8, 2007, 10:41 p.m. You know what, I don't understand why you have to keep telling dad all these stuff. Do you think it'll make hinm want to come back to church. Not that you should lie to him, but can't you at least be more discerning about such things. So much for wanting to bring him back to church. Sometimes I really just don't understand. Thursday, March 8, 2007, 10:35 p.m. Don't talk to meeeeeeee. Grrrrrrrrrr Tuesday, March 6, 2007, 08:22 p.m. I'm being a fatty now, positively sure that my period's coming. Where art thou period? I want it to come before I leave for Chiangmai !! :( Tuesday, March 6, 2007, 02:19 p.m. Thank God so much for safety, and for good friends to have lunch with. I think we really should pray for the people over at Indonesia, especially in Southern Sumatra. They got hit twice in a matter of hours, and we could even feel the tremors in the office. And Indonesia got hit thrice today already. And we're right smack in the middle of CBD. We really have so much to be thankful for. I wonder how the people there feel. Saturday, March 3, 2007, 10:46 p.m. Heart of my heart We sang these two lines today during YF, and it was then I realised how the simple words actally mean so much when put in this order. Power of my power speaks of complete reliance and dependence on God, and how it is only through God's strength and providence that we can achieve anything at all. And in the past few months, especially in the past few weeks, I've seen so clearly God's presence and His hands in different events in my life. And to have Him provide for me after just committing everything to Him is :D:D Blessed And then there's Heart of my heart, which simply means that God is the heart, the center of our hearts (: And this is my prayer, that He'll teach me more about Himself, and that as I grow, I'll reach that level of intimacy with Him, so much so that He's the center of my heart. Goodday ya all (: Have a blessed weekend. God will provide(: Just trust in Him to. Choices choices. Thursday, March 1, 2007, 09:32 a.m. Took a shower in the rain today, couldn't be bothered to go downstairs. But it was quite cool cause it looked misty, like on a mountain top. Hoho time's passing so quickly. Just yesterday I was there and I'm going back again. But it's really so easy to love these kids, and to integrate into their lifestyle. I think the lure of the countryside is greater than the city. I feel like some instant noodles and Tossz salad (: (: Birthday CAND >) I pray that God will continue to bless and keep you (: And I thank God for you, my sister-in-Christ. DOOD ! Haha Your word is my comfort, Lord (: Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 09:16 a.m. This morning's QT was from Luke, on how if God feeds the sparrow, what more us who are better than the fowls. And it was only after I read the entire passage that I realised how I should stop trying to run away from the fact that results are coming out, cause they're going to come out anyway. And that I shouldn't try not to think about it, but instead think about it, and commit whatever is to come to Him (: And I know that even if I don't do well, that it's all part of God's plan for me, and that I'll learn much more than if I do well. So (: Thank God for that reassurance, that I'm safely in His hands (: And that He will provide abundantly for me. Maybe not by the standards of the world, but in heavenly things (: Luke 12:30,31 30 For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. 31 But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Have a blessed & a fruitful day everyone (: Monday, February 26, 2007, 09:39 a.m. I should have been dead Showing on discovery channel Saturday, February 24, 2007, 01:27 a.m. A very nice man sheltered me from the rain today. And it was really a pleasant surprise (: Thank God for little & simple blessings such as these. Back to school day. I'm hungry and headachey and I think I'm falling ill. Which isn't such a bad idea actually, I like having the flu and how your voice sounds when it changes. Haha cheap thrills. Goodnight world. Wednesday, February 21, 2007, 09:38 a.m. SLEEPY ! This is our ongoing conversation on what to get for Dee. Haha, Blessed Birthday Dee ! May the Lord continue to keep you, and to open your eyes to His plans for you (: Take heart & be strong ! Clare LL Leong/... we get her something Clare LL Leong/... like to hang her hp Clare LL Leong/... or something Kristine HL Koh/... YESSSSSSSSSSSS Kristine HL Koh/... Can we please Kristine HL Koh/... Haha and something retarded that she'll laugh about Clare LL Leong/... ok Clare LL Leong/... but i dunnoe where to get Kristine HL Koh/... Get which one ? The handphone thing ? Clare LL Leong/... yeah Clare LL Leong/... how Kristine HL Koh/... I think it's quite easy to find lah that one Clare LL Leong/... ok u find ! Kristine HL Koh/... Okay can ! Kristine HL Koh/... You want the wearable kind or the retarded kind Clare LL Leong/... retarded Kristine HL Koh/... Then what if she doesnt use Kristine HL Koh/... Then she;ll continue losing her phone Clare LL Leong/... she'll use it trust me Clare LL Leong/... its DEE Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA Clare LL Leong/... maybe we shld get her a sling waterbottle Kristine HL Koh/... She's retarded but not that retarded lah Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA Kristine HL Koh/... Whatever for Clare LL Leong/... she can put her handphone inside or something Clare LL Leong/... hahaha Kristine HL Koh/... Let's just get her a sling set Kristine HL Koh/... HAHA I'm sure arh Clare Kristine HL Koh/... Handphone capsule arh Kristine HL Koh/... Haha Clare LL Leong/... yeah cool what Kristine HL Koh/... Haha let's give her different options Kristine HL Koh/... Like one for every day of the week Clare LL Leong/... ..... Clare LL Leong/... like 7 different water bottles? Kristine HL Koh/... NO LAH Kristine HL Koh/... Haha as in seven different things to carry her phone in Alright, back to reading slides on insolvencies -.- Slumber here I come. My eyes can hardly opennnnnnnnnnn Monday, February 19, 2007, 08:55 p.m. I'm absolutely stressed about school day and my brain juices have run dry. Give me inspiration O Lord! I think we're having a meeting tomorrow but I don't know where and what we're going to do. And I need to finish this uppppppppppppppppp :((((((((((((((((((((( Goodbye world. Saturday, February 17, 2007, 04:52 p.m. Been planning for school day, and in the process, it's been reflection and thinking about what God has taught me through school. So many things, so many experiences, and most of all the falls. But in a way I'm thankful that it happened this way and not any other way, for I have learnt that only when my confidence comes from God can I lead my life focussed on Him. I still do struggle with having self-confidence, but I now know that I live to please God and not man. But I guess sometimes it's disheartening to know that the very people whom you'd think would encourage you in this process of turning away from a life of sin are weary of you. At least I know now I live for God, and I've learnt to live with what people say of me. Man faileth but God shall never fail. "He will not suffer thy foot to be moved; he that keepeth thee shall not slumber" says Psalm 121:3. Nonetheless, thanks Cand for loving me as a sister in Christ. No lesbo love please. HAHA, I read your blog. And for not being prejudiced despite how I used to be like, and you would completely know cause we were in the same school. Haha, I really thank God for placing you in my life dood. And LiyLiy in the valley !! Congrats on passing your basic theory ! Hoho, I still haven't signed up for mine, must drive me around kay :D Haha, kiddings. Lunch one of these day kay (: So back to planning. Take a look at this : 2 Timothy 2 1Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also. 3Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. 5And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully. 6The husbandman that laboureth must be first partaker of the fruits. 7Consider what I say; and the Lord give thee understanding in all things. 8Remember that Jesus Christ of the seed of David was raised from the dead according to my gospel: 9Wherein I suffer trouble, as an evil doer, even unto bonds; but the word of God is not bound. 10Therefore I endure all things for the elect's sakes, that they may also obtain the salvation which is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory. 11It is a faithful saying: For if we be dead with him, we shall also live with him: 12If we suffer, we shall also reign with him: if we deny him, he also will deny us: 13If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself. 14Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting of the hearers. 15Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness. 17And their word will eat as doth a canker: of whom is Hymenaeus and Philetus; 18Who concerning the truth have erred, saying that the resurrection is past already; and overthrow the faith of some. 19Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. 20But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and of silver, but also of wood and of earth; and some to honour, and some to dishonour. 21If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work. 22Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes. 24And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient, 25In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth; 26And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 04:33 p.m. You know what, I really don't like working like that. I can't stop thinking about that glass of wine I drank, and I really feel terrible about it. Sorry, I just need to get it out. Back to postal codes. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 03:46 p.m. Guess what, people puking now. Talk about being in the world but not of the world. Grrrr, and f words flying everywhere like it's free. Back to postal codes, the net is up again. Talk about the worst lunch of my life. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 03:35 p.m. Looks like department lunch wasn't such a good idea after all. Everyone's dead drunk, and I got forced to drink a glass of wine before I asked for coke. I respect your kind of "fun", but I need you to respect my decisions as well. I don't know, I really feel very offended, and I think that as much as you want to have fun, you really should still draw the line and start respecting people's decisions. So much for the corporate world today, back to postal codes. Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 11:16 a.m. Hoho, just heard someone's alarm ring. And it's the exact same one that I heard every morning in Chiangmai. Haha, cause it's the one Christl uses. Doing admin work now, at least I have something to do :D And I'm not that sleepy cause the ice horlicks from the vending machine is :D:D:D Okay back to work ! Department lunch laters (: Sunday, February 11, 2007, 09:01 p.m. Heehee, I'm watching PCK now. Man, I can't believe it's the last season already :( Oh wells. Had a giant fondue today, which wasn't too bad. But the chocolate got abit jelat after awhile. Haha, new word from Liy. Anyways CAND & LIY ! I can't wait to meet you guys ! LiyLiy in the valley ! I gotta meet you for work lunch one of these days okay ! Hoho, starting work tmr actually. Vernon thinks I'm going to disappear from the face of this earth for a week :/ But please pray that I won't be lazy, and that I'll be a good testimony for God in the workplace. HAHA, FRANKIE FOO JUST CAME OUT ! I think I outta reflect more on my day, and what God wants me to see. I think Chiangmai has opened my eyes to more that I thought I saw. He has shown me what He wants me to believe about predestination. For all that struggling that I went through last year, it just took some listening to Him. And I believe it's not coincidence that I could get along with the kids. It's really been a blessing living with these kids (: And He has shown me the abundance of His blessings (: Psalm 68:19 says Blessed be the Lord: who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Alrights, unsuccessful attempt to quote. Haha, I tried to memorise that just now. But yeah, I think that's life, and that's what each of us have to ask God to open our eyes to see, for He has blessed us with soooo much (: Alrightys, that's it for today. More reflections soon (: Praise be to our God and King (: OH YEAH, I forgot to mention something. Haha, this morning when I woke up, the song "I don't know about tomorrow" came to my mind while I was preparing to go to church. And so I was singing it while in the toilet and everything. And then, we sang it during service. And just yesterday my mum was talking to me about my results. And I keep saying "and" but I believe it's God's way of telling me that I should not worry for He will provide. Whether or not it's good by society's standards, God has a way for me, and I just have to trust in Him, and whatever the results be, be contented (: Haha, as I was telling my YD, one week would be enough for me (: Sooooo, yeah. But I think I'll still be affected nonetheless. So so, that's about it for results. I told Cand to only tell me the day before when the results are coming out if she knows. Haha so I won't think about it. Hoho, so don't tell me also okay ! May each of us lead lives that are a living sacrifice to Christ (: PCK has been around for TEN years yo. So long ! God's blessings huh (: So says Gurmit Singh. Goodnight (: Saturday, February 10, 2007, 10:26 p.m. Our God is with us now I think that pretty much sums up my Chiangmai trip. It really is so encouraging how God features in every aspect of their lives. And I think that feeling of me not making it back ? It really scared me a bit. Esp after that crazy car ride in Vernon's to fetch Kenji & Sebby. And the squeaky budget planes. And then on the trip, I learnt to say a prayer before and after every journey, every LORRY ride. And that feeling, I just forgot on the trip (: And I must really say that God has taught me not to take the simplest things for granted, and to seek Him in every aspect of my life. And through all this we really feel God's presence with us (: Thank God that my brother's injury was not as bad as the doctor thought it was. It looked really bad though, and I just felt homesick, esp after my mum told me about his injury while I was still in Chiangmai. But God has a reason for everything, and I pray that he will trust in God's sovereignity in all matters, no matter how hard it is (: So now it's back to work, all the planning and the proposals :/ I believe I'm more panicky now than for my exams which I have been constantly reminded about :/ Grrr, hope results come out after CNY, and in the meantime I shall just commit everything to God (: I think He says not to think too much , you have been a blessing in my life. Be it the bitching and backstabbing, or the love,rebuke and care that you've given to me, you've all been part of God's plan for me, and I'm thankful and truly blessed for all that. So I'll see you when I do, and much love to all of you, including the family, cause you are part of who I am (: , Really nothing beats the joy of having Christian friends whom you know truely care and love you in a very special and different way. Not to discriminate of course. Oh and they just cut the bushes by the tennis court. Sorry I just walked past them. Haha, anyways, God's work has truly been amazing, esp in the youth ministry. I never knew the origins of YD and YW, but now I know how much God has brought it up from that small effort that wasn't even sure it could last. So anyway I'm leaving on a jet plane tmr morning to Chiangmai, and I'm going to spend ten days there. Please pray for safety and guidance for the team, for all of us are first timers and don't quite know what to expect. Nevertheless, I pray that God will prepare us for whatever is to come. I have a very strange feeling that I won't make it back, and I guess it's pretty much possible since we know not what the future holds. But isn't it great to know the one who holds the future? Haha, if I really not come back, please know that each and everyone of Friday, January 12, 2007, 10:36 p.m. Just one last random note, heehee, I think we can't eat meat after new heaven & new earth know. But that I'm not sure :D I shall check it out yo Friday, January 12, 2007, 10:24 p.m. Yay (: I've submitted my UCAS and that's the last of my uni apps. Hoho :D Okayokay I know I said I was going to do it ten thousand years ago. But better late than never right :D Heehee Anyways, it's another rainy rainy day. Been raining non-stop since yesterday which really is pretty crazy. And they said it'll continue raining till 3AM tmr so we shall see. Anyways I think I'll be awake finishing my proposals and trying to sleep cause my bio clock is really quite wonky. I sleep on the average at 4AM every day/morning/night whichever you wanta call it. Welllll yesterday was another day of confrontation. Not with anyone else, but just me, myself and pristine Kristine. Haha I think only Cand will get this. But yeah, God really wants me to move on, He's been popping messages every now and then but it's been getting really frequent. From the phonecall before prelims which left me shivering, to the Read Pray and Grow (what I use for QT) being missing in action, and pointing me to Psalm 119 which is the longest chapter in the Bible if I'm not wrong, but also the most applicable, to me at least, and though it the shouting out at me. And now forgiveness, and love, and assurance. Sometimes I think I doubt myself too much, and more often than not, I let Satan undermine God's amazing grace, wonderful forgiveness and unconditional love. How could I ever ?! Thank you Lord, for showing me that you know, and that you understand, and that you've placed someone in my life who has a semblance of what I struggle with. And to that irritating someone: where's the blog lahh ! Haha, okay, off to do my proposals ! It doesn't look very professional, but heehee I don't know how it's supposed to look like. Sorry Wanjun ! I try my best :D Shopping for office clothes with Momma soon :D Hurhur Wednesday, January 10, 2007, 10:42 p.m. Had a good lunch/after lunch with Berts today just talking about life, mainly about God, and drank ALOT of chinese tea which was really really surprisingly good. Haha, but I had to shit after all of that tea drinking. Dood I'm going to miss talking to you and sharing about God and seeing all the amazing things that He does in our lives. And sometimes, it's when we talk about it that we start to realise God's hand in things. And it's really a :D:D feeling, that blessed feeling of assurance and peace. I thank God for you my friend ! Haha, and met Ann, or rather she came to look for me to get notes which was nice cause nothing has changed about her (: And she's one of my favourite juniors. Haha, too bad we couldn't make it to school in time for CCA feste. Hmmm, and I saw Cand's I-think-he's-cute-when-I'm-having-my-period guy for the third time. Haha Okay I'm off to find entertainment. Goodday people ! Wednesday, January 10, 2007, 09:31 p.m. The journey into Lydia's mind begins here, or should I say Lyddai. Haha London. says: YOU KNOW in japan London. says: when i didnt know you London. says: i called you heely London. says: HAHAHAHAH. Krist; says: Cause I wore heels Krist; says: Haha what a random name lah London. says: hahah cause i didnt know your name London. says: i wrote in my dairy London. says: *diary Krist; says: :// Krist; says: Haha so tell me what other names you gave to people Krist; says: Haha did you know that my brother was Bryan Koh from the start ? London. says: no London. says: haha he was the old guy with the little hair London. says: hahahahaha Krist; says: ?! Krist; says: Haha why is he old ? London. says: HAHA he looked old what! London. says: no cause that time when my mom talked to your mom i overheard London. says: something about j2 London. says: yeap so i thought he was. Krist; says: Oh you thought he was older than me arh Krist; says: Haha London. says: yeah haha heely was suppose to be sixteen London. says: hahahaha. London. says: max was called BALLY you know Krist; says: Haha good good, that means I still look young ! Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: What about my sister London. says: hahaha i didnt know her London. says: and she didnt talk much London. says: so i gave a her random name London. says: heely little London. says: hahahahaha London. says: your sister what! Krist; says: Eh ? Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: What about shaun London. says: hahaha stuart little lookalike London. says: hahahahahaha Krist; says: HAHA !!! London. says: really! Krist; says: He's really super cute right !!!! Krist; says: Hahahaha Krist; says: How about Eileen London. says: LOL i was like writing about what i thought of you guys everynight London. says: haha London. says: oh she was the tatoo lady London. says: donn was the weirdo guy Krist; says: HAHAHA Krist; says: Why weirdo guy ! London. says: cause he looked young London. says: but talked in an old way London. says: so i didnt know what he was London. says: hahaha Krist; says: HAHAHAHAHAHA London. says: jeremy was THE TOOT London. says: and tania was the DAO Krist; says: Tania ? Krist; says: Haha Tammy ? London. says: haha small ball London. says: hahahahaha London. says: so when i didnt know your names London. says: and i obsevred the ppl on my tour London. says: so you guys ended up with nicknames London. says: hahaha Krist; says: Haha what about the other small boy Krist; says: Haha London. says: the small one? London. says: the one with the nontalkalot parents? London. says: i didnt name him London. says: haha London. says: he was London. says: THAT ONE. Krist; says: Yeahh London. says: hahah i wrote alot of funny stuff about you people you know London. says: wheni read it London. says: i laugh London. says: hahahahaha Krist; says: Haha tell me tell me London. says: hahaha okay what would you like to know London. says: haha London. says: OH i wrote about how i thought that ice would break if max ice skated on it Krist; says: Ehhh about my brother Krist; says: Haha so bad London. says: haha what i wrote about your brother? London. says: OH RIGHT. London. says: you know the snowmobiling oart? London. says: *part Krist; says: Uh huh London. says: and then you and your mom and jean told me that bryan was 14 and could ride London. says: then i didnt believe you guys London. says: so i wrote London. says: HAHA THEY ARE TRYING TO CONSOLE ME. Krist; says: HAHA London. says: as if i'll belive the old guy with little hair is 14 London. says: i'm a loser if i believed them London. says: hahaha London. says: everyone's lying to me! London. says: injustice London. says: hahahaha Krist; says: And now youre a loser cause you have to believe us ! London. says: i realised London. says: yeah then after i found out he WAS 14 Krist; says: Haha it's okay London. says: i wrote again London. says: OH MY SHIT. i just realised that the old guy is really 14 Krist; says: Hahaha London. says: how come he looks so old!?! London. says: and then i wrote London. says: this is so weird Krist; says: SO RETARDED ! London. says: his sister looks so young London. says: and he looks so old London. says: i think they should swap ages Krist; says: I really wouldnt mind actually Krist; says: Haha London. says: hahaha then i wrote about how you people looked quite dao on the first day London. says: OH i also wrote howi thought your brother was a gay London. says: hahaha Krist; says: WHY ?! London. says: cause he carried a red crumpler London. says: so i wrote London. says: OMG ZANG! this guy is gay! London. says: must be some retarded gay jc London. says: where got guys carry red crumplers! London. says: GAY. tsk tsk. Krist; says: Dood that's my bad by the way Krist; says: *bag London. says: haha i know London. says: but he carried it what London. says: so i wrote down GAY. London. says: haha and i wrote about how he looks like a reindeer, London. says: hahaha Krist; says: Excuse me ! Why does my brother look like a reindeer ?! Krist; says: Hahaha London. says: he did what! London. says: when he was dying on that night? London. says: haha he did okay! Krist; says: Huh ? So sick people look like reindeers ?! And that's all I'm willing to post cause it's far too long and we're still talking. Haha, Lyddai is this girl I met on my Japan tour. And Shaun is this really cute boy who's ten turning eleven this year and he speaks like and adult, and does really kuku things. Like once we were having buffet, he kiaped the food he wanted with the tongs, walked to his table, plonked it on his plate and walked back to return the tongs. Haha oh my gosh, and when he laughs, he really cracks me up. Haha, and then one night I was walking with my mum, his parents and him to the minimart outside, we walked past this car and he went "WHOA ! What is this ! Lambourghini arh !" Haha, and many many other incidents. Unfortunately I didn't have to courage to ask him to take a photo with me for fear that he might think I'm some weirdo. Hoho Sunday, January 7, 2007, 07:16 p.m. Alrighteos, I'm going to finish up and submit my UCAS today. I don't care, been procrastinating for far too long. Message today was interesting, on the Apostles' Creed. At least we're doing something a little different, and I really hope that in the weeks to come that we'll do an in depth study, and really study God's word as a church and grow ! It's really about time huh. YD was such a refreshing change from one year in Cat Class. And it's like how the song goes "We're together again, just praising the Lord" that kinda feeling (: And I thank God for that, and for seeing us through these seven years. Haha, can you believe we've been together for SEVEN YEARS already ! And we're going to hit TWENTY next year ! Mymy, so old already. It's time to feed on some solid food (: YF was really good ytd, I'm glad I decided to go, and I think it's about time I started going regularly again cause I haven't since who knows when. And I never really pushed my mum for it cause I kinda got used to it after so many years, and that's BAD. But it was a good time fellowshipping, reviewing our goals and our theme for this year. And 'twas all good (: Praise God for that ! And talking to ever-crazy Mersa, the all-time big bully Vernon Quek (haha, I'm counting on you to read this again), and watching you two play with magnets, Justin and Edric (Aiyoh growing up so fast !), listening to the coldplay-sum41 mix which was really good ! And talking to Nicolette and not forgetting Maine (: It was good though we didn't talk much, it's like what your beloved Mr Ngiam would call a comfortable silence. Haha, I miss that little bubble feeling, being in the world yet not of the world, and for that little while, being apart from the world. Heehee, okay, gotta go do my UCAS, meeting up with the lovely classmates tmr whom I dearly miss, gotta register for driving cause I think I'm the only idiot who still hasn't, and study for those sickening SATs (so longgggg), and check out some logistics stuff for the charity concert. So long friends ! I'll be back ! Hurhur Thursday, January 4, 2007, 06:07 p.m. I love lotus soup boiled with pork and peanuts on a cold, rainy day. Off to Genesis class at FEBC :D Heehee Thursday, January 4, 2007, 03:30 p.m. I think all things to God. As I walked home from gardens ( Yes I did cause bus fares are not cheap now okay ! No more student fare :( ) I heard this woman exclaiming this in her garden. Haha, the simple joys of life (: Only if we stop to count our blessings everyday. Had a good talk with Sam today about church and God and everything. Which was good (: And felt at home. If only I could do that everyday, and live in my world with friends who could do that everyday. Haha, but that would be really selfish won't it. And I had a good talk with my mum last night (: 3hours straight man. She's opening up to the idea of me considering church work in future, but she still thinks it's a waste. I told her that if I worked in the corporate world after uni, I won't do so for long cause that's not what I want in life. We'll see how God's plans unfold (: Goodday people, I miss you all at school. Tuesday, January 2, 2007, 04:40 a.m. I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don’t bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok But that’s not what gets me What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I’m doin’ It It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do Not seeing that loving you That’s what I was trying to do Rascal Flatts What Hurts Most Wanjun ! This is the song that I was talking about. I think it sounds good for contemporary :D Heehee, goodnight & see you Saturday ! Tuesday, January 2, 2007, 04:21 a.m. Hoho ! I feel liberated :D:D Okay I still have UCAS to do but that's like ONE lonely essay. How can it compare man. Haha I don't even recall being this hardworking for school. Blessed new year everyone (: I'm going to miss school so so much when school starts for everyone else but the miserable 88ers. Oh wells ! I'm taking night classes at FEBC starting thursday :D I'm quite excited cause we're doing Genesis and that's my favourite book of the Bible :D Haha, and then I have a whole list of people to meet up with, and things to do. At least now my mum can't bug me to do uni apps anymore. HOHO, that's a big relief ! Haha I didn't dare talk to her for who knows how long cause I knew uni apps would somehow come up in the conversation. Okay Cand knows how long. Haha Okay I'm going to catch up on my deprivation of sleep. My sleeping hours are crazy now. I need to go back to 11pm yo ! Goodnight everyone. Much love from a very relieved girl (: AND LIY THANK GOD YOU'RE BACK SAFELY. CAN WE PLEASE PLEASE VISIT YOU :D I wanta soak in that festive fever. Haha, what am I talking. AND RYAN LAU, can you tell me when you'll be home please before your stuff rots or somehow enters my tummy. Haha Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 11:58 p.m. As the year draws to a close, I can't help but hold on so tightly to the memories of the past two AMAZING years. Somehow it's really hard to let go and move on. Cause I really cherish everyday of JC life, every memory, every fall, every laugh, every lame joke, every sleep, every training, every practice, everything basically. It just ended too quickly altogether. But at least it ended well huh (: And I'm glad to have made friends, friends that I wanta forever keep in my heart, and keep in touch with. Haha forever really cause God has really blessed me with so many Christian friends (: I'll see you in heaven yo ! Thanks for accepting me as who I am, for seeing me now and not in the past. Esp Cand, thanks for still loving me ! And for being a real trustworthy friend. And for Liy, hoho thanks for laughing at my not-funny-at-all-that's-why-it's-funny jokes. Haha and for being lame with me, and for crying and laughing with me yo. Really, I can never finish what I have to say. To each and everyone of you, you all have really been a blessing in my life (: Even that momentary smile when we bump into each other in school, really made me feel like I was home. I thank God for each and everyone of you really. I pray that we'll continue challenging each other in our faith, and encouraging each other in our walks with our Almighty God (: And I pray that we'll all grow spriritually, physically, and mentally together (: Onward Christian soldiers yo ! Haha Nonetheless there are regrets, or rather one big regret. But well I guess I can't do much about it at this point, and without your willingness. I was really hurt by your insincerity, but oh wells. Priorities change huh ! That's life for you. But no matter what, know that I'll still be here for you, as a friend, as that friend since the day we knew each other, only better and not taking you for granted. Take care yeah (: And you, I don't know where our friendship is going to go, but but I'm glad it's all still good. Cand I'll tell you in due time ! Haha when I'm sure. Right now, it's just uni apps and me, and not forgetting my beloved girlfriends. DEE we're coming soon !! Haha, and LIY GET YOUR BUTT BACK IN SINGAPORE DOOD ! I signed up for SATs already, haha ACJC :D And this time I really AM going to study. Haha, confirm chop stamp. And I hope that in this new year, God will use me in His Mighty ways (: And that I'll persevere in my walk with Him. Keep me in check okay soldiers. Haha and to the many who are going into army, all the best ! Don't chaokeng, go through it so at least you can say that you've endured, and let God work in you, and strengthen you for both the physical, spiritual and mental battles ahead ! Haha, grown men already eh. Hard to believe =p Haha kidding Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 10:15 p.m. Krist; says: Who stole the cookie from the cookie jar donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: ahhahahaa donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: cookie pot u dork Krist; says: Huh really meh ? donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: ya la! donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: u goon Krist; says: I always thought it was cookie jar ! Krist; says: WHAT Krist; says: Haha Krist; says: There's no such thing as a cookie pot can Awhile later, donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: dun be a pok lar Krist; says: It is !!! donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: it is cookie pot donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: try harder Krist; says: You go search "who stole the cookie from the" Krist; says: it's all jar lah Krist; says: HOHOHO Krist; says: WHOPPER PLEASE donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: stupeed. Krist; says: Haha what you arh donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: fine it is jar is pot watever from today it is cookie pok Krist; says: HAHA Krist; says: Okay Krist; says: But you still owe me a whopper donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: since we both won donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: u owe me whopper donn: it was God. www.mytruefriend.org says: and i owe u naan Seriously it's cookie jar lah ! 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Haha why am I not surprised. Anita you cheat my feelings lah ! Haha, you're still a girl ! 100% somemore. Blessed Christmas everyone (: Christmas this year was special with everyone, or at least most, FINALLY back for good (: Tuesday, December 12, 2006, 01:30 a.m. I really wanted to talk to you before I leave for Japan but haha oh wells, I think I'd better not (: Oh wells I'm super tired now, had 3hours of sleep last night doing the essays. My oh my -.- Haha, anyways my caree busted his ankle ! And I can't be there to care for him. Haha, but Edrics is going to help me. Heehee, and sorry I can't be a spy ! Wish I could stay longer for camp yo. Oh wells, off to my essays. Sleepy sleepy. See you all when I'm back from Japan (: Meeting Just at the airport and Wanjun in Japan. Heehee I can't wait ! I just heard about Cat's cool holiday ! Byebye ! Saturday, December 9, 2006, 04:53 p.m. PROM PHOTOS (: I will miss you all. Really. Actually I don't want to miss all you guys cause we must keep in touch yeah ! Thursday, December 7, 2006, 12:22 p.m. Man, it's really really over. Grad was good (: It's really heartwrenching that it had to end to quickly, but was telling Angie that at least it was a good two years (: I've made so many friends that I really wanta and am going to keep for life. People like Cand and Liy whom I've had some really crazy and retarded times with and yet we've been through the rough times and all those pms-y days (: I love you both loads. Like really really. And don't laugh at me for saying that lah ! Haha I really mean it okay ! And there are the bowlers, you crazy bunch of people. I'm so glad that I picked up bowling, and got to play for the school (: I will never forget all those smelly training sessions ! Haha Deedee especially ! Whoa, really the smelliest. Haha followed by Miss Samantha Png. And I'll never forget all the monkeys we had to do, esp when we got to see the J1 guys do it cause it was simply hilarious. And the nicknaming by Uncle Yong, and food/going out conversations with Uncle Jansen though he got annoying sometimes, and our very favourite UNCLE EUGENE ! Haha, and that crazy mini-dance thing he taught Sam and I. Haha and the dancers !! Haha thanks for tolerating my lousy attendance and crazy schedules :D And thanks for all the fun we've had though it was really quite stressful sometimes ! Haha, I'm glad I got to know you Wanjun, Angie, Huang Jing, Cheryl, Alicia, Yong Neng, Leslie, Nigel, Kohzy (Abit outdated) Haha but yeah. It's been good, it's been all good (: And not forgetting the lovely classmates ! Haha, I've had good memories with each and everyone of you. I really thank God that I got to change class (: And that I didnt get the choice of my class cause I ended up with an even better class ! Haha, not that the other class is lousy but I really appreciate everyone in 1D (: I've met people in my class that I'm going to still be meeting up with 10 20 years from now hopefully (: And all the people I study with and all those random people whom I can't really categorise. Thanks for making the RJ experience a great one for me. Sorry Im always getting bored and walking around and annoying people. Haha, but thanks so much for everything (: And thanks to all my teachers (: Haha, I may not be the best student but I really appreciate all that you've done for us. And thank you Miss Ngin ! For being ever so patient even though we let you down so many times. And to Miss Veera for all your crazy lectures and tutorials and consultations ! Haha, you rock Miss V ! Haha (: I LOVE YOU ALL REALLY (: Prom photos will be up soon (: Heehee, sigh such a feeling of loss and completion mixed together. So much to thank God for and so much to hold onto. Thank you all of you. I'm going to miss all of you. And I really appreciate each and everyone of you. If you're reading this ! Haha, please leave your email address and mailing address in my guestbook okay ! (: See you all around and please keep in touch ! With much love, Krist Sunday, December 3, 2006, 11:21 p.m. It was so... hard seeing you ytd. I don't know, I really am not used to this. And I feel like my heart gets all wrenched up when I think of the extent to which our friendship has degraded to. I really want to end this year well, and have some sort of closure. Okay I think it's just me again. Ah wells, post As has been fine (: Getting pretty boring though. And I think I'm reading too much into things. I don't know. Ahhhh Can't wait for bowling chalet anyways (: Haha we're finally having a chalet ! See lah lousy eddyho ! Never organise last year! Okay I'm sorry I'm typing in random spurts but I'm being pretty incoherent right now. All the best to Cherie "Cherry" Tan ! Hey climb all the way up that ladder okay ! I know you are well capable of it (: Just do the best you can yeah (: And I'll bring you to eat the chicken glutinous rice and we shall go on a food hunt after you get back from Doha ! And all the best for the rest of your races Lynette ! Haha, just remember to do your best for God and Singapore (: And be thankful for the amazing opportunity which only so few will have in their lives (: Friday, December 1, 2006, 07:43 p.m. 1. I thank God that I didn't wake up too late 2. I thank God that I realised that I was late 3. I thank God that the admin probs were solved 4. I thank God that I was able to take my test (: 5. I thank God that though I was late the people at pearson let me take the test 6. I thank God that I got there safely 7. I thank God for that taxi driver who was nice enough to return the lady her stuff 8. I thank God that I was able to get a cab and that the driver knew the place where I needed to go 9. I thank God that He has taught me how irresponsible and lazy I really am and I pray that I'll change 10. I thank God for letting me experience the little joys of life in seeing all the little children around (: Sunday, October 29, 2006, 09:32 p.m. Hey all (: Haha it's three days to the real big thing. Hope everyone's doing fine out there (: Thanks Cand for the yummy cake and dinner ! And Steve and Bran for the thing I don't know what it's called. Haha, and thanks for coming over you guys ! Haha, I was really surprised :D And thanks Liy for being such a great friend these two years ! I hope today went fine :D And thanks for calling ! And thank you Dee for coming out for dinner (: I really really appreciate it! And thanks to the rest of you who remembered :D Haha I was seriously pleasantly surprised cos I thought everyone would be so busy studying that they'd forget (: Thank you Clare, Zhizhong, Rach, Charmaine, Lois, Yaozhi, Poks, Jing, Just, Ajit, Cat, Wanjun, Eddy, Cherie, Ruth, Ying Quan, Tom, Bryan Lee, Yanqiang, Haan Hui, Shuming, Stacy, Anita, Pek, Andrew, Alvin, Alethia, Ryan Ho, Deedee, Bong, Weijie, Jem, Ziteng, Piglet, Roland, Weixian, Chenghui, Max, Debbo, Julianne, Bimbo, Boon, Bhavan, Kenny, Kenji, Michelle, Reuben, Nicklaus, Nat Ngoi, Val, David, Angie, Gao, Ann Tay the teddystar1, Junwee, Jason, Joel, KK, Siqi, Chris, Ping, Bert, Ivy, Sarah, Abel Tan, Mel Wong, Nemo, Tracie, Xavier, Travis, Tina, Jill Ng, Kwanie, Ding, Jon Ng, Desmond, Joshua Yee, Lynette, Vernon and lousy Samuel Tan! (: Haha, thanks for being a part of my life, somehow in these past 18 years and more to come (: You've really touched my life in one way or another, and been there for me some way or another (: So really, thanks (: I really thank God for all the blessing these past 18 years. So undeserved but yet He has given so richly. And I think it's time I give something back to Him (: Just a side note, haha, I bought Archie comics and pretty paper ! Haha, pretty's just so not my word but they're really pretty (: And not pricey at all ! Ooookies, back to work (: OHOH ! And before I forget ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIQI, MEL and JAIME who share the same birthday as me (: Wednesday, August 30, 2006, 07:39 p.m. Oh my I'm so bored. It really doesn't feel like the prelims are here already :( Yes they're here. I'm going back to my old addiction of freecell (: Goodbye , Oh dood, the sneeze which has been wanting to come out since I was in the library finally came out. Studying has adverse effects -.- This has been such a weird week. Goodnight (: I thank God for trustworthy friends Sunday, August 27, 2006, 05:49 p.m. Its been ages since I last updated. Haha, not like I've been studying very hard, but I've definitely been trying very hard too and my printer just died on me :/ An update on the weird happenings in my toilet. I think my brother has something to do with it though. There are cockroach parts all over the toilet lah. Okay not all over. There's the leg right outside my shower, and one wing and it's butt in the shower. Weird. Actually maybe it wasn't my brother. Maybe it was some picky bird trying to eat the cockroach and left the lousy parts behind. I wouldn't know. (My shower's open air lah. I don't keep birds in my locker.) Alrights, that was really uncalled for (: That's what studying does to you. But studying in the library can be quite fun. Less pressurising and there are always people around to help (: And it's not very conducive for sleeping so that's really really good for me. Haha, GP paper is tomorrow already. Sure doesn't feel like it. Kristine focus !! School aside, YW (Youth Worship) today was really good. Was a humbling time. At least for me it was. The words really cried out to me today. And I realised how broken I am inside, though I really don't look like I am. I'm falling apart when I'm so far away from God and I really don't like that feeling. I think I'm trying too hard to get back on the right track with QT and all but I left out committing my life and my everything to God. Which really defeats the purpose. I feel renewed now (: Although I feel so helpless and broken, I feel more secure, cause I knw I'm in His hands. Thanks Ding for a great time of worship today. And the message today was about "Living for God" by Robert Peh. He's really really funny in his own way. Haha, cause he's been working with kids and so the way he relates stuff to us is very simple. It's very mountainy. How do I describe it. Haha, but it was a really good message cause although how I've described it portrays it to be something very child-like, he really spoke from his heart and had a great deal of depth. He said to live for God, you must first L.O.V.E God. Which is of course very true. Everything summed up in one word. So using Genesis 39 (the story of Joseph), this is what he said. Background: Joseph was sold to Egypt at a very young age of about 17. He was from a rich family but was sold as a slave by his brothers. Verse 2 says that though we would think that Joseph was alone, he never was. Because the Lord was with Joesph. And he knew that. And Robert was saying how our friends influence how we live our lives a lot. Which is very true cause my mum used to tell me that all the time, and I never believed her, I thought I was better than that until I realised it for myself. And I think being alone with God in a foreign land not only led Joseph closer to God, but also led Him to want to emulate God in his life. And Robert used this container, dropped a stone, tissue and a piece of wood inside. And he asked us which we were. Were we the stone than would sink straightaway in trials, the tissue who would float (struggle) for awhile then eventually sink? Or the piece of wood that no matter how you try to sink it will always float on the water? So living for God comprises of these three things.. Love for God; Can you see God in your life? When everyone left Joseph, he knew that God didn't and he stayed strong in his love for God (: Obedience to God: Joseph was a goodly person (v.6) He did his best and was a faithful and responsible person. Though Mrs Potiphar (in Robert's words), his master's wife, tried to tempt time and again, he always rejected her. He knew that God is above him and was with him and he chose to do what pleases God even though no one was looking (He was alone in the house with her) And verse 10 shows that it wasn't just a one-off choice to please God, but everytime she tried to tempt him, he stayed obedient to God and never strayed or to be with her (be around her). And when she grabbed him one day and asked him to sleep with her again, he just ran ! Robert says, "God have us two legs, so run !" Haha, yeah (: (cf. 2 Tim 2:22, 3:12) Vunerable to persecution: So while she kept trying to tempt him, he never gave in to temptation. And the day he caught hold of him and he ran away, he left his garment behind. Mrs Potiphar then went to tell everyone that Joseph was trying to come onto her, and she even told her husband (who used to really trust Joseph). And Joseph got sent to jail. So when we try to do the right things and be obedient to God, the world may not recognise where we come from, and socially persecute us (cause I dont think we have physical persecution in Singapore, not that I know of lah) Robert says, Joseph run run run until he run into prison. Haha Enduring trials and temptations: Joseph, even after being sold as a slave (It must have been really tough on him), still stayed above the water. He never forgot that it was God who blessed him in finding favour with his master. He was promoted from being a slave. Before honour is humility. This is the part where we learn to be like the wood. So next time when people say you're a block of wood, take it is a compliment ! (: Haha So that was briefly what the message was about. Whoa, what a long post. Haha, just another thing to share (: I love the poem. And it's really a source of comfort and hope. And something that I'm going to stick to. Hope it speaks to you too. Cause the amazing thing about it was that it came true, and God really provided. A timely reminder Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, To have a deep soul relationship with another, To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively. But God, to a Christian says, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, With having an intensely personal relationship with Me alone, Discovering that only in Me Is your satisfaction to be found, Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship That I have planned for you. You will never be able to unite with another Until you are united with Me, Exclusive of anyone or anything else, Exclusive of any desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, One that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the very best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, Expecting the greatest things, Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM, Keep listening and learning the things I tell you, You just wait, that's all. Don't worry. Don't be anxious. Don't look around at the things others have gotten Or that I've gotten them. Don't look at the things you think you want You just keep looking to Me, Or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love Far more wonderful than any you would dream of. You see, until you are ready, And until the one I have for you is ready, (I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time) Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me, And the life I prepared for you, You won't be able to experience the love that Exemplifies your relationship with Me, And thus is the perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me; And to enjoy materially and concretely, The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love. Know I love you utterly, I am God. Believe it and be satisfied." All the best for prelims everyone (: And for promos for the J1s ! Haha, how I miss being J1 (: Alrights (: That's it for now (: God bless ! , Have you ever felt so alone at night, so helpless. Not able to fall asleep, can't stop crying over something people would think is small but means so much to you. Not knowing what to do next. Wanting to do something about it but yet not wanting to let go? I want to sleep. Tuesday, June 13, 2006, 05:36 p.m. Yo yo, I'm super bored of studying. And I've just spent a whole SIX hours on the computer searching for who knows what when I could have been productive doing my Lovely Economics and Mathematics. Ended up not going to school when I really should have. At least I wouldn't have been stuck on this machine for such a long time. Now I'll never know how to solve my math questions :( And my gum's bleeding. Those braces :/ That aside, I was super productive last week but I guess I have used up all of my studying power already. Now I shall be moderately productive. All this for the A'Levels. Why? Watched So You Think You Can Dance last night. The usual brilliance. I thought the guys hiphop was really good. And Nick especially was :D:D:D I really felt like dancing again. It's been more than a month. Thank goodness there aren't any bowling shows or I wouldn't be here typing this. Not that I'm any good at all. Bought Kaya Buns yesterday :D Reminds me of Camp Comm meetings with Serene and her Kaya Bun craze ! I'm alone at home now with my maid which probably explains why I'm slacking so much cause there's absolutely no one here to nag at me. Wish I was in Hong Kong right now. Ah wells, have to sacrifice something for the A's. Alrights (: I'm going to watch VCDs now. Have to return them tomorrow. And I'm sure I'll be productive tomorrow :D I wish you would try because you wanted to; not because I want you to. I'm not angry, just Disappointed because I thought you would cherish this more. Sunday, May 28, 2006, 05:29 p.m. please please will money drop from the sky :((((((( Saturday, May 27, 2006, 11:47 a.m. yesterday started bad. middle got much better. ended bad. congrats cherie for finally breaking your dreaded masters curse, and to travis for coming in tops in the masters events (: double gold for masters this year (: yay matt's gna help me upload my photos later. i hope my parents dont find out or im so so screwed. mummy i need my money please. Thursday, May 25, 2006, 09:52 p.m. oh yeah oh yeah we won :D:D i really thqank God for bringing us through (: and for blessing us so richly (: well done girls (: and the guys too cause you guys really put up a good fight (: and though i really didnt bowl well at all, i think ive learnt a whole load more (: our girls team <3 rj bowling 2006 <3333333 our challenge trophy (: hey juniors ! must make it stay within our school k ! girls team again (: aei we must take a j2 photo ! i will never forget this ! and many many thanks to cand & liy for coming down :D haha, i forgot to tell you i heard you cheer molerat ! haha, and thanks to all the councillors for coming down and all the supporters. ahhhhhhh. i hope this isnt the last time im bowling. or it'll end far too quickly. Tuesday, May 23, 2006, 10:52 a.m. i just want it all to end well. just once Saturday, May 13, 2006, 10:16 p.m. yes wanjun ! i dont care what anyone says even though i knw i screwed up. haha. after reading your entry i finally understood what made latin different for me :D the thing abt latin was tht it was personal for you, and for me too, i cld feel it (maybe i didnt portray it tht well cause im alwys laughing and stupid teaegg forgot we were supposed to be angry) but i still felt it really. so much of you went into the item, even the whole line up was you and the emotions you were feeling, and maybe still feel. and its so precious cause i feel tht too. so thank you (: and dont cry even though i knw im very touching. haha, KIDDING ! but yeah, i pray tht both of us will get past this, whatever it is for the both of us. at least you have the strength to close tht chapter. i dont. not yet. love you dear (: man, i really hope i do well for nationals this year ! bowled quite okay during training today hope i can keep it up. haha, uncle yong says i shd faint more so i can bowl better. cause im much more relaxed after that ! (i almost fainted during training today) haha. but at least i got exempted from the punishments for missing my spares ! heh :D went for yf today too, in a very long time ! and it feels good seeing all those familiar faces. havent been keeping up with the whole "gospel of judas" controversy so i must say today's bgst meeting wasnt too bad for me. i hope everything'll get better for you twin ! lovelove (: off to bed ! church tmr. and my parents are still outta town. haha, im quite surprised i didnt complain abt my adventures with sbstransit today. oh wells (: patience ! hello matt haha, you were not a noobcake at all ! esp during hiphop ! aei, i screwed up the solo :( haha, but we were good together :D cheer up ! shattered dreams, wounded hearts, broken toys. give them all to Jesus, and He will turn your sorrows into joy (: Sunday, May 7, 2006, 07:24 p.m. dance night is over :( what can i say. i really hope last night wasnt the last time i would be dancing or performing despite my pretty rough introduction to dance in sec one (i really hated it) im glad i did join in the end though honestly speaking i wasnt really joining for myself to start with. i felt friday's show was better. but im glad dance night was good. i kinda regret not being able to turn on the spot though, cause it really spoilt the whole effect it was supp to have. sorry wanjun and jem :( thanks for taking me into latin both of you. ive learnt so much and became better friends with some of you, and made good friends too along the way. im sorry my time wasnt 100% with you guys, but my heart was (though i had some mood swings along the way) thank you wanjun, angie, alicia, cat, nat, yijing, viola, jiayi, leslie, bryan, jem, matt, nigel, zul, chenwei, kenneth for making this dance night really really good for me :D and we did really well !!! (: (: im going to miss all of you, and all the pracs so much. at least i have something to look back on while im valiantly studying for my As :( and thank you too all the dancers for making this whole dance experience a pleasant one ! evelyn i still havent gotten my shirt !! and you made me pay for it lorh :( haha, and thank you to all tht came down !! esp cand, liy, dee and val !! and xav & alvin and yaozhi & co. and thanks for all the flowers everyone :D and most importantly, thank you TEAEGG for making it good :D sorry for all the times i got irritated with you or shouted into the phone (at the wrong person somemore; haha, oops ! but i paid the price, now your friends think im fierce !) but really, thanks for putting up with all my nonsense cause i know im not the nicest person when im irritated. and thanks for making time to come down for pracs, and for having extra prac tog even though you're so busy yourself. but i dont thank you for dropping me :P haha, and thanks for the present (: i hope you like what i got you too ! haha, and i think the drawing is REALLY REALLY nice ! i honestly thought that you cut it from a mag or printed it out or sth (: thank you so much (: im glad i made a new friend in you ! take care kay ! ill see you on the 6th floor ! im going to miss all of you really. Tuesday, April 25, 2006, 11:48 p.m. i realy dont wanta grow up. maybe thats why i'd rather spend time with older ones rather than people my age or younger than me. i wish i could have held on to that moment a little longer. it pains me to see you go cause now i knw its for real. goodbye my friend, here's to all the years we've shared together, all the fun we've had, you're such a blessing, such a joy in my life. may the good Lord bless you, and may all your dreams come true Sunday, April 16, 2006, 05:57 p.m. haha you ! i didnt knw you still read ! im still young okay. you're the only one growing old :D i refuse to change it ! haha :D there were so many things i wanted to blog abt but i just cant remember anymore. and now somehow i feel tht if i go, you wont be there. was just a random thought of who wld be at my funeral. oh wells. i hope things change. gym night was good. i especially liked the classroom item. and matt's cousin was sooooo cute ! message was good today. something tht struck me was the part on how God has the power over any past experiences and sins tht you cant get past. im glad im a Christian (: will update more on the message later. (: Wednesday, March 29, 2006, 08:08 p.m. you knw wht, im never good at anything i do Saturday, March 18, 2006, 11:12 p.m. i'm so tiredddd. been hooked on freecell since ytd. it's really challenging ! oh wells, studying's so boring and irrelevant. i pray for the strength to have faith and not study something mainstream but instead something i love :( yeah He makes it easy by telling us what we have to do. but to put aside all our struggles and start trusting and giving up what we love. it's hard. many thanks to radiance for the essay outlines. haha, i'll make good use of it ! all the best for cts everyone (: hang in there, it'll be over before we know it. can't wait for so you think you can dance? to start ! God bless (: i wish i was my happy self once again, the one who would laugh at anything and everything. i pray for you to love God one day. Wednesday, March 15, 2006, 11:50 p.m. everytime i look at my entries i see a different side of me. things i never thought i would have thought abt or been capable to think of. but there you have it, wht i feel at certain points in my life. so funny how remote yet how close it is to me. it really is weird. is this really me. but them again, who am i right? only few truely know, the those ones i have taken for granted. i knw im not truely ready. but i'll willing at least to try. i alwys say i do, but i never mean it tht much as i do right not cause it really means so much to me. dont ask me why. eeps, haha, kristine being emo. see, another side of me. i just realised i sound schizo. however you spell it, im just trying to snap myself out of it and go back to studying :( you never knw how much things mean to you till you finally lose it. do i really have to ? thanks liy (: i love you loads. im so sorry i didnt tell you earlier Wednesday, March 15, 2006, 07:14 a.m. morning everyone (: i seriously cant believe i'm up so early just to study :/ anyways, it's been a LONG LONG time since i've seen you man, okay, its really mostly my fault. but anyways (: thanks for everything kay ! you're 18 already so behave it =p haha, kidding. love loads (: see you soon kay ! Tuesday, March 14, 2006, 08:39 p.m. studying's so not effective today :( wanted to wake up at six but ended up waking at ten. haha, and i decided to test if my stomach's really lactose intolerant in the morning and true enough i ended up with diarrhoea after having half a glass of milk. haha, oh wells, at least studying ytd was not too bad. and had three hrs of dance and swam for abt an hour. not to mention tht i was dropped countless times by my partner. training tmr ! :D and we're going to study at the club after training before i go off for dance :/ im so going to die for zaki tmr man, i havent practiced the steps at all and im nt sure if i can remember everything. and there's ROLL OFF tmr !! ahhhhhhhh, please pray tht i wont screw up as usual and tht my average will miraculously shoot up tmr thank you very much :D oookies, im off to complete history. eddy ho is a chao mugger who is going to finish his studying VERY VERY soon. Tuesday, March 14, 2006, 04:32 p.m. I'm sorry that I hurt you I took for granted all you gave so freely to me I pray it's not too late To save you from a broken heart To promise you I'll make a brand new start x corrinne may; all tht i need Sunday, March 12, 2006, 01:02 p.m. i miss cartel, i miss dome, i miss tht chinese restaurant in lido, i miss may/june, i miss the time where i was in malaysia, i miss mosquito.. you were my angel in disguise but i took too long to realise it. now its too late. ahhh kristine snap out of it ! everything keeps coming back to me. decisions to make, so many things to do. and i shd really seriously stop complaining cause it's even getting on my nerves. ive decided not to try picking up the pieces anymore cause i knw it'll never be the same again. can we start all over again? Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It’s hard to say It’s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for You can’t erase You can’t replace it I miss it now I can’t believe it So hard to stay Too hard to leave it If I could relive those days I know the one thing that would never change Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh Every time I do it makes me Tuesday, February 21, 2006, 12:35 a.m. yay (: just finished my HOD essay. my life now revolved around work, bowling and dance. where's my time for God ? was just talking to cand last night and she pointed out something tht i havent realised for a long long time, that my spiritual life affects my life so much and thts proli why i've been feeling so down and depressed and what not. haha, i knw, very stupid of me. but it's so amazing that it was just last night tht i prayed (without falling asleep !) for God to give me the spiritual and physical strength to carry me through, that He'll sustain me. and today i just realised (okay i took one whole day to realise) that im not tired at all even though i slept past 12 last night. and i'm doing that again :/ i'm sure He'll carry me through :D He alwys does ! maybe He gave me the headache so i'll go nap and tht i won't feel tht bad thoughout the week ! okay, bedtime (: Tuesday, December 27, 2005, 01:09 a.m. d0t: my hamsters are retards says: it's lust that i didn't have ur msn that'sall d0t: my hamsters are retards says: ahhh a magnificent typo krist (: says: HAHA krist (: says: all the lust that's in you is coming out ! krist (: says: haha haha, something i'll always wanta remember Monday, December 26, 2005, 11:06 p.m. havent blogged in ages man. haha, i just realised. blessed belated Christmas everyone (: this year has whizzed by so fast, yet it has been my most fulfilling year i feel. i've done and accomplished soooo much that i never expected to manage at all (: i really thank God for all the strength to make it through, and for paving the way and for every blessing ! everyday should be Christmas :D well, even though you find out things you really dont like about people, many other things just make up for it. well, in life you do have to make wrong decisions to learn from them. disappointments, imperfections, tears, joy, laughter, fellowship. all part and parcel of my much cherished life, what can i say. man, ive been so busy my whole holidays and school's starting so soon ! j2, oh man :/ getting old. haha, i'll catch up with the people i need to REAL SOON kay ? i miss you guys ! tracie, charmaine, christl, sharon, serene, mersa, joel!, mosey, sam, vernon, daniel (the extra crazy one; thanks for the laughter you've brought into our lives) i can't wait for retreat !! (:(: hope i can stayover Thursday, September 22, 2005, 10:44 p.m. okay, so i just printed 18 pages of coloured stuff for nothing. and i lost my frost somewhere in school ytd, proli in the library. gahh !! if anyone sees it please return it to me. gahh, i hate losing the notes i need :( at least it's not only bad stuf happening to me lah (: sometimes unexpected things do happen in your life and gives you a reason to smile. of course, not forgetting that God's alwys with me. please let me find my frost :( thanks to liy, anita, james, barbie and akesh my study buddies. haha, i think if i werent in 1d, i'd proli be hating life in RJ now, but everything's worked out so well (: come to think of it, You have blessed me so much (: and also thanks to sarah and cand for being such great friends :D:D haha, for all the laughter, the joy, and the pmsing, and liy and claredear too, i love you guys (: Friday, September 9, 2005, 11:55 p.m. insecurities. havent felt tht for a long time, or rather i've been pushing it aside, but its all coming back to me now. yes, i do have insecurities. been studying quite often, thts a good thing i guess. glad we had time to unwind on wed (: really enjoyed myself, and it's been a LONG time since i bowled a 160-170. but i think i overstrained my fourth finger, it may be a sprain i think ? can you sprain your finger ? sounds weird. my wire's out, things are starting to go haywire. i'm off Monday, August 29, 2005, 02:44 a.m. another three am night/morning for me. PW is seriously killing my sleep. was using my other comp jus now before it hung. and it hung jus aft i finished saving the stuff on diskette. thank God for tht man, i dont knw wht to do if i hadnt saved it. life's all about making choices, its the crossroad for me now, if tht makes any sense to you. oh wells, i'm off to sleep. i'm seriously gna die tmr with the rehearsals and lack of sleep, nights (: oh another thought, on how i can never do things alone. ding said jus knw tht ure your best friend (: haha, makes sense doesnt it. conversations with tht old man are seriously thought provoking. haha, sam, dont tell ding i called him an old man :D nights (: Thursday, August 11, 2005, 09:25 p.m. corrinne may concert last night with maine, ding, matt, jieren, sharon and her friend, joshua, joe tee, sam and marvin. haha, sorry if i left out anyone ! BUT it was GREAT ! my goodness, i think she sounds FAR BETTER live compared to in her cd. thts quite rare considering we'r living in a world full of voiceing over and i dont knw wht else. and the 25bucks doesnt do justice to her at all. but the acoustics were great, her singing was the best, and she plays the piano and guitar really well too (: her lyrics are so meaningful, and they'r issues tht are close to the heart too. i dont knw, i jus felt it was truely a heartfelt performance. she has such a great personality, haha, she's so bubbly, and through her lyrics you can tell tht she's a Christian. haha, i dont knw, but i really respect her for wht she's doing and somehow i'm really glad i went for the concert cause it was far more than a concert (: haha, im gna buy her cds (: Don't try to hide away from me I know you're [ not ] by my side Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look at Paradise You could be next to an angel in disguise Everyday can be legendary Every minute, an endless surprise You could be the next angel in disguise thts from her song angel in disguise, i guess i heard the song too late, for awhile you were my angel in disguise and now you've gone away. well, here's all i have to say to you, you knw tht everything's up to you now You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be praying every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away Tuesday, August 9, 2005, 09:07 p.m. class party was really fun last night, though i got quite tired after awhile (: haha, thanks for coming guys :D haha, the cheesecake turned out horrible, i think the first one was so much better but only a few people got to eat tht one. haha, cause we had no time to buy the choc from the hotel we had to compromise and use hersheys for the fondue, and it turned out really chunky. haha, im never going to bake ever again, serious. maybe i'll try cooking and see how it goes, haha but i dont think tht wld be sucha great idea. it was great talking and walking cand ! haha, i really thank God for such a funky class :D and a class thts so bonded as well :D i knw ive said this a thousand times, but i really do mean it, esp after being in a different class for the first three months. my plans to watch fireworks fell through today :( had dinner at NUS, and i didnt get to catch any of the fireworks at all. and the festival wont have the same kinda feeling as the actual day itself. oh wells, there's alwys next year i guess. it's jus different watching it from my window and watching it at esplanade/clarke quay. gahh, oh wells. econs and maths test this week, i'd better go study for my econs man, and for promos as well, and finish my pc essays (: all the work, oh wells, kristine, take pride in your work i'm off Sunday, August 7, 2005, 08:20 p.m. in the process of baking my cheesecake now. haha, now i knw why i dont step into the kitchen or attempt to bake. my mum made me drink barley so it was beside me. haha, thinking it was lemon juice i poured it into the mixture. haha, thankfully i decided to bake two cakes so hopefully the other one will turn out fine. haha, the crust for the first one is abit burnt also. haha, now you knw why i need a husband tht cooks. haha, cause i'll either blow the kitchen or the food up. Saturday, August 6, 2005, 11:34 p.m. sth elder wee said today at yf (: haha, so many times we knw wht we have to do but we never ever get down to doing it. i think it's time this should change (: like how i, and we should start studying (: and doing my quiet time regularly, and replying the long overdue letters, and so many more things (: today's message/workshop by elder chia was good. on charismatic churches. now i'll knw wht to say on certain issues cause i didnt before (: it was also quite funny when he played us the recording of a sermon preached in one church which includes the speaking of "tongues". well, i still firmly believe tongues has ceased and its supported by verses in the Bible. teeth are still killing me, and i cant eat properly ! gahh, better go sleep soon for service tmr (: one last thing class party at my place on 8th august, 530pm please tell me if ure coming kay :D see you guys on monday ! lovelots Saturday, August 6, 2005, 01:54 p.m. finished my drq this morning, and i'm halfway through grapes. oh wells, haha, hopefully i can finish everything by tonight :D going for yf today for the first time in many many months, haha (: i had this dream last night tht i went to the US for my holiday and i spent 350bucks on chocolates to bring back. and i refused to buy starburst cause we can get it in singapore now. haha, how weird, i hope they import darrell lea and more cadbury and dove flavours soon :D Saturday, August 6, 2005, 12:31 a.m. krist (: says: den ill buy you krist (: says: durian milkshake krist (: says: haha its finally over! says: lol its finally over! says: i doubt they have its finally over! says: durains shells r too spiky and huge to be put into the blender krist (: says: haha krist (: says: i make for you ! krist (: says: lol krist (: says: you take out the flesh lah ! krist (: says: you knw they peel the banana before they blend it right krist (: says: haha its finally over! says: true thts joshua for you, haha, at 12:34am Friday, August 5, 2005, 11:52 p.m. someone stop the pain, please Friday, August 5, 2005, 10:27 p.m. left school early today :( and i missed maths !! oh wells, i hope she hasnt gone through section c yet. haha, i shall go do some work later :D tightened my braces today, and dr boey gave me an extra thick wire and she tightened it so much it hurts as much as it did when i first put in on. ahhhh, but it's bearable, jus tht i cant eat my fruits ( yay :D ), shhh, haha, and i cant eat meat tht much. hope it doesnt hurt tht much by tmr cause i really do wanta be able to eat normally. haha, i'm so glad our class blog is up and alive :D haha, and 1d's sucha a fun class. haha, it's like we'r one big family :D gp was really funny today when akesh and bhavan asked dee and clarebear to start all over again so they didnt have to present theirs. haha, and they really did :D lol, i think i shall complete all my essays by this weekend and the last part of my econs drq. miss ngin went to tell my mum tht teachers are complaining tht i havent been handing in my homework, gahhh anyways, sorry for telling you guys the wrong locker code :D:D haha, i seriously got confused cause i dont knw which is which. when i look at my lock it jus comes to me naturally. haha (: i remembered to stay up to watch oc last night :D haha, sometimes watching these shows makes me want someone to be here with me, you knw wht i mean. haha, oh wells :D:D went back to st nicks today and had orange bowl while waiting for my sister to end school before all three of us went off for dental. haha, i really miss st nicks so much. the nice big windy canteen with the nicest food and atmosphere in the world. it's only after i left tht i realised how lucky i was to be in st nicks :D haha, its good to look back sometimes. haha, i'm glad i have a funky class to make up for leaving st nicks :D Thursday, August 4, 2005, 07:06 p.m. went for a 20min run aft i got home :D haha, i'm so proud of myself, haha, i cant believe i actually ran non-stop. den i walked a few rounds to warm down. haha, and did my situps :D oohhh, vincent ng, jacelyn tay, the haoyi woman and the dad in king of gamblers are filming in my estate. haha, i ran past them a few times. it was quite interesting cause i saw them film a car scene (: i've never seen tht. haha, they sort of clip the camera to the side of the car. haha (: school today was really nice cause the weather was good :D haha, fell asleep during gp and cand and steve put nutella on my lips and i didnt even knw until i felt sth on my lips when i woke up. woops (: steve take care of tht back of yours kay ? (: i forgot to bring my loacker again today. i shall write a note to remind myself to bring it tmr. haha, IHC was good ytd, and the weather was so nice ! if only everyday in singapore was like tht :D haha, then i wldnt mind it tht much. not tht i dont love singapore, haha, i find it a blessing to be a Singaporean. the only thing i resent is the education system and how sheltered most singaporeans are. okay, the juice tastes weird. rushed off for trg aft IHC ytd so i didnt get to stay for the whole thing :( nevermind ! haha, trg was really tiring, haha, and i was bowling so badly i really have to start trg SOON. wednesday league at the club after tht, haha, i guess it was better. but i think my main BIG problem is my sparing. it's really horrid. oh wells, haha (: off to dinner now, im hungry (: Monday, August 1, 2005, 06:18 p.m. YAY :D haha, everyone's back in class already ! haha, onedee's back (: haha, i have this sudden craving for orange bowl guotiao mian gan jia tang :D:D and abit of chilli, haha, my favourite combination. i knw it sounds weird, the gan jia tang, but seriously, its really nice. haha, once you try it you'll never go for jus tang alone cause it'd be so tasteless. haha (: and i jus remembered, i forgot to add tht i bumped into joefats chiew tsin mum porkbun, haha (: and dinah !! haha, pleasant surprises, i really miss st nicks alot, esp the food and the uniform (: i can't stand our current uniform, haha, esp cause i bought my shirt the wrong size. haha lessons were okay today (: was falling asleep during PC but at least now i knw wht grapes of wrath's abt and i can go do it :D haha, and i shall attempt to finish both essays by today (: haha, james, go do your essays also ! we've got three now you knw. haha, and sarah :D:D go do hurry hurry :D haha, i knw you'll do (: talking to yingheng now, one of my long lost friends. haha, i havent talked to him in AGES. haha, it's so nice when you don't talk to some of your friends for sooooo long but you can still talk non-stop when you start again (: geri hey ! haha, i hardly took anything during RHD with you ! we have to take sometime kay :D haha, and i linked you :D haha, i'm glad you're back in school ! missed having you ard ! see you tmr kay :D haha, lovelove denise hellohello ! haha, i linked you too ! thanks for the advice/encouragement (: and for helping me realise wht i overlooked (: tht God will bless whatever's done and take care of the rest :D i really thank God for fellow Christians like you :D it makes things so much easier somehow (: see you in school tmr ! lovelove maine hello my dearest twin :D haha, where have you disappeared to over the past week ? haha, never come for service ! you went bishan ? haha, i love you and i miss you too ! haha, eeyer, haha, so gross and mushy, haha, stop acting les. haha, i knw you like me but i only like you as a friend. haha =p if people didnt knw who you were they'd really think we'r les lah ! haha, wht if joshua gets jealous ? haha, oh yay :D den i can see you every sunday without fail (: haha, it'd be so fun ! haha, so ure going for camp right ? please say yes (: haha, eh, you knw i love all you girls equally right ! haha, you arh, have fun in school and dont forget to think of me kay :D haha, kiddings, like some psychogirl. haha, thts you not me =p okayokay, see you on saturday ! i think im going (: loveyouloads i'm so glad to have a group of Christians in class, and not jus nominal Christians (: it's definitely not a segregation cause i still love each and everyone of my classmates the same (: haha, not in tht way though. haha, thank God for providing and leading the way all this while :D haha, it's amazing how things work out to be :D but i'm glad, and really thankful. God is good, you just have to trust in Him (: i jus remembered sunday's sermon was on things tht we cant explain or cant even understand. there are many things in life tht we'll never be able to comprehend, and only God knws, yet everything turns out find, cause we have a great big wonderful God who loves us so. it's jus too amazing to comprehend (: Sunday, July 31, 2005, 07:45 p.m. Lord, I offer my life to You Everything I've been through Use it for Your glory Lord I offer my days to You Lifting my praise to You As a living sacrifice Lord I offer You my life jus got the mail from wendi. i'm really glad tht technology has allowed us to communicate with people who are so far away, yet dear to our hearts (: wht she said is right, it is hard, with all the distrust tht has built up. i will try, i wanta be a good testimony for God. maybe God's using this whole situation to teach me sth, and to be a channel through which His Word and His Love can be spread. i don't knw, but i'm just going to try. sth struck me today when ruth was talking abt the Bible being a mirror for us. it helps us identify parts of our lives tht we'r going wrong. sometimes i feel tht within myself i have too much pride, please tell me if you see it. trying to get rid of it so i can focus on God's word, and truely recognise tht He's sovereign in my life, and not me. Humbly now before Your throne I seek Your ways to know Teach to me humility Forgiveness that You show Pure devotion, like an ocean I want my faith to grow So give to me an undivided heart Renew in me a steadfast spirit Remove my heart of stone Complete the work begun in me- This seed that You have sown My life I bring, my everything My ways to You are known I seek from You an undivided heart Faithfully the Lord obey The commands He gives today To love and serve the Lord in heart And soul in every way Lord, I thirst to know You more To walk in all Your ways A life that’s guided by Your word A heart that learns to pray And now my vision is in submission To You, and You always Please give to me an undivided heart Lord, give to me an undivided heart went down to watch dr william tan today, and to meet zhaoyu for a short ten min aft dropping my brother off. he really amazes me with his determination to go on. i think i shall start exercising and not take for granted good health. i remember i met dr tan in australia when we celebrated aunty kristine's wedding anniversary. haha, but i can't really remember wht happened alr, only tht the food was really good and daniel, melissa and david did a really beautiful job with the deco and all. it was really nice (: off to do my grapes of wrath and the woman at the zoo, haha, i like the woman at the zoo somehow (: Saturday, July 30, 2005, 02:18 p.m. For all I've been blessed with in this life There was an emptiness in me I was imprisoned by the power of gold With one honest touch, you set me free Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life, I was loved by you For every mountain I have climbed Every raging river crossed You were the treasure that I longed to find Without your love I would be lost Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life i was loved by you ; colin raye in this life Saturday, July 30, 2005, 12:57 p.m. i still have no idea wht im going to do today. and i finally remembered wht i was supp to do this morning, thanks to benny, like maybe 15min ago ?! haha, i was supp to go for ptm which i forgot to tell my mum abt and my appointment time is LONG over. haha, woops, i knew i had sth to do in the morning but i jus cldnt remember wht it was :D did the pw interview ytd in town and had a yummy dinner :D haha, i want to watch charlie and the chocolate factory ! and the truth abt love ! i almost watched it ytd aft the interview but my mum wont let me :( oh wells, haha, and the ice princess show, or sth like tht. i think thts the title :D anyhows, had a great time at pe ytd ! haha, and we beat the other class at floorball (:(: haha, it was such a funny game plus i really like playing floorball. haha, i still remember playing floorball at midnight during yf camps, haha, playing all the way till like 6am in the morning before deciding to go sleep (: haha, brings back good memories :D i feel like im growing old already. well, today's the last dance lesson tht im going to have :( i really like it but i think, and my mum too, tht its better for me to stop. oh wells, then there's interclub today so i shall go down since it's at sicc :D haha off i go, im hungry and i need to shittttt. sorry (: Thursday, July 28, 2005, 09:42 p.m. and so they lost, 24-0 :( i bet steven and james are super happy now, i knw bhavan is. haha, oh wells :D at least tht was acsi's lousiest win, the second is 27-0, so tht shd be a consolation :D i missed the WHOLE match thanks to the ineffiency of the pe department. i mean, who spends TWO AND A HALF HOURS doing five stations plus 2.4 ?! seriously, the five stations took TWO LOOOONGGGG hours to complete. seriously, they should learn from st nicks and set up stations so tht it's far more efficient. goodness, someone HAS to do something about it. and another thing, our chinese teacher wouldnt let us outta the class for napfa. i mean, if its the last day, and its tht urgent, and the principal approves of carrying napfa out at such a time, why cant they jus inform the various departments to release their students. grrr, oh wells, its over, and napfa was okay, i think i got a gold, if i didnt run too slowly lah, haha, i think i did a super slow 15min run. haha, i realised i slow down by one minute every year. anyhows, class is funfun :D i shall go try and do some of the genetic engineering shit for gp. boring man, so much abt trying not to be slack, its not working. sorry, im jus grumpy :( to kohzy i dont knw if you'll read this but thanks for dancing with me today :D i think we did great for crashcoursers, haha, whatever you call it. and it's a thumbs up kay (: you did good for napfa :D zheng and wj hee, you guys were superb :D haha, thanks for bearing with me and my nonsense, haha, but i had ALOT of fun ytd and today preparing for the thing :D:D haha, yay, lovelove Thursday, July 28, 2005, 09:19 a.m. haha, having gp now, the lazy teacher has just gone out to do something. haha, she's a slacker lah. the dance went pretty well. whew, i didnt forget anything, happyhappy :D haha, but my feet are full of blisters and i have to do my napfa later today. oh wells, haha, liyana jus asked me to say kristine loves liyana cause she's so nice. haha, so random, awwwww :D sarah is jealous now, okay sarah, i love you too (: HAHA, i seriously love my class man (: haha, i hope my brother's playing today, haha, i knw tht he really wants to play. hope they win :D it'll boost their morale. hi denise and liyana haha (: i look horrible in the photos too ! haha, but nevermind lah, it's natural (: haha Wednesday, July 27, 2005, 09:01 p.m. crash course dance lesson, haha, but at least it wasnt as bad as the first time i went for class. dont knw if i shd go this saturday though. my feet hurt real badly though. sometimes i really dont knw wht im waiting for anymore. i cant say my whole heart's into it but i want it to be, but there isn't any chance. im sorry i was too late, sometimes i don't even knw if we're even friends anymore, so much has changed. oh wells, there's so much going through my head i don't wanta think anymore, i'm tired. thank God tht cand's better :D and so is geri. please pray tht nick will get better soon ! and there's one less worry today (: Tuesday, July 26, 2005, 03:14 p.m. okay, photos here (: matteo krist and guilio (: guess who ?  class photo (:  sarah krist and liyana (: Monday, July 25, 2005, 04:50 p.m. went to meet the matteo and guilio in the end then mum picked me up from aunty doreen's place. haha, andre's so cute !! :D:D thts aunty doreen's son. haha, i havent seen alexia yet though, soon lah, haha (: and guilio's so funny. haha, he was wearing only one sock ! haha, found out tht in italy they have this thing called beach tennis, and they even have a special racket for it, so cool (: i wanta go try :D haha, i shall post the picture i took with them up later (: had the antidrug dance thing ytd youth park (: haha, i screwed up like so many times i think sarah got irritated cause i kept making noise, haha, as i was dancing. woops :D but the video looked quite good :D haha, i'm glad it's over. haha, went down to visit cand with sarah, dennis and sam (: steve came too and so did james and daniel. i hope we didnt make her too tired ytd :( hope she gets well soon. dinner at holland v with steve, james, daniel and sam. the food was quite good but it was SUPER ex, who pays SIX BUCKS for NASI LEMAK ?! haha, the guys ate more though, craziness. den they started telling stories abt spirits and how their personal encounters. it was horrible, i cldnt sleep well last night. i freaked out when my cushion dropped on me as i was falling asleep and this morning i heard wailing noises from some neighbour, and i heard them jus now when i got back again. freaky. anyhows, bussed back with steve and james, haha, and i was listening to the recording of "the fruit of the spirit" tht i took during childrens' camp (: i love the kids, haha, i miss them man, i think i shall help out next year if my mum allows :D school today was okay except i was really sleepy cause of last night :( i somehow lost my appetite. YES, i do lose my appetite sometimes. cldnt even finish a bowl of porridge and a cup of lemon tea. i dont knw whts happening to me man, having a headache too. screwed up my PC, haha, and i thought i did okay (: well, i think we didnt do well for PC lah, hopefully frost is okay, haha, thank goodness i passed :D decided not to go for maths remedial, haha, i shall go when miss chen's doing functions. i think functions is my worst topic. well, gotta go my cock-crow :( haha, its a horrible piece man, let's see how much i can crap out (: haha, photos are up (: now for the replies to the gbook entries :D cat hellohello miss dinosaur ! i linked you already (: you ! get well soon so you can dance kay :D missed you ytd ! see you ard in school (: lovelove wj hello my miss-help-me-do-my-eyeliner :D haha, thanks for helping me again :D hee, the purple's nice ! haha, anyhows, you did great ytd :D:D haha, i think we all did great despite the screwups (: send me the video kay ? loveyouloads (: see you ard in school ! i linked you :D clarissa helloyou (: haha, it was nice studying with you the week before cts. haha, hope all went well for you :D see you ard soon kay :D and i linked you already :D take care and God bless :D ping hee, im very indirect right :D haha, when are your hols ? if i'm not wrong it's like in sept/oct or ard then right. gahh, i'll be studying then man ! haha, how's school been for you ? haha, fun ? school's been pretty good for me :D haha, and i love my class (: haha, adverts are so cool :D haha, oh when did she see me ? haha, i didnt see her ! yes, let's go out sometime soon ! haha, havent talked to you in AGES ! take care and have fun kay ? love you loads dear (: God bless ruyu hello my exsittingpartnerrr !! haha, yay :D you gave me so many :D haha, how've you been ? hope ure doing fine :D must go out soon kay ? i miss fourhope :( loveyouloads :D take care k rach haha, hello dear :D sorry i havent really been around much, but i'm really glad we have the black book :D all the best for getting back your results kay ? love you loads ! and hope the peerleading went well :D im sure you did good :D:D hee, loveyouloads ! see you on sunday (: nick aei, haha, i lost your blog add, can you give it to me again ? sorry ! :D roland aei, haha, i still havent seen your new phone ! haha, is it still new and without scratches ? haha, dont tell me you have a blog too, anyhows, see you around in school :D:D haha Saturday, July 23, 2005, 02:43 p.m. this is from a mail tht wendi sent me which struck me the day which i brought myself to forgive you, so don't say tht i havent. Today's sermon:God's Forgiveness big idea: Forgive others, just as God forgives us...so we can be set free. Matthew 18:21-35 This passage was abt the evil servant who, despite being released from his impossible debt to his master, still tortured a fellow servant who owed him peanuts compared to his own debt. It also speaks of how the master harshly punished the evil servant for what he did. We are like the evil servant if we fail to forgive others and we'll face the wrath of God. God has a forgiving character. "By the death of Jesus we are set free-for the forgiveness of our sins, in accordance with the richness of God's grace which he has lavished on us." ~Eph1:7-8 The emphasis is on the word 'lavished'. God's forgiveness for us is overflowing, even though we don't and will never deserve it. He released us of our unrepayable debt and forgets abt our sinful past. If God is able to do that to us, why can't we forgive others who owe us something that's worthless compared to our own sin?? Think abt it...do you harbour any anger or hatred on anybody?? For something that you feel that its unforgiveable??? Stop...think abt what you have done to God. Don't you think our own doings are worse?? As i sat there in the sanctuary today, i felt ashamed. For all these years, i've found it really hard to forgive others, sometimes, hard to forgive myself. The need to seek justice for myself was so great that i forget all that i've learnt for Christianity. For a long time, i hated someone who took away my then 'love' of my life but i've come to realise that it was part of God's plan. I never got round to telling her that i forgive her. In fact i caused things to turn around that made it seem that i had my 'revenge' even though it was unintentional. I've regretted that ever since. This day she is still my friend and i pray that she is still keeping God closeby. Today i am not angry or hate anyone...perhaps i've just forgotten abt it. However forgiving is not forgetting. When we forget, it doesn't make the problem go away. When we forgive somebody, we are stopping the blaming and it releases that person and yourself of the hatred. If we don't forgive others... It'll lead to resentment, we'll end up hurting ourselves instead! This resentment will snowball into bitterness. It will: 1) Destroy our relationship with God 2) Destroy our relationship with others 3) Harm our mind and personality (depression) 4) Harm our health A story was told of this man. He has never been liked by the people in his neighbourhood. He never really did anything bad but people just stayed away from him. Even the children are scared of him. For his life, people didn't want to be near him. People figured that he must have a terrible secret like he had killed somebody. When he was on his death bed, he requested to see the pastor. He told the pastor that he had come to realise that his hatred had cost him his life. When he was younger, somebody did a grevious deed to him. He told himself that he'll remember that and hate that person for the rest of his life. At first, it started as something small but as the years went by, these thots of hatred filled his mind. He was constantly thinking abt it. He couldn't work anymore even though that had been his passion. His health deteriorated cos he was always depressed. Everyday went by with him thinking abt how much he hated that person. At his last breath, he realised all was in vain. He had allowed something small ruin the future he could have had. Are we like dat? Do we want to be like dat? If we forgive others... it'll set us free! Free from resentment and bitterness. Free to move on to better things! Free to enjoy what God has blessed us with. Forgiveness is giving that person a clean slate, a record wiped clean. How can we do that? 1) recognise that God is the Judge. He alone is worthy to judge others. 2) Forgive others as Christ forgives us. Make the decision to forgive. 3) Confess our sins to God. We are weak so we need God's strength. 4) Treat that person with kindness. Overcome good with evil. Leave room for God's wrath. Forgiveness is a difficult and costly task. But it'll be more costly if you don't forgive. Are you hating someone today for doing something bad to you? Are you just thinking abt revenge and justice?? I urge you to stop and think abt what Christ has done for us. Treat that person with sincere kindness, not with an ulterior motive. By doing that, you're heaping burning coals on his/her head. You will create a great impact on his/her life that will make him/her repent for what he/she has done. I know that this is something that's quite difficult to do. We can do this together by praying for each other, encouraging each other. This world is not easy to live in but God's with us. He sends his angels and He sends his love through fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. By being aware of this is actually the first step. Let's walk this path together. of course my extent of dislike is not to the point of hatred or tht it's affecting myself, but i dont wanta keep it in my heart proli going to meet the italian boys aft visiting candice cause their flight is like at ONE AM. haha, well, it's a thirteen hour flight anyways. haha, was talking to miss veera ytd and she said i'm much better in 1d or at least it seems like it is so to her. haha, i told her i am. honestly i'm really glad i changed class :D the environment here is really good and i think i can better my chinese grade :D and im starting to enjoy lit much more compared to when i was in 1e, haha, and history too, and i love my classmates :D haha, i'm off, Praise God for the blessings in disguise (: Friday, July 22, 2005, 10:04 p.m. today was okay (: haha, kinda odd and quiet without sarah and cand. BUT, haha, liyana kindly entertained clare and i during maths when we paid her 1000 ehhh, i forgot wht currency it was. haha, i cldnt stop laughing and ended up crying with a tummyache. okay, tht didnt quite make sense but you get the idea. haha, liyana's sucha funny girl. and sean was so entertained with our conversations. haha had a really slack pe lesson today, haha, all of us jus sat in the weights room ( which stank ) and listened to something about physical training. haha, wasnt really listening, but not like i'd use it anyways. and i have napfa next thursday, happynewyear (: haha, and daniel ! we forgot to ask about the articles !! ahhh, haha, nevermind, tuesday kay ? haha having the antidrug high on life thing this sunday, tht means i'll have to skip yd :( but i'll still go for service lah. haha, didnt go to sentosa in the end, and they'r leaving tmr already. i shall see them proli in a year's time ! haha, stayed back and talked to steven and then nick came along and they started throwing the rugby ball around. haha, was really funny man. and then i came home to watch love me if you dare :D:D cap pas cap Like? Eating ants, insulting the unemployed... loving you like crazy the show's really sweet, haha, some how i really like french films (: cried as i was watching, haha, i like movies tht make me cry and laugh (: haha, now i really dont knw wht im feeling, i feel like im forcing myself to stay out of love, but then again it depends on my definition of love. i finally knw how it felt for you, now it's my turn, or so i think Thursday, July 21, 2005, 09:48 p.m. yay :D it was racial harmony day today. haha, got my sair ytd at little india tog with cand and sarah. but cand's down with fever today. take care kay dear (: i missed you today ! and sarah's down with a really bad flu : ( why is everyone falling ill ? both of you take care kay ? (: anyhows, haha, sarah taught me how to wear a sari today (: it's seriously an art to wear it nicely, and also to walk up the stairs with it. i kept stepping on my sari :( haha, but anyway, it was really quite fun today. haha, and the malay singer during assembly was really good ! haha, he's so cute ! haha, lessons were boring today, haha, but econs was really funny. haha, especially with akesh and him covering his whole head. haha, it was really funny (: and it was really nice to see most of us in ethnic costumes, like sarah, liyana, geri, daniel, sean, akesh, steven, bhavan and edmond ! and we got third for the best dressed class thing :D haha, YAY (: 1d rocks my socks. haha, and we took nice photos today (: uploading them now. haha, i seriously love my class. but i dont like the school, haha, they'r so unenthusiastic about the whole thing. like how many times in your life do you actually get to dress up like tht and not be dismissed as crazy. right (: haha i still dont knw if i shd go to sentosa with matteo and julio tmr. haha, but they'r leaving on saturday alr ! haha, tmr's gna be another happy day (: haha, i shall update my links now. today's photos are here and the rest will be up in the links (: Monday, July 18, 2005, 06:52 p.m. watched Mounam Peseyathe ytd. haha, don't ask me wht it means cause i really don;t knw. haha, it was on central ytd. did i ever mention tht i really like indian movies. esp those love movies. haha, they are WAY BETTER than hollywood movies. haha, seriously. and the indian women are all so pretty ! i love their eyes. haha, my cousin married and indian and my niece ( yasmin ) is really really pretty with really nice eyes :D:D actually she has really nice features and she's really pretty and she's so cute. haha, well, i guess asian eyes are nice too. haha, those almond shaped ones. had listening today, haha, i think it went quite well. it was much easier than the ones tht we did during lessons. haha, but i fell asleep before the thing started. it took REALLYREALLYLONG to start. i think at least three quarters of the class were sleeping. haha, went for dance after that. haha, well. it was okay, the same old thing. haha, i still prefer bowling better :D haha, and i keep thinking tht it's wednesday tmr and tht we have training. haha, whts up with me man. ohoh !! there's racial harmony day this thursday and we get to dress up :D:D yayyay :D:D haha, sarah cand and i are going to get saris :D oh man, haha, im so happy. i alwys wanted one but i never got to go and buy one. haha, i shall get a cheongsam too for chinese new year next year :D haha, somehow i like the asian culture much more now. haha, going back to my roots (: haha, gotta go and catch up on my assignments and do all the essays tht are really overdue. haha, oh yay :D my bro's team beat acsb, haha, so i think now they'r going to the quarterfinals or sth like tht. i really dont knw how it goes man. haha, and i think they'r having dinner at swensens now lah, courtesy of some alumni. haha, the good deals they get. haha, oh wells. okay, i better get off for my yummy dinner now :D:D Sunday, July 17, 2005, 08:29 p.m. school's been pretty good. haha, been getting back ct results, werent as bad as i had expected. but the maths was still a disappointment. nevermind, i shd be contented :D haha, it's only the first time afterall. i'd better start studying real soon man. haha, i'm super lagging behind (: woops ! dance ytd was pretty good, apart from the fact tht they made me dance the rhumba with jem, ALONE, and i still cldnt remember all the steps. haha, in the end michelle asked damian and jessica to dance with us too. woops ! haha, but they taught us the chacha ytd, some all new routine, apparently it's like for novice standard. haha, but it's really fun cause it's so fast paced. haha, and i think jem's really happy cause there are finally going to be drops. which reminds me, he'll proli drop me cause i'm so heavy. haha. but it's fun lah (: did PW at daniel's place before tht. sorry rach and yixian for not imforming you guys earlier about the interviews. haha, they were pretty last minute. but thanks so much for agreeing to do the interview :D:D the other interview with ben went REALLY WELL. BUT, the recording was really screwed up because of the interference from the laptop so we had to regurgitate wht we cld remember from memory. but thank goodness we got most of it, or so we think. haha, but he'll help us verify and change anything tht is wrong i guess (: church today was fine (: haha, i cldnt really identify tht much with the message was it was on being a wise leader, but i guess it'll come to good use. and also you don't have to be a leader of others but you have to be able to be someone who can lead herself (: so thts wht i'll use it for. haha, ruth made us start peerleading (: tht means for yd ( it stands for youth discipleship which is our sort of bible study ), we will take turns to prepare the lessons and teach them instead of ruth. so i started today with James 1:1-8. it went okay (: haha it's a good experience lah, i've never done anything like tht before. hopefully i'll put it to good use. still really rusty about the whole thing (: but i thank God for bringing be through it and helping me to understand the passage. haha, it's a good passage and a good reminder as to how we should really live our lives as Christians (: many "Christians" nowadays are merely Christians in name and don't show it in their actions. so it's a good reminder for us to live our lives the right way (: school's still getting better. haha, i really love my class now (: lalala, sorry cand and sarah for not being able to go today. haha, hope you guys are enjoying yourselves ! another time kay ! maybe we can have a movie marathon during the national day holidays :D:D and all the chocolate ! yummy. haha, see you guys in school tmr (: i really miss my secondary school friends. got to talk to yixian and shehui and renny for a short while cause i needed their help for PW (: and i went down on let's see, i think last tuesday for the first day of swim nats. haha, jus to see lynette and mel. haha, lynette ng ! haha, i dont knw if you'll read this but it was really good to see you again after SO LONG ! haha, was nice walking around and talking to you (: coffee soon arh ! haha. and mel haha, charlie and the chocolate factory next week or sth kay ? and the chocolate buffet :D:D yumyum ! haha kristine is a happy girl (: haha, dove dark chocolates are good but the margaret river ones are better :D i'm off Saturday, July 9, 2005, 12:41 p.m. brought the italian boys out ytd. sarah and dennis came along for tea :D haha, they'r matteo and julio. haha, matteo's the older one, but he looks younger. and they'r so skinny lah ! haha, mum drove us down to suntec while we walked around waiting for cand to come. sarah and dennis den had to go off so we went to meet the bowlers. haha, its really funny when they try to remember names cause there are so many to remember. haha, den cand came and we went to eat at the food court (: rushed off to watch fantastic four with sam, tina, eddy, chris and travis. haha, i think they understood the movie quite abit so thts good :D oh, they'r here to learn english at the british council. the movie was pretty good, some parts were really funny (: haha, after the movie the rest went back and i brought them to esplanade cause they didnt wanta go back yet. haha, havoc lah those boys. they really like the place, esp at night, haha, i like it too (: we were jus walking and talking and we walked all the way to one fullerton and back. haha, and when julio asked me wht the merlion was for i didnt knw wht to say. woops ! haha, i jus said it was a symbol of singapore. haha, not my fault. i shall go check wht it symbolises. haha, den we took the train back (: sometimes its a really nice to be able to talk to people of other cultures, sometimes, if you dont, you dont even realise the little things you take for granted. like they said singaporeans are really friendly and tht we'r really open, which is not like tht in italy. haha, and to think we alwys thought singaporeans were hostile. i think sometimes we should focus more on the good than bad in life, that way things would be much more beautiful. like on the train back, there was this lady who gave up her seat for this old grandma :D its really nice when you see people ard you sparing a thought for others, even if its jus a stranger. haha, they'r really funny boys, haha, and friendly too. nice (: i enjoyed myself last night. and happy bday eddyho the naked boy haha, did i mention tht eddy really cant communicate with matteo and julio. haha, it was really funny. oh, and the boys are really quite cute. i shall take photos the next time i see them. proli on sat (: Tuesday, July 5, 2005, 09:43 p.m. met mark huang weimin for lunch today, haha, good to see you once again BIMBO. haha, and this time instead of acting gay he's being a bimbo. haha, had lunch at crystal jade :D haha, my yummy xiaolongbao and zha jiang la mian. haha, yummy yummy :D but he's being a nice person and helping my group for PW :D haha, but he was really mean to the people tht we'r interviewing kay, seriously. 6 reasons why mark huang weimin is a BIMBO + AIRHEAD 1. he says he sweats instead of perspire, humans only perspire, animals sweat 2. after i kept making fun of him for being an airhead, he went "i'm not going to ask for you anymore" and concluded a few seconds later that he was being bimbotic by saying tht 3. "10,20 years ago" when he's not even 20 yet, haha, and he keeps calling me young punk 4. he claims tht its okay to bathe in acid rain 5. mark : "my friend bought the game of life and brought it to camp" me : "you mean you only jus started playing the game of life? " mark : "like since when did anyone play the game of life?" me : "like everyone" mark : "oh, i never played it" haha, sometimes you can be really amusing you knw, haha 6. and for the joke of the century ; after me making fun of him for really really long mark : "aei, dont get me started okay" me : " haha, get started on wht" mark : "ive been sitting here tolerating myself for very long already okay" he actually meant to say tolerating me, but due to some difficulties in expressing himself, due to the fact tht he's a bimbo, haha, he said something horribly funny and we cldnt stop laughing for quite a few minutes. haha, i hope you're reading this you BIMBO. haha, was fun seeing you again aft soooo long, aei, must help me kay :D haha he's being really lame now | M4®K | says: betta watch out | M4®K | says: i noe the loopholes in yr house kinder surprise (: says: haha kinder surprise (: says: like wht | M4®K | says: the | M4®K | says: toilet kinder surprise (: says: :/ kinder surprise (: says: haha | M4®K | says: yes. | M4®K | says: dun sleep too soundly tonite.. | M4®K | says: or | M4®K | says: it will be too late | M4®K | says: for | M4®K | says: regrets.. the toilet thing's cause i have an open air toilet :/ Sunday, June 26, 2005, 01:19 p.m. i thank God for good classmates :D Saturday, June 25, 2005, 08:13 p.m. back from endau rompin and perth (: my whole holidays were spent away from home man. helped out in childrens camp the first week, endau rompin the second, and was in perth the third. jus got back on wed actually (: perth was good, lots of shopping ! haha, managed to get good shopping (: and not to mention i went on a shopping spree with my mum jus a few days before we went to perth. ahhh, haha, spent alot of her money man. oh wells, not like i shop alot. i hardly shop compared to other girls i realised. like proli twice or thrice in a year. like really shop. haha, proli also because most of the time im broke and i spent more money on food than anything else. haha, we bought and brought back three boxes of biscuits, sweets and chocolates :D yumyum :D mm, the mission trip was a good experience. when you experience how others live, you really learn to treasure the things you have. sometimes, we really have no idea how fortunate we are to be in singapore. the girls stayed at pastor freddy's house, which although is a house, had lotsa lizard shit. which made me realise that though my room's in a terrible state, i shd really be thankful tht singapore's sucha clean place. and not to take toilet bowls especially for granted. haha, it was also very encouraging to be able to fellowship with our fellow christians in malaysia. the way they sing with their whole hearts, and their love for each other. it's really beautiful (: it was also good getting to knw people like kendrick, shaun, kenneth, graham and mersa better during the course of the trip. haha, and building stronger friendships with people like ruth, nick, wilfred, quan, justin and daniel (: so anyways, im taking a break from studying cause im on a studying marathon due to the fact i only started studying this thursday. ive finished maths and am left with one chapt of econs and half of international hist. im gna try and finish IH by tonight and start on SEAsian tmr, hopefully i can finish in one day. and lit can jus go and die cause i havent even bought my books yet. woops, not my fault. the bookshop aunty doesnt have them anymore. had class gathering cum house warming at just's house ytd (: his house is really nice ! haha, and i love the dance studio, oh man, i want one too ! haha, studied with jem, rayner, clarissa and zhunian in the morning then left with nick to get our stuf. cabbed to his house den mine den mum fetch us to bishan. met sean and sam who insisted on staying in bits and pieces, haha, so nick and i went down to meet candice and sarah and got sth for just (: im going shopping in far east aft cts i dont care :D haha, so much for not shopping alot. cabbed down to just's house. played alot of stupid games and sarah and i were challenging to see who cld hulahoop for a longer period of time. haha, but it was really fun lah (: though quite spastic. haha, but being spastic is fun. well, played truth or dare all the way till 11 plus den i left cause my dad was pretty pissed off cause it was so late alr. okay, mum's nagging. better go now (: oh before i go; and HAPPY BELATED WUAN :DD though i wished you ytd alr (: Tuesday, June 7, 2005, 11:10 p.m. back from camp fruity :D haha, childrens camp this year lah. haha, it was really good (: photos here haha, i love the kids (: it was a good experience helping out (: haha, some of the kids are really rude though ! and crude ! they'r mainly the older ones though. haha, well, parents nowadays pamper their kids far too much. haha (: baked for the first time (: haha, bailey's cheesecake. turned out, surprisingly, pretty good :D haha, yay yay ! watched madagascar ytd, oh man, i love the show. haha, it's so corny and funny ! (: today was quite boring, except i bought kinder surprise. haha, yummy yummy :D i got the same toy as daryl ! haha, ooohhh, uploaded my photos already, check the links or here; jem's bday, nationals 2005 and dance night (: Tuesday, May 31, 2005, 10:21 p.m. haha, jus watched abit of miss universe. haha, not bad, i think this year's standard is higher. haha, went to see mrs chia with geri to consult her on our essays, haha, now i knw where i went wrong :D but at least she said my structure improved :D hee, went down to sgss to help out for the preparation of children's camp. haha, maine and i have become matthews slaves. but nevermind, for the sake of the kids (: i'm doing games and doubling as a maid, washing all the pots and pans and making breakfast for them. haha, milo only i think. whoever said i was pampered huh. haha alrights ! haha, ill be back soon :D the world's a much nicer place Sunday, May 29, 2005, 01:46 p.m. holidays are finally here :D haha, had chinese oral on friday den attempted solitaire on toots' ipod mini. oh man, haha, im so proud of myself, i finally won :D haha, it's seriously darn hard to complete the game kay. haha, went down to thompson plaza to get stuf for the mission trip and bought stickers and dinner (: haha, met jem den went for daisy pulls it off with the rest of my class. haha, 1D rocks :D the production was good (: haha, i couldnt stop laughing at the last part though, but it was enjoyable :D saw celine for the second time in the week too :D haha, and poks and junghans watched it with the rest of the councillors. haha met nicolette in the morning ytd den headed down to sentosa for the yf outing :D haha, bumped into charmaine, karina, shuwei, tanessa, janice, samuel and lynette ! haha, oh man, i havent seen you in donkey months dear ! haha, we'd better go for our coffee soon kay (: congrats to your brother for getting first and sam for getting third with your partner ! :D haha, and lisa for getting first too ! :D haha, was great catching up with lynette and jus sitting on tht dismantled carton talking (: haha, went home early den rushed down for an extended family dinner (: the food was good though most of it was seafood which i didnt touch. haha, ordered my favourite beef with brocolli though, while everyone was happily eating their seafood. and my brother jus had to squirt the black pepper sauce from the crab all over me and some went into my eye too. ewww, haha, and i jus realised last night tht daryl ( my cousin ) played in the hockey match tht i went to watch tht day. haha, and i didnt even knw ! lol, how blur. all of us went for waffles and ice cream aft tht at gelare :D haha, yummie, and jo lynn cldnt stop eating. haha, i think it runs in the family that we all eat humongous portions of food. not to mention, haha, she's skinnier than me ! did offering today, den had yd. haha, nothing much lah (: glad the holidays are finally here but i'll be busy with helping out at children's camp, the mission trip, family holiday, shopping and catching up with all my friends ! haha (: shoutouts; lynette hey girl, haha, it was great seeing you ytd (: i was so surprised to see you there lah ! haha, must go out soon kay ! haha, ure off on wed afternoons for trg right ? haha, maybe we'll go out on a wed then ! haha, must update each other on our lives (: love you loads ! take care and i'll see you real soon k ? jing hello jing :D haha, eee, you stole my photo ! haha, kiddings (: aei, we must have an outing during the hols kay (: with poks and zhaoyu too ! haha, i miss you guys loads man. you take care and ill see you soon kay ? love you :D take care ! ping haha, glad ure getting to knw God through your sister ? haha, are you goihng poly or sth ? you knw two of my friends are going laselle :D haha, anyhows, hope you've been doing fine ! :D haha, i think i need a new template too :D hee, hinthint. haha, if you're free and you dont mind, i wldnt mind a new template. haha, so indirect right. heh, you knw me (: anyhows, take care yeah ? love you loads and ill see you ard ! yaozhi hey dudes, haha, nice seeing you guys again, though coincidentally, at sentosa ! haha, but all of you looked so stone. yupps ! must go out soon, haha, i knw its my hols and not yours so you guys arrange kay ? cause i dont knw when you guys are free. haha, message me or sth lah (: take care ! and ill see you soon ! haha miss dinosaur hey dear ! haha, did you see our upside down photo ! haha, it's so nice ! im going to develop it. haha, miss you loads ! ill see you ard when sch starts or when im out (: do you have a blog too ? haha, take care and love lots (: mersa hey girl ! haha, my fellow handicrafts mate. haha, you crazy girl (: i hope all of us will have fun during the trip and hopefully the kids will enjoy themselves too :D haha, must control all the thirty kids kay :D haha, love loads (: Monday, May 23, 2005, 08:58 p.m. had bowling gathering at derrick's house again, haha, it was real fun but i shant elaborate cause im too lazy. haha (: had a blast, got dunked like ten thousand times. haha, im going to miss the j2 bowlers :D and cherie ! you did well in masters ! haha, trashed the guys ! lol, break your curse next year k ! haha had postdancenight party at nat's place yest. thanks kohzy for the lift down :D haha, and i still think you live in the drain. haha, tht message was really funny. but you live in a real nice drain though. picked huang jing up along the road. and tht derrick went to the wrong house. thanks to the guys for the extra entertainment. haha, hilarious ! haha, was quite fun and the food was good :D i miss dance night 05 ! : ( haha, but its good seeing all the dancers once again. had to leave early while they were watching bringiton2 though. haha jus had my hair cut today (: went shopping with my mum, bro, sis and jem. haha, was quite unproductive but at least my hair's thinner now, haha, finally ! jem decided not to cut his hair in the end. haha, had lunch at kam boat, the food was okay only lah, haha, i think the only thing tht was really quite nice was the steamed chicken rice (: den we continued shopping. haha, went down to the club to bowl and jem came along too. haha, not bad eh ! point and aim and you'll strike ! haha, apparantly it works for jem :D haha, quite fun lah, den we went to the pool for dessert before sending jem off at the mrt den headed home (: was a good day today, jus tht i have to finish my history and lit essays before i get white slipped. haha Monday, May 16, 2005, 08:13 p.m. haha, jus added my new photo links :D nationals were okay today (: ranked 22nd so far, i guess it's quite good considering i havent been bowling for past a year. haha, hope all the girls and guys will make it to the top 20 for singles :D:D go raffles ! doubles tmr (: bowling with toni ! haha, we'll kick some ass kay :D pray for us please (: and the rest of the team Saturday, May 14, 2005, 11:39 p.m. just got back from my last night of dance night 2005 :D haha, i really enjoyed myself these three days though it was really tiring and all :D and tonight's performance was a blast !! haha, sarah and i sneaked down to catch latin, gosh, they blew me away ! haha, and snuck down with kohzy, zheng and derrick to watch the gym one before i had to go off for my item. haha, it was a really good experience :D and ive gotten to knw so many more people. haha, (: now i jus have to recuperate for nationals ! yay :D haha, uploading the photos now :D Sunday, May 8, 2005, 03:40 p.m. went for dance for half an hour ytd before i had to leave for trg. haha, trg was funny at parts when cherie and i started singing colin raye's love me. haha, and puay yong said we cant sing. lol, trg wasnt tht bad. jus tht i can get excused from trg for my dance night rehearsals so aft trg on mon and wed i have to rush back to school for the remaining 2hrs of rehearsal. gna be a hectic week for me, hope i can endure all the physical torture man. haha, went for yf aft trg ytd. it was the study thing and once again, it served as a reminder for me to focus on wht im doing and not slacken. haha, tried to study but the guys were making so much noise. haha, dinner aft tht (: was really sleepy though. talked to ryan last night, haha, cheer up kay ? if you need someone to talk to again im alwys here (: a verse for you ; Ephesians 4:26 "Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath" (: keep that in mind kay. you'll get through this ! Provide things honest in the sight of all men. If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men Romans 12:17,18 haha, this verse was read as part of the scripture reading today in service. haha, the funny thing was rachel looked up and told me sth like this verse is good for you, haha, exactly wht i thought too. im glad God has put in me the patience and tolerance to endure whatever injustices i face, or many unpleasant situations (: went for abc today along with ruth, rachel and lois. jus crashed the thing, haha, it was quite good in the sense i'm now more informed abt buddhism and tht may come into good use in the future. it was abt evangelism to buddhists. quite interesting (: i'm glad we decided to go. anyways, haha, this week is really gna be super packed, juggling rehearsals and dance night itself with trg, den the next week are bowling nationals. haha, nevermind (: ill cope. then my holidays are going to be packed again. sorry i cant go to china with you toots. helping out in children's camp, then going on a mission trip to endau-rompin. haha, but it's good exposure :D den family holiday. haha, i need good shopping this year man. please, let the currency drop. haha (: alrights, fruits time, im off Tuesday, May 3, 2005, 08:29 p.m. Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you Matthew 5:44 it's really amazing how God's word speaks to you no matter what situation ure in (: praise God. haha, had dance on saturday. studied with junghans for awhile while waiting for miss rachel kee. haha, tht girl ! met her for lunch at kfc :D yummy yummy. haha, had a curry crunch meal and a shrooms meal. yes, okay, i knw i eat alot. haha, whts new. the curry crunch meal is REALLY REALLY good. haha, you can really taste the curry on the chicken. but of course, i still love my zinger burger the most :D haha, went muji shopping and spent a whole loada money. haha, but im happy with my purchases :D walked around somemore and went card shopping. like those namecard-sized cards. haha, it's really good for encouraging people along the course of your life and it's not really tht ex :D nicenice, haha, den bought my hairbands. finally, i broke 2 this year already. haha, hope i dont break these two again (: got more food (: the ramly burger is really good. chicken with cheese and mayo. haha, yummy ! it's some malaysian thing i think. haha, and had even more food aft church for fellowship tea (: maybe it's cause ive been in a good mood thts why my appetite has been increasing (: haha had trg ytd. yes, i knw it was a public holiday. haha, happy belated bday cherie (: haha, this is abit late but at least i wished you on the day itself okay. haha, you better show your appreciation ! haha (: went for a girls' team lunch at pizzahut. the food was yummy (: den we went hunting for berms. icecream at swensons (: we jus dug into cherie's bday cake. haha, shall upload the photos in awhile. ive got alot of photos which i havent uploaded. haha, walked all around town looking for berms until it was left with tuna, angelfish and me :D haha, did my shopping at heeren :D haha, im a happy girl. bought 4 shirts but of course i spent a bomb lah. team allocations are out (: i made it to the second team (: haha, thank God for His providence and His divine intervention. lalala, had dance today. starting to warm up more so it's much much better :D haha, kinda enjoyed the session today. poksies was having training. haha, love you poks (: must go out with jing soon k ! and jing ! i miss you :D okay, enough for today. i need my rest, haha, history essays kill me. Tuesday, April 26, 2005, 07:58 p.m. and i jus let you walk outta my life after all i put you through you still stuckaround and stayed by my side wht really hurt me is i broke your heart baby, you were a good guy and i had no right i really wanta make things right cause without you in my life boy i'm so lonely been all about the world ain't never met a guy tht can take the things you've been through never thought the day wld come where you'd get up and run and i would be out chasing you cause ain't nowhere in the globe i'd rather be ain't no one in the globe i's rather see than the guy of my dreams tht made be so happy but now so lonely haha, by popular demand, im gna blog today. haha, kiddings. went to watch the sound of music with jem and his two cousins. though the seats were really not tht good, but i still enjoyed it alot. haha, it's so innocent and heartwarming, and it's a really good musical to watch to get away from all the troubles tht you face in your life. felt much better aft watching it, though i had to come to terms with some things. haha, went to sit by the seaside until my dad came. once again he was telling me to grow up and all. and it suddenly occurred to me tht maybe it's not tht im jus not growing up. as i told him, sometimes it's cause i dont want to grow up and face so many things in life. well, we'll face our problems and not run away from them kay ? im with you too. and God's by our side, if you believe. had trg on monday, haha, it was pretty much okay cause my release's okay already. screwed it up the past week while i intensified my bowling schedule. haha, looks like sometimes too much of something isnt tht good at all. so much for practice making perfection. got by new bag, leyon excellent. haha, finally i don't have to lug one ball to school and to training (: 1D's really good. haha, i like the class loads :D and the people there are really nice and everyone's everyone's friend. haha, i like the whole feel of it and it's really fun ! (: chinese is abit boring though. but some to think of it, it's worth it lah, cause i dont wanta go to uni with a d7 for higher chinese. haha, YES, i got d7 :D haha, not my fault ! new eyecandy :D haha, yayness. i think geri's amused with me. haha, miss jing and poks ! haha, we have to go for a "THE POKS" outing soon kay ! plus zhaoyu too ! haha, hope he's doing fine. well, to you, im sorry about how insensitive i was last time to your feelings and not knwing how to cherish someone that's really important to me. ure still important to me, and i hope you'll find your happiness too. well, im glad we'r still friends. i knw we cant have the regular crazy talks we used to have every night, but i'll be praying for you, and im only a phonecall away (: Monday, March 21, 2005, 09:09 p.m. Sunday, March 20, 2005, 09:55 p.m. was jus reading through my past entries. and i guess it's good tht i have this, then it's so much easier to remember wht ive learnt but have put at the back of my head. sighs, so much has changed since last year. it's hard to cope, but i knw i'll pull through this. i still really miss you alot and love you as a friend. ure the most important to me still and i'll alwys be there for you. i knw tht things arent the same anymore but still friends yeah ? thanks for the past five years. i really appreciate all tht you've done for me. everything seems to be going wrong now. went to bowl jus now, trying to get my mind off things. but i jus cldnt do it. i cldnt even bowl past 120+, and tht made things more frustrating. thanks toots for talking to me (: i'm really glad and proud to be a Christian. was reading the past posts, abt no matter how alone you may be, God wld still be like the father who stood thru the darkness, along with his son. you may not knw it, but He's alwys there, keeping away evil and watching over you. how wonderful is His love for us :D for me and you. i knw i'll get thru this. maine, i'm still gna be here for you, sorry girl if i was abit too harsh last night kay. i still love you loads. take care of tht flu of yours. Wednesday, March 16, 2005, 03:12 a.m. ytd was really fun (: was great seeing the girls again though i jus saw them last sunday (: haha, love you dears (: oohhh, thanks maine my dear twinnie for talking last night. haha, it's the reversal of roles now tht i need someone to talk to. haha (: im gna take your advice :D thanks for pointing stuf out to me tht i never realised. you take care too kay ? hope everything's gna be fine for you :D no matter wht, krist is here for you :D lovelove and lynette ! hey superstar ! haha, ure really my superstar :D read in the papers tht you bettered your time for your pb :D proud of you girl ! haha, so how's life been treating you. wanta meet up this week for coffee ? haha, ill msg you kay ? dont knw if nag is over for you yet though. but take care and continue swimming well kay :D loveyouloads ! i miss seeing you ard !! talk to you soon dear (: had trg this morning at 12 and i woke up at 11. haha, had to rush like mad and brought my lunch there to eat. hitched a ride fr piglet again (: thanks piglet ! there's sth very wrong with me these few days. i keep throwing straight balls. hope ill bowl okay tonight ! :D Monday, March 14, 2005, 06:08 p.m. haha, i jus realised i sounded really bimbotic in the previous entry. haha, excuse me :D im jus quite high now :D Monday, March 14, 2005, 05:01 p.m. had trg first thing in the morning, tiredtired. hittched a ride fr piglet (: haha, and joel was singing in the car. haha, trg was quite OKAY lah, was bowling really badly and now my thumb kinda hurts. haha, angelfish's new ball looks like curry+chilli oil ! heh, sorry angelfish :D hitched a ride yet again from weijie who dropped me off at novena so i cld take a train down to town :D met twinnie, julia, rach kee and rach ang :D haha, had lunch at kfc, bumped into kendrick. haha, den we walked ard. went to AX to look for the top tht i want but they dont have it anymore :( but i found another top tht im planning to buy :D yayness. haha, went to isetan to check out the levi's sale, where rachang eventually bought this pair of shorts :D quite nice ! haha, we went into all my eeeee shops. like mango [EEEEEEEEE] and forever 21 [the second EEEEEEEEEEE] haha, but i ended up buying this top fr forever21, not my fault. it's really nice :D haha, i love it. twinnie bought the same top too ! haha, went down to fareast and they went to look at super SHORT shorts which ill never be able to fit into. haha :D wht to do, but like i care anyways. haha (: went back to wisma isetan to get rach's shorts. haha, bumped into alicia for the second time there. haha, and we bumped into timmy, tracie and yingquan too. and i bumped into darren at the mrt station. den headed to bishan cause i had to go home and rach had to meet the young kiddos. haha, and we bumped into edric at the station. so im home now, talking to the bowlers. haha, shall go off :D Sunday, March 13, 2005, 01:14 p.m. you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down we came together but you left alone and I know how it feels to walk out on your own maybe someday I will see you again and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend Saturday, March 12, 2005, 02:01 p.m. jus woke up (: and i woke up too late for dance again :( now i have to catch up when sch reopens. thts unless there's dance during the hols lah (: went for the bowling bbq/gathering thing last night at derrick's house. my gosh, his house is like some country club/resort/palace (:(: it's SUPERDUPER nice !! wells, mum drove piglet and i down at 6. i realised his house is jus like one lane away fr dru's house ! haha, and piglet happily fell asleep in the car. haha, walked right into his house and heard voices coming from downstairs so we went to the basement. HE HAS A POOL TABLE AND AN ENTERTAINMENT SYSTEM PLUS BAR !! oh man, i want his house !! haha, the pool game between nemo and tina was super funny. jus cldnt stop laughing. haha, you shd have been there to see it man. went up to get some food aft playing pool for awhile. haha, SPEACIL THANKS TO OUR DEAR TUNA FOR PREPARING THE FOOD AND PLANNING EVERYTHING (: haha, the food was good (: and haha, zhenghan was our qc guy. jus his excuse for trying to eat all the food first so no one will snatch it from him lah. haha, sang a bday song for derrick (: haha, it's his bday tmr ! oohhh, i forgot wht i did aft tht. oh ! haha, went down to watch zhenghan and george play pool. haha, george and his golden breaks ! haha, and zhenghan's face ! lol, hilarious. and when tht guy tried to golden break, he failed MISERABLY. haha, the black ball didnt even move lah. haha, awww. okayokay, i shant be so bad to you :D haha, then kenneth, travis and cherie came (: haha, and travis cldnt stop drooling ON toots. haha, disgusting lah you ! THEN, they started dunking people in starting with piglet. haha, and then tina, and bong and travis and derrick and kenneth and then.. me. they snatched my cam away fr me lah ! den marcus and shawn also got dunked it. haha, and we played water polo (: super fun !! haha, there were alot of pauses tho, haha, cause people kept throwing the ball out. we even threw it into the neighbour's house lah. haha, woops ! but it was super fun. and during one of the pauses, travis jus had to get out of the pool and jump back in, jus tht he landed on my head. gosh, i thought i was going to die lah, tht stupid guy !! he was acting real crazy last night. i wonder why, haha, aft tht we resorted to playing monkey aft one by one, people had to leave already. haha, quite fun :D den we dried ourselves up and went to talk with all the dry people. haha, and we ate derrick's bday cake. oh man, my favourite cake !! haha, i absolutely love the biscuit bottom :D:D went up to derrick's room aft tht, while the guys played table soccer (yes, he has table soccer) and i succumbed to the temptation of the nice bed of his. gosh, it's super soft !! haha, i like, tried to rest my eyes for awhile but tht travis kept hitting my head lah ! watched triumph the insult comic dog on derrick's comp. haha, it's super corny man. cldnt get wht it said alot of the times tho, cause i was glued to the bed which was quite far away. haha, went down to watch bong and kenneth and travis play pool aft tina, toni, zhenghan and jon left. den we finally left at 12 plus. haha, cabbed back with piglet and toos who so kindly dropped me off first :D:D thanks (: haha, den i fell asleep aft a long, but super fun and memorable day :D:D haha, ytd was the first time i enjoyed myself aft so long. haha, really really love the bowlers alot :D haha, it's the first time ive seen such a big grp of people so closely knitted and it's a really nice feeling :D:D haha shoutouts time ! POKBITE (: hey dear ! ure here :D haha, im so glad i have you in 1e :D haha, love you loads ! get well soon and stop sniffing ( glue ) kay ? haha, see you when sch reopens kay ? ILOVEYOULOADS ! josh haha, hey italian man, see you ard in sch ! hoped you liked your spongebob tho it's jus a LITTLE retarded. haha, i didnt knw wht else to get you :D mr tinkerbell hey you ! haha, ahhhh ! lol, you stupid pig, jus had to fall on me right. horrible. hope ure feeling better now :D max ! haha, hey neighbour ! lol, hope the game wasnt too bad tht day (: haha, nice seeing you ard in the club once in awhile. haha, how come ure alwys wearing the same thing every wed ? stacy (: hey girl ! haha, good tht ure alright :D haha, you take care too kay ! haha, and ill see you ard (: loveyou ! and ewwwww, i jus ate this piece of fish in my porridge. gross, why's there so much seafood in my food nowadays ? :( Sunday, March 6, 2005, 02:02 a.m. ewwwww, i accidentally bit into a prawn jus now during lunch ! haha, okay nevermind, quite outta point. haha anyways, HAPPY BDAY MR MAXIMISER/POKEMON LOVER/MR CORNY/MY LOUSY NEIGHBOUR THT DOESNT BATHE ! (: mm, wht did i do on friday. oohhh, haha, the a'level results came out so we ended at 12 :D haha, went out for lunch at kim san leng (: yummy duck rice ! and tht mark took so long to come to bishan so i ended up walking back to sch to meet kenneth and travis. haha, tht stupid boy finally turned up outside the rj gate so i made him walk all the way back to bishan so we cld catch up abit :D haha, congrats on your a's results ! dont worry lah, it's not tht bad okay ! haha, wonder how the rest did. mm, went down to ps with kenneth and travis to watch hitch. oh man, I LOVE THT SHOW :D:D super funny and yet there were some parts tht were really sad. haha, but i still love the show :D and i thought i lost my darling red bottle but it turned out tht i left it at the ticketing counter while we were buying tickets. haha, and i only realised aft the show. woops :D haha, walked ard before i went back to school to meet poks and they went for trg. haha, had to go to the club to bowl aft tht. haha, was quite okay lah (: went down to new life bp ytd for yf (: the first time tht i was involved in conducting a workshop. was quite fun lah, haha, tho some parts i cldnt think of anything to say. but hope they learnt something from it :DD haha, woke up 7 min late for service today so ended up going for yd only. and we had a little quiz on eschatology (: haha, quite corny. anyways, to twinnie and dingdongbell hope you guys are feeling better ! no matter wht krist is here for you kay ? love you guys loads (: everyone's so down. been talking to others abt how to make their problems better but i dont even knw wht to do with mine ! irony. tmr's gna be a brand new day. hope things will be better. EGGY MY FELLOW POKCHEW will be gone to 1S06F, but at least she's happy (: and she'll still be joining us for civics ! im gna miss you so much dear ! the poks will be missing one dear member. but at least i still have jing ! JING ! really hope you dont leave :( hope tmr will be a good day. and i havent seen my eyecandy in four days ! :( ahhhh, meeting dingdongbell tmr for lunch so his mind wont wander off so much and he wont feel worse. well, we all jus have to trust and knw tht God will provide (: Saturday, March 5, 2005, 08:28 p.m. yay :D my alignments are finally correct (: haha, and oh man, firstly i have to clarify something, haha, the last entry there was by darrell lim jun yan cause he was too bored and had nothing better to do lah. haha, how ego right ? been a tiring two long weeks, had so many things to do. haha, not forgetting tht history essay which i completed at 5am this wed morning. and i have one more to complete. haha, so much for wanting to take history. but well, i have to stick with wht i chose and not regret it. at least the interest is there (: results are out, didnt do tht badly considering the amount of effort i put into preparing for o's. thank God so much tht i made it through, and i jus made my jae application. hope the road tht i take wont be one full of regrets again and tht God will take a bigger part of my life (: sometimes, it's jus so easy to forget ure a Christian and jus have fun. it's never easy with committments but i'm lovin it :D haha hope everyone's happy with their results ! it's alwys impt to be contented with wht you have :D honestly, i hope tht jc's not the defining period of one's life. i really dont want things to stay this way between us, but all i can do is jus stand aside and see this friendship slowly fall apart. now the SHOUTOUTS :D ; /EDIT STACY (: hey girl ! hope ure doing fine and tht ure feeling better and all :D train hard ! and maybe ill see you ard in bishan soon again ! haha :D loveyouloads shehui haha, hey girl, how've you been ! lol, you better take care of yourself and try to put more emphasis on your studies kay. you really cant go thru life with the "i dont like this so im not gna do it" attitude. mm, okays, take care ! tell me where you get posted to kay ? lovelots (: ping hey girl, haha, im alwys blogging aft trg cause i have trg 3 times a week :D haha, but im getting quite bored of blogging now alr. haha, so are you still working now ? how's it ? haha, wht do i have to do with singapore idol ? haha, im lost ! thanks dear (: hope ure contented with your results too ! haha, oh yah ! thanks for the advice abt the alignment thingy. it's so much better now :D haha, lovelove ! see you ard soon kay ! STRAWBERRY (: haha, you go find the recipe and the time to do it too ! haha, are you gna be having hols during our march hols ? haha, hope you've been doing fine and tht school's good for you :D oohhh, haha, the strawberry&banana drawing's super cute. thanks dear ! haha, loveyouloads ! CORNSISTER :D hey dear ! haha, was nice seeing you again aft so so long ! haha, hope ure doing fine (: and tht ure happy with your results ! love you loads dear ! you take care kay ! weichang the black sheep haha, hey you. thanks for staying up and keeping me company while i was doing my stupid history essay ! haha, i may have to do tht again man. lol, anyways, was nice talking to you aft so long (: glad tht ure doing fine and all ! haha, take care and God bless :D done :D Tuesday, March 1, 2005, 02:17 p.m. hi im kristine n im so beautiful and pretty! MUAHAHAHA! darrell lim jun yan is damn shuai too! lolx.. tho he is short but his specs r damn kewl! oh btw hes damn sweet too. love; darrell Sunday, February 6, 2005, 07:14 p.m. school's been pretty fine, haha, i think things are getting better jus tht the politics are kicking in. but i find it so pointless, ah wells, thts nth much i can do. haha, and i got a nice angel who gave me chocolates :D jeremy and ding came down the other day to visit mrs chia so we were all at the same table talking. haha, it's alwys nice to catch up on the old times :D mm, had a really fun day ytd, though i had to wake up SO EARLY, right kenneth ? woke up at 630 den kenneth, ryan and weijie came over to prepare all the food for the rest of the team. haha, dad fetched us to siloso while we waited for the rest of them to come down. haha, started playing volleyball first. haha, ryan's super corny ! we played touch rug too aft all of them came. haha, went kayaking with alps, sam, tina, cherie, travis, ben moh, shawn and jonathan. haha, super fun, we kept trying to capsize ben and shawn but we cldnt, haha, darn, but it was still quite fun anyways (: went blading aft tht and tht silly alps had to fall twice, haha, hope ure fine alr girl ! went for dinner at noodle hut den had some discussion session at macs aft tht. haha, cabbed back with kenneth, ryan and ben and we hung ard at the park before going back aft 1130, haha, i thoroughly enjoyed myself ytd (: really thank God for the weather and for blessing the time of fellowship :D just another day, tht started out like any other; just another day, tht i had the best day of my life had church today, mass taking of photos cause wendi's leaving on tuesday :( sighs, im gna miss her so much, come to think of it, she practically watched me grow up ! ahhh :( im getting those funny tingles now. everyone's leaving :( love you dear ! take care and keep us informed k ! yd will never be the same without you :( shall go continue uploading my photos (: Thursday, January 27, 2005, 10:28 p.m. back fr trg (: haha, trg was super horrible today, my blister was giving my problems and i kept missing my arrow ! but sch was fine (: nette crashed hist lecture today along with her other friends. super funny, they were trying so hard to pretend they had the set of notes ! haha, miss tht girl along with everyone else in st nicks loads and loads : ( oh, HI WYN ! haha, sorry i cant send you off again, ive got trg ! tell me next time when ure back kay. haha, cant believe i didnt even realise tht ure still in singapore, haha, how retarded. oohhh, continue reading up abt the past kay, haha, hilarious. you take care girl (:(: history presentation tmr, i better go read and not fall asleep again. and shucks ! my gp ! ahhh, haha, nevermind (: hope all goes well tmr (: Wednesday, January 26, 2005, 07:03 p.m. jus got back fr trg : ( darn, i kept missing my arrow ! haha, but trg was fun, in a funny way, thts why it's FUNny right. haha, i think i caught the zhaoyu disease alr. trg tmr again, i think im gna die tmr man (: hope my arm takes me through it and doesnt die on me. lessons were pretty okay today, i hardly slept, which is a good thing (: haha, i think so many things are gna change now tht im in jc. i miss st nicks so much lah. oh wells, hoe things jus dont change drastically and tht i'll be able to cope (: Monday, January 24, 2005, 08:07 p.m. school was fine today, had pe, oh man, pt :/ and we had to run !! i feel so unfit, haha, but nevermind lah. went to j8 with alpps, pokchew, ivan and zhaoyu and we went to cartel for lunch, i still feel really sick up till now, i think the fatigue's getting to me again : ( stoned in sch and did maths tutorial two with bun for awhile before philip stole him away from me to go play touch. haha, den went to the library to join jem, kenneth, matthew and alicia when bun went for trg (: haha, i cant believe im actually doing work so early in the year, but oh wells, no more honeymoon for me. and there's like a gp tutorial tht i have to finish by tonight and hist readings. ahhh !! better go off now, i hope my posts show (: Sunday, January 23, 2005, 07:03 p.m. jus got back home fr badminton with kenneth. haha, playing with him is HILARIOUS. jus come and experience it for yourself. haha, im dead tired though. finally done with the stupid hist assignment, but it's pretty interesting lah. haha, not tht i understand alot of it anyways (: had dance night audits ytd, went really horribly, i was super braindead and i cldnt rem any of the steps at all, okay, maybe the first set lah, but aft tht i jus stoned while everyone else was still dancing. i think i really gotta step outta my shell and stop thinking abt how badly i look, haha, who let this disaster into dance man. school was much better this week, and ive miraculously earned myself alot of funny names it's quite embarrassing. haha, but i really love my class (: 1A01E, you guys rock :D:D if any of you are even reading this. haha, and we'r not disintegrating anymore ! really glad for all the prayers answered, esp for your dad, really thank God i tell you (: haha, it's amazing how God works, sorry, i really have to say tht. haha, oohhh, aft dance audits ryan and i headed down to church where i kept disappearing to go get food fr the wedding (: haha, at least my parents and siblings were there kay, not like i was freeloading or anything. haha, den left early cause we were going to celebrate shehui's and renny's bdays (:(: i miss those girls so much ! we better meet up EVERY MONTH kay ! had a jolly good time with them as usual, making so much noise and laughing so much, jus like the good ol' days (: haha, i make myself sound so old ! but i really miss those times i had in st nicks (: now for the shoutouts (: moley it was so nice seeing you guys again ! though we jus bumped into each other ! haha, squeeze tht pimple kay ! haha, i hope you guys are all doing fine ! ill try and go down to visit you soon kay ! and call me sometime soon ! haha (: take care loads ! thanks for alwys being here for me :D STRAWBERRY haha, girl ! i miss you loads man ! havent seen you for really really long ! haha, you go and look for the recipe first kay ! haha, i jus hope YOU dont blow up the kitchen or sth, haha, there's a pretty high tendency tht you will, haha, kiddings (: im jus one phone call away too ! call me if you need me or anything cause im alwys here kay (: glad to hear tht school's much better for you now :D take care girl ! lovelots (: -BIGHUG janice hey girl !! haha, how did you find my blog ?! haha, really glad i saw you tht day too :D i miss st nicks so much man ! see you ard soon too kay you silly girl ! lovelots (:(: lynn (: lynn as in lynn kan right ? haha, you look fine in sch lah ! jus tht you alwys look really really tired ! haha, im glad to have you in dance man (: if not i'd feel so outta place ! haha, hope this yr's good for you ! dont stress ! haha, how come woochiao knws abt my blog ? weird ! haha, see you in sch dear ! (: lovelots :D ping ! hey girl ! wht you up to these days ? havent really talked to you ! haha, thanks again for the layout :D i love it, haha, nicenice (: ive been doing fine, school's getting much better so i really thank God for tht (: you take care and update me abt your life kay ! i love you loads dear ! (: -BIGHUG POKCHEW; frenchcake haha, you stupid girl ! tell the whole world abt the pokchew thing lah, how pokky ! haha, im feeling better alr (: thanks to the nice friend i have in you, haha, im so sweet right, i knw (: dont need to tell me, haha, kiddings, see you in school tmr girl ! lovelots (: CORNSISTER :D:D haha, come for yf next week kay ! i dont think anyone wld miss it for anything though, haha, glad tht the threesome turned up for yd today though i was super stone and sleepy as usual, haha, hope everything's going fine with you (: take care kay ! and ill see you on sat ! love you loads girl ! done (: haha, dinnerdinner here i come :D i mean, im going dinnering now, haha :D Saturday, January 15, 2005, 07:14 p.m. at the club now, been trying to get myself to be a good mood the whole day but it's just not working. jus came fr church though, and it's pretty good cause i have a fun smallgroup this year :D some people really dont mean wht they say and it really puts me off. argh, why do pple like being like tht ? seriously, i dont understand. hope tmr will be a better day, gna watch howie bowl now (: Saturday, January 15, 2005, 10:05 a.m. it's really sad to watch friendships fade aft so long. was talking to kenneth last night abt school and how much i hate it and all the things tht have been going on. sth he said really made me think. wht is our friendship really built on ? it's sth tht ive never really thought about but it's really time i did. on the way home fr bowling last night, i suddenly realised how naive i was to concentrate on not changing for the worst in jc and to live a Christ-centered life. i mean, even if i dont change, pple may change and their priorities too, who cares abt whether i change or not. well, thts how the world works, cant do anything abt it. had og outing ytd, went to gdns for lunch, yummy yummy lunch :D it was super good, ive never eaten there before and im glad i did ! haha, den we went to guanghao's place where the rest played bridge and i fell asleep on the sofa. haha (: woke up late today so i didnt go for the dance audits for syf. hope i dont get screwed ! Thursday, January 13, 2005, 08:27 p.m. everything's going wrong, trg's going to start next week and im so gna die. hope i can concentrate tmr night when i play if not im going to be bowling shit games again. ah wells. to you if ure even reading this, sorry ! gimme some time, i jus gotta get used to it cause things have never been this way and i think it's gna get worse, like it's not even into the first month of school and things are so bad alr. sigh, i hope our friendship pulls through my whole bod's aching, havent been eating well, i jus cant seem to find my appetite. walked outta sch with darrell and weijie today, oh man, darrell is hilarious. he said alot of things today tht didnt make sense ! HAHA (: oh man, and weijie and i fined him one buck for every vulgarity he says but tht weijie gave him back the money :/ haha, hope tmr will be a better day cause i really hate sch, there's nth to look forward to anymore and friendships are drifting apart. i think ive become a tad bit too oversensitive but i really cant help it esp if the person's really impt to me. argh, i wish i wasnt in jc, and oh man, the canteen is infested with all the j1s doing their tutorials when official/proper lessons havent even started yet, HELP :/ sch sucks, i miss st nicks, if you think sn sucks, cause i used to too and i cldnt wait to get out, you'll be surprised how much you'll miss it : ( i miss fourhope Monday, January 10, 2005, 09:42 p.m. you knw sometimes you really want something so much, but yet when you get it you dont really want it anymore ? is it jus me ? darn, i think there's sth seriously wrong with me. and the spots are killing me !! Monday, January 10, 2005, 06:17 p.m. oh man, there are like funny spots appearing on my face and i have no idea wht they are cause they'r not pimples. argh, irritating. first day of official lessons today and i only had one lecture. crashed chem lecture though. haha, oh man, im like doing sea hist lah, can die. i didnt even knw wht was going on throughout the lecture ?! felt so much more at home when i was in the chem lecture though the tchr is ABIT lame, jus abit only. talked to yonghui during lunch, or recess, haha, whatever you call it. i miss st nicks food !! : ( she, glenda and i decided to go back but we still dont knw when. haha, made weijie skip his lecture den me, bun and him went out to j8 to have lunch where we bumped into my class so we decided to eat with my class. haha, of course those two idiots didnt eat, i didnt even knw they were jus following me :/ went back to sch aft tht and went to try and look for my bro but we failed miserably. haha, watched the rest play soccer with two girls and then went back to rj. haha, i finally got my ball to the proshop to get it drilled (: jus ABIT slow only. haha, but the guy's really nice. gotta go back on friday to get my ball back. trg's like starting next week, gna die ! oh man. aft going to victor's my mum took me to zara to check out the sale which is miserable. maybe we jus went to late but the whole store is EMPTY. quite sad, but anyway, im home now (: haha, dinner soon ! Sunday, January 9, 2005, 06:41 p.m. vitagen seriously helps digest my food better (: haha, been sleeping so much i dont knw whts wrong with me, i think orientation really drained me alot. though lessons are starting, and ill be having SO MANY free periods for the first week, im kinda dreading it, i miss my og ! hope the arts classes will be having the same lectures minus and humans classes :D:D Saturday, January 8, 2005, 07:07 p.m. oh man, i really enjoyed myself during orientation :D i almost cried last night when they were singing the songs and all, ahhhh ! im really gna miss EXODUS so much im telling you : ( oh wells had o night last night (: haha, it's kinda sad tht orientation's finally ended and tht lessons are starting but im glad i was in exodus and we really had ALOT of fun during orientation though we took awhile to start opening up. took like ard 80 pictures last night (: uploading them now, check the links. haha (: basically we played games with our classes ytd, quite fun :D haha, i like my class ! but im still gna try and switch to science. cant bear to leave them if i really change my combi though. sighs, we had this really funny ogl for our class, shall go check his name ltr. lol, he was like teaching us how to cheat and stuf, quite funny, and crappy too. had lunch with exodus then we headed down to amk mrt to collect funds for the tsunami victims. was pretty tiring but afterall, it's all for a good cause and the pple there really need alot of money. haha, dragged stelli and justin to donate :D but at least they did. haha, the sn girls arh.. -shakes head but i have to admit im usually like tht too :D heh, cant blame them. and there was this aunty who kept chasing us away cause she was trying to sell tissue paper ! in the end our darling cheryln bought some fr her. and king lun went to talk to her, although he cant really speak dialect. haha, tht guy, he wanted to buy some tissue but she had alr left by then. oohhh, and we [cheryln, liming and i] collected alot of money ! :D:D yay, headed back to sch while the rest went down to sengkang to buy the ties for us. went home to bathe den rushed back to sch to meet the rest of exodus :D had the beauty pagent thing, king and najiah represented us, haha, ultra corny. and OHMYGOSH, marcjoe was darn darn funny lah. he went up for his group with this other girl, and he was dressed in a suit, afterwards they took off their jackets and he was in a shiny pink bra and she was in a shiny pink g-string. haha, had the campfire and dance aft tht den we all headed to our k'cove to give out the presents : ( went out for supper with the group then headed home at ard 1130. oohhh, and guanghao jus had to step on my slipper during the dance and it broke ! ahhh, haha, funnyfunny, so we walked all the way to 711 to get plasters before supper and plastered up my slipper. haha (: thanks aisyha, yongyao and liming for going with me :D for our last supper, he had prata and yongyao was trying to do his chubbyprata again and he failed, once again. haha, during the amazing race he cldnt even bite aft stuffin the prata into his mouth ! haha (: im gna miss exodus so much, RJC is ten thousand times better than wht i thought it wld be and im really thankful to God for tht (: Wednesday, January 5, 2005, 09:18 p.m. IM SO TIRED, oh man, orientation is killing me. i mean it's fun but it's so tiring ! haha, had amazing race today. haha, too tired to go into detail. but there's NO ONE i knw in my class ! and im not in the same class as charylyn or bun ! :( but at least yonghui's in my senior class :D Monday, January 3, 2005, 09:51 p.m. hellohello (: first day of sch wasnt tht bad. haha, i like the girls in my group ! like obviously not in tht way lah, my ogl's are really nice (: haha, was quite a crazy yet super tiring day and my shoes were giving me blisters. mark the gay and ding came down to see the j1s (: haha, im telling you the sch is so huge it's IMPOSSIBLE to find your way ard. 8.5 hectares !! oh man. haha, i think i'd better go study the map tonight, haha, kiddings :D hope tmr will be a better day (: haha, wuan's crashing ! yay :D haha, gotta go off before my mum screams. Sunday, January 2, 2005, 08:17 p.m. ive sneezed at least ten thousand times today already man :/ but it feels pretty good to be ill since i dont usually fall ill. haha, i knw im crazy :D today's message was on living a life of contentment and of courage (: throughout life's uncertainties, i knw God was alwys there beside me, esp when i faced so many probs within my family and no one really knew wht i was going through and facing, i knw God did and He still does. it's a comforting fact tht He is alwys beside us, seeing us through whatever difficulties we face. and no matter how great the temptation, it's never too hard for us to overcome, especially with God as our helper., so what do we have to fear really ? pastor yap used this story today to help us understand better (: in this tribe, everytime a child turns thirteen, he/she wld have to spend a night in the wilderness all alone, in the center of a thick jungle. note tht all their lives, till their thirteenth birthday, they wld have never left the comfort and security of the tribe. so when this boy in the tribe turned thirteen, he wasnt spared fr this funny tradition. the boy was blindfolded and led to the center of the jungle tht night. when his blindfold was removed, he opened his eyes and found tht he was in a totally foreign atmosphere, surrounded only by darkness. everytime a twig snapped, he imagined a wild animal pouncing out fr the trees. everytime an animal howled, he imagined a wolf pouncing out to attack him. even when the wind blew, he wondered wht sinister sound it masked. [i think thts wht he said] so thts how he spent the whole night, imagining his worst fears coming alive. when dawn broke, his surroundings were revealed to him. he was in the middle of something almost like a garden, with flora and fauna all around him. [okay, sounds weird but you get the point] there was a path ahead of him, and when he looked furthur, he saw a man, armed with a bow and arrow, at the end of the path. he realised his father had been standing there, all night, keeping guard, watching out for whatever creatures tht may have come to hunt him. jus like the boy, we are all living in a world full of fears. we may feel like we have been left all alone to face our trials and difficulties, but one thing tht from today, we must never forget is tht God is alwys by our side. whatever troubles and disasters we face, He will never leave our side. He will stand guard and eliminate all evil. how great is our God :D we can alwys trust in Him to give us rest and protection and to watch over us (: ill continue ltr, gotta go collect my allowance ! back ! haha, my mum increased my allowance by 10bucks :D but it's still not tht much considering the mediocre sum i used to get. haha, joel owes me a meal, yay, tht idiot. haha, nevermind. i shall be nice and patient (: anyways, DING if ure reading this, the cheesecake is super good ! i love the base man (: haha, nicenicenice. better go already, haha, i shall write the letter to myself and on yd tmr :D have fun in school everyone ! Saturday, January 1, 2005, 11:09 p.m. little jack is soooo cute (: he's either bradley or spencer pickren. haha, i think they'r brothers but i dont knw which is which man. but both are still cute :D     haha, oohhh, they'r identical twins and they jus turned two only, haha, and they share the role of little jack :D and they live in folsom, dont knw where tht is ! May I talk to the boys? Sure. Here's Spencer. Hi, Spencer. How are you? Muffled sounds and then silence. Wendy Pickren explains that after kissing the phone, Spencer went to get a toy train. He gets back on the line. Choo-choo. Bye-bye. Wendy Pickren puts Bradley on the line. Hi, Bradley. Do you like choo-choo trains? Yesssss, chooo. Indecipherable murmuring. Wendy Pickren gets back on the phone. check this out (: haha, it's a vid of them, but jus for my reference :D Saturday, January 1, 2005, 09:47 p.m. jus got home from church. haha, didnt go for their bbq in the end ! sorry guys ! but my mum didnt allow me to go. in the end i went for my church bbq instead : ( im telling you, my mum's getting more and more unreasonable. remember the cheesecake ding baked for me ? she went on and on abt how selfish i was and how much she sacrificed for us and how much money she spends on us jus cause i asked her to let me at least take the first bite then ill let her eat. aft all, the cake was given to me not her right. grrr, ah wells, she's like tht. mm,back to the bbq, haha, hardly ate anything cause i didnt wanta pay and i'd feel bad if i jus freeloaded. haha, so anyway, we hung ard and watched justin and edric feed kenji. haha, corny. rach lois and i then decided to go over to j8 to get sth to eat. ended up eating at the coffeeshop above the bus interchange with rach, lois, michelle, tracie, else, edric, sarah, justin, theodore, daniel lee, andrew, yingquan and daniel's second bro cause everywhere else was so crowded. haha, i got really bored aft i finished my mixed rice so i started shooting ice at yingquan. haha, im telling you, andrew is so cute lah ! he chewed all the ice, put all the bits into the straw then shot EVERYTHING at me, haha, including his saliva i think, quite disgusting but he's so cute ! haha, and he's only ten (: justin and edric got irritated with my spitting of ice and edric started too and justin was flicking me ! haha, you grasshead ! but anyway, dinner was enjoyable lah :D haha, thank God for blessing tht time of fellowship (: walked rach and sarah to get food for their dad and sis then walked back to the mrt station to wait for my parents to get me. so now im home, haha (: tata. oohhh, and andrew is my second love aft lil' jack ! haha, all the super cute little boys. and im not a paedophile mind you, haha, or however you spell it :D oohhh, haha, and matthew found two pple fr his sch who are in my og (: altho i dont knw them, it's still quite comforting lah. haha, and turnip said iris is nice :D she's sounds nice anyway ! haha, all the other ogs have funny names. i think so far mine sounds the most decent.. like me :D haha, kiddings, im really going now (: TATA Saturday, January 1, 2005, 01:52 p.m. HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone (: cant believe 2004 has jus ended,it jus flew by so quickly. i guess thts wht happens when you have a major exam eh. went out with bestie ytd morning. haha, had to wake up super early cause i told my mum i'd be home early. haha, we watched meet the fockers at like ten in the morning. super funny show, if you havent caught it et, go catch it. haha, im in love with lil' jack ! haha, he's mine :D haha, we had lunch at pizza hut and the stupid lady didnt wanta give us our students' discount. ah wells, haha, cant blame her, she was jus doing her job afterall. haha, im telling you tht guy is super lame. i forgot wht we were talking abt but anyway, i said i have no idea, and tht boy said i have blind-dea. how lame is tht :/ anyways, headed home and took a nap before dinner aft tht (: haha, ooohh, and i saw my favourite waitress on my way to town :D haha had new years eve dinner at this funky italian restaurant last night with two other families. haha, the food's super good jus tht you have to wait like super duper long for it. didnt even get to my main course and i had to leave for church already. but thts alright (: the appetizers and starters were more than enough. left the dinner at ard ten and went down to church. haha, ding baked cheesecake ! and i got two slices :D havent tried it yet but it smells REALLY YUMMY. haha, he added an extra layer of choc for the base and bailey's into the cheesy part :D my favourite ! haha, service was pretty okay, haha, but edric kwok was like falling asleep lah. he said he was going to dethrone me as the queen of sleepyheads. haha, in ten thousand yrs lah. haha, it was nice seeing jason and haan hui come back for service (: we played sparklers aft the service, haha, okay, at least the rest played. i was taking photos :D still no matches for yingquan's and my star :D yay ! haha, it's the one in the background. nice right :D wanted to go for prata but in the end my mum wldnt let me so i had to go home : ( oh wells, haha, have church ltr, yet another bbq but im going for the one at kenny's house. haha, ltrs :D Thursday, December 30, 2004, 10:05 p.m. haha, ooookies, my ogl jus called me (: im in this grp called exodus. hope there are pple i knw in the same group too ! haha, she sounds really nice (: tell me if ure reading this and if ure in the same group kay ! ohmanohman, exciting. haha, my bro keeps banging the comp. Thursday, December 30, 2004, 09:24 p.m. had an okay day today. mum woke me up super earl, or at least much earlier than the time i wld usually wake up, cause josh and his dad were coming over. haha, had yummy nasi lemak for lunch. haha, mum and uncle andrew were like talking fr aft lunch all the way till abt 545. like non stop ! so i was talking to josh and he was moving fr sofa to sofa in the living room cause there's sth wrong with his body and he transfers heat to the sofa like uber quickly. haha, weird lah tht guy. but it was nice talking to him, talked abt all the funny stuf in the world and we got quite sleepy waiting for our parents to finish talking abt their stupid banking stuf tht we were counting the lights in my living room. haha, i found out today tht in my living room alone, i have like 23 lights. haha, quite amazing. and tht funny boy went to tell my mum tht we have 23 lights in the living room. haha, i think my mum is seriously in love with you josh, but not in tht way, you wish lah. haha had a great time ytd, apart fr the horrible smelling seafood they were barbequeing. haha, talking abt smell, josh thinks its funny tht i talk abt things tht are smell alot, and he finds it amazing tht i dont eat seafood. haha, oohhh, back to the bbq. sorry, tht josh is jus funny. haha, i hope had a good night last night (: haha, all i did was watch the guys play mahjong, and justin suaning elyssa. haha, and those girls made me try the spoilt turtle. you knw the funny thing tht you sit on in playgrounds and rock to and fro ? luckily i didnt fall for it lah ! haha, had a good time fellowshipping (: thank God for blessing tht time tht all our friends came just come together and enjoy each others' company :D ruth jus msged me and told me tht she loves me. haha, not lesbo love lah (: but tht reminds me, tht i shd jus tell the pple i love tht i love them, and not leave one day, so suddenly tht i never ever get the chance to tell them tht i do. i mean not tht kinda love lah, you knw wht i mean. IN NO ORDER OF PREFERENCE.. to ruth, wendi, maine, rach, lois, debbo, julianne, nicolette, merissa, elsa, elyssa, michelletan, sarah, renny, yixian, bernice, lingyi, jingchuan, shehui, michelle, rebekah, mel wong, joe, mel, ping, lisa the porkchop, wyn, leanne, nat, stelli, poots, sara, ruyu, siqi, nick, wilfred, kenji, ding, sam, tim, kinyip, edric, justin, matthewchuah, jeremy, matthewlee, jem, wuan, gao, ryan, mark, yaozhi, khengwei, kenny, david, joel, mrspongebobmybrowncowandB1, josh, alex, howie, alvin, dru, josh and xavier ILOVEYOU all (: and joel, i do NOT like trans kay, haha, if ure ever going to read this. Wednesday, December 29, 2004, 12:45 p.m. jus did my links and photos (: haha, i didnt even knw my class had a blog. and it had to take me two years to find out. heh, woops (: going to leave to meet nick, nicolette and merissa soon so we can make our way down for rach's bbq :D going to have a blast there ! haha, too bad m mum wont let me stay cause josh and his family are coming over tmr morning apparently. ah wells been watch mvp my valentine or whatever it's called in english since i came back from camp. haha, i want a bf like duan chenfeng ! haha, okay, im crazy. kinda reminded me of the past. so many things have changed in sucha short span of time. quite scary if you think abt it. haha, gotta go soon (: Tuesday, December 28, 2004, 10:01 p.m. oookies (: i can finally see it ! haha, THANKS PING ! haha, i love the new template (: nicenice :D haha, just did my links. lalala, they'r abit outdated so tell me if yours is like long gone and ill relink kay ? haha went out to get cornsister's present just now with david (: haha, hope she likes it ! den met andrea, khengwei, kenny, and 3 of khengwei's friends. mm, i think sam, adri and fiona. haha, tht idiot dragged me fr taka to ps, how nice. had waffles (: yummy, im finally gna be able to fall ill :D haha, okayokay, i knw im crazy but ive been wanting to fall ill for a really long time. haha (: came home early cause i told my mum i wld, haha, but had to wait really long for the stupid bus tho. all the buses except mine came, haha, how nice. but really thank God for the weather :D it was superr nice, jus rained and pretty cooling. aft i went to bangkok, i realised tht i take ALOT of things for granted, esp safety and even a proper living place. and i really thank God for the little coincidences in life. someone once said "when i stop believing, the coincidences stop happening" but i forgot who said it. haha, i read it somewhere lah (: and when i found out tht the tsunami hit thailand, i was so glad i had already come back fr there. how amazing God works in our lives :D praise Him. and for providing a way into the jc of my choice even though my appeal got rejected. so many things to praise God for :D Tuesday, December 28, 2004, 07:43 p.m. how come the template wont show ! grrr Tuesday, December 28, 2004, 07:38 p.m. new template (: thanks to ping ! haha, thanks dear :D haha, you better take care of the cough of yours kay ? things havent been going too well, but it's fine :D had a blast at camp, the messages were really really GOOD and it really helped me identify the areas in my life tht i have to improve on :D going to start life anew, i really wanta live a Christlike life and serve God in everyway i can :D haha, sounds weird coming fr me right. but this time i wanta do it right. really thank all those pple who've been here for me (: maine, rach, lois, ruth, wendi, debbo and many many more. and esp nick. i really thank God for blessing me with a friend like you. rach's bday tmr (: haha, happy early bday dear ! love you loads. Sunday, December 5, 2004, 01:42 p.m. back (: finally updating before i go for camp ltr on in the evening :D prom was pretty okay, haha, sharon au was our guest of honour and i was the last one to find out cause i havent been to school in ages (: okayokay, slow i knw. haha, took a whole loada photos but still missed out some pple : ( ah wells. kinda sad now come to think of it. im finally leaving the school aft TEN LONG years there. i spent more than half my life there alr. it can really be considered my second home, like xiaozhang used to say. cant imagine not seeing the pple tht i have been seeing for the past ten yrs anymore. at least less often lah. its jus so weird. and ill be missing all the girls+food+teachers. ahhh, haha, time really passes so quickly. oh wells, haha, i escaped part of the dinner to go have dinner outside cause 70% of the dinner was seafood. which means i wldnt have anything to eat. haha, and the room tht we got stinks like hell ! oh wells, the rest were all talking abt really freak stuf and ghost stories i think. so i took ling's receiver and blasted the radio till i fell asleep so i wldnt have to hear them talking. haha (: and apparently i rolled to the center of the bed ( i was really trying to stay to my side ! ) and three of them had to squeeze in one single bed and two of them slept on the fllor :D heh, not my fault. but i really did enjoy myself lah (: had class chalet on the 2nd. another stinking room. and this time it was MUCH WORSE. it stank of seafood mind you. and there were peacocks in the balcony : thts sentosa for you. haha, i arrived there pretty earl so waited for the rest at the lobby and went out to get them ltr on. haha, went swimming with a few of them den went to kayak aft most of them had come. shared a kayak with renny. haha, gosh. we rowed the thing to the extreme end and took off our lifevests and jus laid down to suntan. all the way till we floated near shore and the lifeguard ALMOST scolded us. haha, it was pretty fun cause there were waves and we were bumping up and down. had bbq in the night but it just had to rain and we were running outta food. so jingchuan renny and i ran all the way down in the rain to 711 to get more stuf. haha, quite fun tho. when we reached there we realised we cld have taken a bus down : had alot of fun there, took ALOT of photos. man, im gna miss my class. to think i wanted to change class at the start of secthree. haha, thank goodness i didnt cause ive found so many good friends in my classmates (: praise God. haha, had church bbq ytd. gna fall sick soon fr all the bbqs ! went to the park to hang out aft bbqing all the food. we threw margarine into the pit and the smoke was stinging our eyes ! quite retarded lah. had brownies for desert and we lit candles in the park the sat down to eat. took a few good photos :D shall upload soon. haha, i better go pack (: gna have a blast ltr at camp. think im supp to be workshop leader. haha, wish me luck :D hope i get into a good jc when posting is done. ah wells. going to bangkok fr 15th to 19th. SHOPPING :D take care Monday, November 15, 2004, 03:43 a.m. morning :D it's almost 4am in the morning. haha, my hand's are aching fr all the maths i just did. haha, cant stand myself (: -yawns yay yay ! i caught him today :D haha, yesyes i knw, im crazy, not my fault lah. im pooped, shall get some rest before i start muggin hist today :D nights Friday, November 12, 2004, 06:01 p.m. i get high whenever ure around sweeping fr my head to my toes i gotta get my feet back on the ground cause you make me go outta my way crossing the line making me say wht i have in mind you make me so excited and i dont wanta fight it i start to blush you are my sugar rush aint nothing better baby is this for real maybe i start to blush you are my sugar rush i got a sweet tooth and a taste for you and it might be too obvious but i cant help myself fr wht i do cause you make me go outta my way crossing the line making me say wht i have in mind you make me so excited and i dont wanta fight it i start to blush you are my sugar rush aint nothing better baby is this for real maybe i start to blush you are my sugar rush okayokay, i knw im supp to be studying, but im getting so tired of the book already ! did physics and history today (: hope i dont forget everything by next week. f o u r more dreadful papers till freedom :D cant wait ! haha, wish me luck. i'm getting tired of pitas-ing alr Sunday, November 7, 2004, 12:58 p.m. MY TESTIMONIALS ARE ALL GONE : ( ah wells, the big o's are not too bad, can't wait for it to be over and then i can go for my chocolate buffet, ice cream with mel and many man other things :D Monday, August 30, 2004, 07:16 p.m. from a long time ago jus in time i'll save the day take you too my castle far away ; haha (: my current fairytale ! i love tht part of the song :D so sweet ! two DREADFUL weeks to our DREADFUL prelims ! i'm soooooo dead ! kinda starting to feel the pressure and freaking out !! ah wells, jus got back the stupid stupid ppr, got a freaking 20 for my l1r5, i'm so gonna be able to make it for top 5 jcs lah. ah wells, we'll jus see how things go lah :( study study and study. maybe tht'll make up for the past three yrs of slacking ! there'r like so many things tht i wanta do aft o's, but i still have to wait for so long ! cant stand the wait. if only time passes as slowly as it does while i'm thinking abt aft the exams. haha, no more slacking for ms kristine koh anymore :( anyway, MEL i got your letter today ! and being the nice girl tht i am i sacrificed my precious time to reply the letter. haha, jus kidding, was jus bored, the studying is doing me more harm then good, you'll get the letter when i manage to buy stamps cause they'r currently outta stock at home ! haha, call me soon or sth yeah, bored stiff ! okayokay, see you ard soon kay? but i dont know if i can make it out during the hols cause it's my last chance to mug, so we'll see how when you call kay? anyway, i cant reply you or anyone else cause there's NO MONEY in my card (: haha, take care girl ! love lots (: LISAA haha, i jus realised my handwriting then was really horrible ! how did you manage to copy all my notes fr the book ! haha, our dear lynette's having trouble reading my scribblings (: heh, yeah ! found my stapler ! turns out tht it was on my table all along, hidden under the stacks of paper (: blur me ! anyway, hope the prep for prelims are going well :D see you ard soon yeah? pig out aft o's ! love you :D LEANNE haha, aei, are you going for farewell ?! i cant decide yet ! anyway, i'll reply your entry soon cause it's SO LONG ! haha, sorry girl (: love you as much tho ! haha, i'll see you ard in sch you slacker ! Wednesday, August 4, 2004, 05:13 p.m. this feeling inside me is almost more than i can take; so much has happened the past week, really makes me think (: ah wells, but i'm glad i'm not alone. so many things have screwed up, trying to resolve them, it's like the love life's down, family life's bad, and social.. i have no idea ! haha, thanks to all those who have been quietly standing by me, it really helps alot to know tht ure not alone when things go wrong. i think i've been hit pretty bad the past few weeks, trying to get on track again ! kristine shall be a happy girl (: chocolate bananas ! haha (: this WHOLE week has been super hectic, seven tests in all and out of those seven, three are mock exams. jus had my english one today (: the LAST ONE ! finally. but i still have ss tmr ! hope it's open book, i hate ss ! had a crazy recess today ! haha, joe, i hope i made you feel guilty ! =p haha, kidding, sorry for the irritation i caused :D heh shoutouts time (: havent done this for really long cause i've been so lazy :D heh LISAA (: hellooes (: haha, okay, tht was a retarded start ! i was wondering who the person who signed tht entry was ! haha, turns out it was you (: you can stop thanking me now alr my dear girl, it was jus a small favour, haha. loads of stuf went wrong but things are more or less back to normal alr (: how's things over your side? haha, i changed my number, using a temp phone cause my phone got confiscated (: i'll msg you the num ltr. take care dear (: -bighug joette chiew tsin mun porkbun who goes to DOOM :D haha, hope the english was okay ! i bumped into ele on the way out. you guys finished so fast !! haha, you dont live in a turtle shell lah, you live in a.. BAKERY ! endless supply of bread. haha, thanks for being here for the little nerd here (: lurfez youx osox :D HAHA ele LURFEX YOUX TOOX !! haha :D lea haha, how cld you forget abt me you lousy junior ! haha, i jus went for dance two weeks ago wht ! haha, dont accuse me okay ! but now i dont have to go alr so YAY ! :D you still have one yr to go =p dont you jus looovvveeeeee dance ? no lah, i think you better sack him before he diverts his attention to you, then you'll suffer the same fate as me. haha (: must update me kay ! haha, you take care too (: see you ard in sch you skinny thing (: DONE :D Saturday, July 24, 2004, 06:30 a.m. everything's going wrong, how wonderful (: Friday, July 23, 2004, 06:09 p.m. gosh, i'm so darn bored. spent the whole day at home cause i didnt go to sch :D haha, woops (: i'm still a good girl lah. woke up at 930 and did work fr ten all the way till 330. with a SHORT lunch break in between (: not bad right. haha (: mel haha, you better not say i'm telling you. so embarassing ! and i think it's gna be weird since we stay so close ! and i think it's onesided :( ah wells. i think ni dui ta dong xin right? anyway, i searched the net for the continuation of the connie and carla thing ! but i cldnt find anything. so irritating. and you, havent told me wht he said yet you pig ! haha, im addicted to some coffe cream flavoured chocolates now. too bad im finishing them alr, and they cant be found in singapore =p if not i'd share some with you. haha, love you slacker ! and i'm no banana ! ben and jerry's here we come ! :D joe haha, helps ! i'm dying alr ! ure taking so long to blog. haha, anyway, iloveyoubestie ! thanks for the advice (: i'll do my breathing exercises everynight and punch my flat pillow flatter :D haha, see you on monday ! Thursday, July 22, 2004, 11:39 p.m. yay (: i finally finished the stupid cme ppt presentation. haha, it's craziness, on teen suicide. meanwhile, i'm watching oc :D yay ! i love the show. had a pretty bad day in sch today. two humanities tests, can it get any worse, oh wells, it will :( getting really stressed out and all. and the worst thing abt it is tht i've never been stressed in my whole entire 16 yrs so i dont know wht to do abt it now. sickening, ah wells. all the fatigue is getting to me, as i told joe, it feels like all the walls are caving in on me and tht i have no escape except to face it. back to my oc, i'll be back (: haha, oc's the nicest show ever :D and mel can't watch it =p haha, oh yeah ! we must do it again yeah? so fun ! haha, i wanta catch ALOT of shows :D sometimes watching oc makes me dream. like ryan and marissa are so happy tog, or so it seems. and they can share the same friends too ! it jus seems so perfect, but it IS a show afterall right. haha, but it jus leads me to dream, and think abt the guy i'll end up with for the rest of my life. quite cool, haha, hope i'll find him. but then again, it's still so far away. but it's alwys nice and comforting, esp in times of need, tht you know someone who loves you is there and will stand by you. go thru all your trials alongside with you and at the end of the day, you guys will grow in love (: it's jus a nice feeling. haha, away fr all the thoughts of the exams and stuf :D wht to do, i had like 4hrs of tuition ytd. luckily my chi tuition tchr cancelled tuition today cause she's sick. ah wells, hope she's feeling better (: she's a really funky tchr, not like leanne's freaky tuition tchr who's somehow kinda stalking me. weirdo, but scary too. leanne, if ure reading this, please sack him ! haha =p sch's getting really tiring but im glad i have my classmates and jemks to accompany thru the day and beyond tht (: i love jus laughing my heart out during recess, takin my mind off other things (: haha, tht mark huang, cant even remember the time of the show in which his prettypretty girl stars in. lol, he's becoming excessively infatuated with all the prettygirls he sees. haha, okayokay, im exaggerating :D shall go off now before my dad comes to check on me :D i love you guys loads ! haha, you know who you are. and mel too (: rem not to tell anyone arh ! Friday, June 25, 2004, 05:03 p.m. argh, everything's so screwed up now! gotta change my mindset real soon before more harm is done. so much has changed the past few months it's pretty amazigng, yet it kinda hurts, and of course sucks too. jus wanta say thanks to all the pple who've been here for me, esp my classmates (: i guess sometimes you've gotta be more open in the way you think and stop hanging on to the past. i shall jus concentrate on my studies and try to be happy at the same time. afterall, there's still a lot to be done and this hols has been a total screw up, the worst i've had. not to forget, there was dance during the hols to and aft this, mum's gna make me stop bowling jus like how she made me stop swimming. and the workload's gna start piling up. think i'm gna be a changed person aft this whole experience. helppppppppppppp Tuesday, March 30, 2004, 10:10 p.m. yay, finally online. but jus done with my work only. this is getting really tiring ! =/ sch's stressing me out man. korkor, im so gna burn a hole in your pocket soon ! haha (: needa pig out to destress. haha, went for dance today. tht mrs soh is really sickening =/ ah wells, dance abit den went off to slack at the corner, laughing at mongolian. my goodness, feel like taping up her hwole face so tht no one will lose their appetites man. haha, and joe came up with a few new phrases today, like "you make my butt boil" and sth else i cant rem. haha, she's really lame man, but nevertheless, still my bestest bestie ! haha, joe, the msges werent lagging la, i wus eating so cldnt use my phone. haha, and today's recess wus surprisingly interesting eh (: -winks haha, so fated to bump into ahem ! lol, had a really fun outing with ping, joe, david, yaozhi, khengwei and kenny ytd also. so lame la ! cant stand it man. david, if ure reading this, i want my motorised wheelchair for my bday this yr kay? and im dead serious ! haha (: and stop, really, stop nagging me abt your bbq ! argh =/ and you better respect my fren im telling you. seriously. if not arh, yopu can forget abt us turnin up =p and im seriously in need of a new template man ! Sunday, September 19, 2004, 06:56 p.m. at the club now, using the comp once again. and tht idiot howie heng is really IRRITATING !! =/ argh. and tht stupid mother of mine, had to waste almost 20 on cab fare to go home and get clothes. like wth. haha, and the cabbies are like how retarded. haha, really dam funny. i wus like "at the traffic light turn right" so he went, "ok, so at the traffic right turn light right?" haha, =/ darn lame. den when i entered his cab he wus like "good aftnn!!" and mind you it wus 6PM alr. haha, lame. the other cabbie wus like "did you and my call jus now? thot some small girl answered the phone" thts for having a baby like voice pver the phone =/ ah wells. haha, shall go and bathe to stop howie fr saying tht im dirrty. grrr, and he's proclaiming how good he is now, "i'm too good i'm too good" haha, tht lamer =/ Thursday, March 25, 2004, 12:37 p.m. haha, online now, jus had my health checkup and in the library waiting for the rest to finish. thank goodness im alright. haha, but i think my eyesight deteriorated ! grrr, and joe, better wash my shorts clean kay. haha, you idiot ! shall go off now, nth better to do (: haha Tuesday, March 23, 2004, 08:44 p.m. online again. haha, watch the gospel of john today. wus a really good show. esp aft i did the bible study of on the book of john. not bad, jus tht a few small lil parts are a lil distorted. other than tht, it's pretty good. want to watch with xav, shiwei and abel. haha, tht dodobird fell asleep in the middle of the show. wht a dodo =/ gerald joined us soon aft. haha, and he wus dancing below the tv when they played outkast's hey ya vid. then on the way home, bumped into abel. like another abel, my neighbour. tht guy's mad. haha. ah wells, anyway, to the jemks, really sorry i didnt hang out with you guys today :( hope you guys arent angry. went down to induz3 tht day. haha, wus really good. den aft we left, went to visit shiwei at buttercup. tried to log on but cldnt cause there wus some prob with the server =/ ah wells. haha, and tht idiot made me write some recipe for him? shall get down to studying now, gna faint and die soon. Friday, March 19, 2004, 07:00 p.m. okay okay, i know, im finally blogging right. haha, aint everyone so proud of me :D in the club now. had trg jus now. lol, not too bad aft the really SUPER bad 4 games i bowled on wednesday. haha, going for my granduncle's bday ltr on. i think im going to get really stiff, due to boredom MAYBE. wonder wth im going to do there man. haha, still wondering if i shd go for industrie tmr. who's going?!? TELL ME TELL ME kay. got back my ppr last week. really BAD. gna have to start my serious studying soon cause i have less than 2 terms before my prelims! shit, so dead. im a cooked guinea pig! oh, did you know that pple eat deep fried guinea pigs somewhere in the world. forgot where tho. and im not uttering nonsense ! i caught some commentary on this on discovery. haha, really gross right. ah wells, caught honey and dirty dancing 2 recently. goodness, everyone, must catch those two shows! they'r really GOOD. haha, sexaye ! lol, and im going to catch saturday night fever, courtesy of mr ding. haha, and he's paying for me too. wonderful :D lol, they'r really ex man. anyway, to my DEAREST BESTIE, yay, thanks for the really LOOOONG testimonial. haha :D you'r gna get yours! how's the debate thing coming along? and the eye 2? man, cant believe i missed it. now have to drag someone to watch it with me ! haha, i love you loads girl ! thanks for being the greatest bestie ever, despite tht 'quarrel' we had (: love you to bits! cant wait till sch starts. till then ! Friday, March 5, 2004, 05:50 p.m. whoa, at the club now. skipped trg today cause had to do the class capt duty thing =/ ah wells. haha, and ended up running 4x100 relay. happy happy (: i think we got into finals. haha, good enough la :D recess wus fun as usual. haha, love the jemks ! (: we rock right? at first i thought tht my recess duty wus today. so i ran all the way down to the fitness gym only to realise it's next week. how smart right. haha, woops (: really boring here. shall go off now. Monday, March 1, 2004, 07:34 p.m. finally i'm updating my new blog. haha (: sch wus fine today. got back my shitty chinese results. got only an a2. dam pathetic. everyone else got a one !! argh, oh wells. went for lunch with joe and mel today. super funny man. we dared mel to drink the funny soup with alot of extra ingredients ! like we added ginger, chilli, soya sauce and coke. haha, and she drank all of it. not bad ! :D den joe and i left soon aft she left for tuition. haha, and joe got iced. there wus this old lady trying to sell tissue to us and she asked us if we were sisters cause we look alike. lol, and joe's the dajie? =/ ah wells, we headed to the interchange aft shopping at ntuc. and i finally found lime ! the 30 funky pple cannot make it ! like all of them are ugly except for one guy who's quite okay =/ aft tht joe and i went home. and joe's bus wus right in front of mine so she cld see me. she msged me some funny stuf and i wus laughing to myself in the bus. dam embarrassing man ! all your fault la joe ! grrr, haha, anyway, im officially a nerd ! carried out my study plan today. only have 5 more chengyu to go before im done for today ! and im getting my new levi's cause i fulfilled my mum's criteria ! happy happy :D shall go off now. anyway, to the jemks, i love you all! |
